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[BLee]

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blackouts

Hi RodeoRose , I know what they are like , black outs , scarey,bewildering and they make you feel ashamed , or at least i felt that way , I have had them before
and also drove drunk many times years ago , now I wouldn't go near a car if i was drinking. I am not a social drinker, I actually have no problem not drinking in front of people or with people , especillay when I have to drive , my problem is more insideous and sneaky I feel like I am a closet bing drinker, (I stop for awhile and then start again once I am feeling good physically )and then at home alone can drink one or two bottles of wine alone by myself easily until I stumbel into bed .:new:

[strawman]

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Rodeorose - You know, I have a feeling he may already knows, but he's afraid to ask you what's up. Either way I'd bet it would be a great conversation, where he's been there. And you're probably going to be nervous, but maybe the blackout was a good wake up call and you were just lucky it happened there! Good Luck
BLee - I know what you're saying, I was great at hiding my drinking. If I was as good at saving money as I was at drinking, I'd be a milloinaire!! Your sign says you're new, Welcome, this is a great site, esp. when you start to feel fuzzy, come here and read the threads, get involved, it feels great to talk about it and get it out!:welcome:

[strawman]

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Hey, it's day 5 AF, and I made it home without drinking!! Amazing :alf:

[Rodeorose]

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Ok, Strawman....I didn't really have to say anything to my brother. He said that he was glad I made it home safe and I told him yeah, that was pretty bad and he said he should have driven me home that day. That's about it! Told him I was not drinking anymore........and I didn't have any wine with his wife or my BF last night....today is Day 3!

[roaming]

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Hi Rodeorose

Welcome! I am on day 2 also so maybe u and I could compare notes. Your story is much same as mine. The shame that goes with the drinking is really wrecking me. I have done so many embarassing things. Times it has been so bad I do wonder is there a way out and will others forget my actions in time. Let's hope the two of us can make it til two weeks know it wont be easy for me as I have been thru very stressful times lately and have a wedding next week were I hope to be af . Good luck to you

[savon19]

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Rodeorose - that you've been eating healthy AND quit smoking... is WAY ahead of me. I'm looking UP to you, m'dear.

Sure, it's not good to drink & drive. But you know it now and won't do it again.

And, roaming, I relate.

The ones who don't forgive (if not forget) will show you who are truly important.

[Rodeorose]

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Thanks Savon and Roaming. I believe that if we stick together we can lick this drinking thing!!!

[strawman]

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Rodeorose, You GO girl!!!!!!!! 3rd day-NICE!! I was really glad to hear from you. I'm glad it worked out ok with your brother. Sounds like he was worried about you, that's nice! It must feel good to have that over with. Congrats on not drinking last night :goodjob:
Now, keep it up! You can do it! I'm actually on day 6 and I can't believe it! , feeling nice and mellow today, and I have a lot of stuff going on at work. It's a beautiful Maine spring day here today. Hope you have a great day! Keep it up!! Go Rodeorose!!

[roaming]

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Hi Rodeorose!

How you doing now? I had been 5 day af free and yesterday on 6th day I had one glass of wine and managed to stop at that which I am really proud of. I do have a funeral and a wedding this week so here's hoping! Hope you are doing well - Roaming

[Rodeorose]

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Roaming, I made it to Saturday about 4pm and then had 5 beers which I thought was ok. I mean it was Saturday and I didn't start drinking till 4 when I usually start about 7am. And I only had 5 beers. But then yesterday, I pulled my usual weekend thing and started drinking beer first thing in the morning and drank all day. Passed out on the couch about 6pm and don't remember much. And this morning I feel guilty and I hate myself.

[DeeBee]

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Pull yourself up by the bra-straps and begin again Rose.
Learn your lesson from this weekend and more forward.
Sending you strength :-)

[Rodeorose]

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Thank you DeeBee. I'm just sitting here crying, wishing I didn't have to go to work.

[roaming]

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Hi Rodeorose!

Sorry to hear about your set back but don't fret, just put the weekend behind you and start again, At least you made some progress so eventually you will get there. I got thru my funeral still no drink thank god but still wedding to go to on Saturday so here's hoping. Roaming

[Rodeorose]

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Good for you Roaming!!! You are doing a great job! You're totally awesome!! I am back on day 3 today and feel better after my weekend.....getting ready to go on vacation, leaving Saturday and I'm very excited!! Keep up the good work, Roaming....you'll be just fine at the wedding! O'Douls really helps me, makes me feel like I'm drinking but it's AF.

[roaming]

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Hi Roaming hope you had good vacation. I had a friend over last Thursday before wedding so had good drink with her(which I now regret) didn't drink at all at wedding and didn't miss it. AF since last Thursday now on day 8 hopefully it will last. Roaming