My name is Lucy. And I am 17 years old.
I know I probably sound really young, especially to be seeking help for drinking.
But I'm so scared of myself right now that I didn't know what to do!
I literally just went on google and looked for some alcohol counciling near where I live. But I feel too embarassed to actually go to one of these places.
I drink. A lot. And I am dependant. I guess that does make me an alcoholic. But that's something that makes me sick to admit!
I woke up this morning feeling like crap. I'd thrown up 3 times last night at this party me and some of my friends had. I was so drunk I've blacked out parts of the night.
I've been shaking all day and I haven't been able to stomach food.
It's not just the little parties... I'm struggling to remember the last night I went without alcohol. So tonight feels very strange...
I drink by myself a lot. And when I know theres some wine in the house, I can't help starting to drink at stupid times of the day. The earliest I've started drinking is 11am... recently anyway.
I feel so sad all the time. I just start crying.. I have people around me who are there for me. I have friends. I have both my parents there all the time. And I have the most wonderful boyfriend who I've been with for 3 years now.
I just need some people to talk to. No one knows I've signed up to this. But I want to sort this out myself. I need to get through this before I get really out of controll.
Thank you so much. Lucy x
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