Starting..and Scared...
Working on day 2 AF!
Well, I'm on AF day 2 now, it is nearly 10 at night and I'm holding things together sort of! .Woke up feeling groggy, but not as bad as I thought I would, and definitely better than I have in themorning for many years. I have been doing everything to try to distract myself from thinking about AL, but we all know that is easy to say but hard to do. Am trying to change what I do during the day etc and vary routines to avoid that familiarity - I may not know all my triggers, but I know that if I do what I always do the craving will be intense.
So far, apart from alternating between sweating and the chills and also the occassional sets of shakes I'm dealing with it...though I almost started gnawing my own arm off at one point
It's challenging, but still better than picking up the bottle again. Based upon the amount of water I have been chugging, I see a high water bill coming up..but if that is all it costs, then it's a small cost. Still feeling a bit emotionally fragile, but like startingover said, think of it as a nasty case of the flu. I'm going to distract myself for the next couple of hours and then get to bed..should be tired enough since last night I slept somewhat badly (which was predictable I guess).
Photogirl, I've tried to pour bottles down the sink many times over the years..and the few times I have been successful in doing so in the past, I've known in the back of my mind that I was only fooling myself..it wasn't until the last time I poured a bottle down the sink that I realised that is where I wanted it to stay! And hey, pouring that bottle down the sink was a good move really on your part..no temptation! I hope the rest of your day 2 works out well.
I hope everyone else is doing ok and hanging in there as best they can..even these two days for me, small steps though they may be, are comforting in a way, since I know I have
some mental strength left in me to do this and everyone's support and encouragement here is fantastic.
I am trying desperately hard to be able to stay AF free tomorrow and start a new separate thread for day 3! :thanks:
Working on day 2 AF!
Well, I'm on AF day 2 now, it is nearly 10 at night and I'm holding things together sort of! .Woke up feeling groggy, but not as bad as I thought I would, and definitely better than I have in themorning for many years. I have been doing everything to try to distract myself from thinking about AL, but we all know that is easy to say but hard to do. Am trying to change what I do during the day etc and vary routines to avoid that familiarity - I may not know all my triggers, but I know that if I do what I always do the craving will be intense.
So far, apart from alternating between sweating and the chills and also the occassional sets of shakes I'm dealing with it...though I almost started gnawing my own arm off at one point
It's challenging, but still better than picking up the bottle again. Based upon the amount of water I have been chugging, I see a high water bill coming up..but if that is all it costs, then it's a small cost. Still feeling a bit emotionally fragile, but like startingover said, think of it as a nasty case of the flu. I'm going to distract myself for the next couple of hours and then get to bed..should be tired enough since last night I slept somewhat badly (which was predictable I guess). Photogirl, I've tried to pour bottles down the sink many times over the years..and the few times I have been successful in doing so in the past, I've known in the back of my mind that I was only fooling myself..it wasn't until the last time I poured a bottle down the sink that I realised that is where I wanted it to stay! And hey, pouring that bottle down the sink was a good move really on your part..no temptation! I hope the rest of your day 2 works out well.
I hope everyone else is doing ok and hanging in there as best they can..even these two days for me, small steps though they may be, are comforting in a way, since I know I have
some mental strength left in me to do this and everyone's support and encouragement here is fantastic.
I am trying desperately hard to be able to stay AF free tomorrow and start a new separate thread for day 3! :thanks:
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