My name is Lucy. And I am 17 years old.
I know I probably sound really young, especially to be seeking help for drinking.
But I'm so scared of myself right now that I didn't know what to do!
I literally just went on google and looked for some alcohol counciling near where I live. But I feel too embarassed to actually go to one of these places.
I drink. A lot. And I am dependant. I guess that does make me an alcoholic. But that's something that makes me sick to admit!
I woke up this morning feeling like crap. I'd thrown up 3 times last night at this party me and some of my friends had. I was so drunk I've blacked out parts of the night.
I've been shaking all day and I haven't been able to stomach food.
It's not just the little parties... I'm struggling to remember the last night I went without alcohol. So tonight feels very strange...
I drink by myself a lot. And when I know theres some wine in the house, I can't help starting to drink at stupid times of the day. The earliest I've started drinking is 11am... recently anyway.
I feel so sad all the time. I just start crying.. I have people around me who are there for me. I have friends. I have both my parents there all the time. And I have the most wonderful boyfriend who I've been with for 3 years now.
I just need some people to talk to. No one knows I've signed up to this. But I want to sort this out myself. I need to get through this before I get really out of controll.
Thank you so much. Lucy x

Welcome Lucy......lots of help here. People are here to help, we've all been their. Do what ever you feel you need to do....AA, etc, but come back here for support. IAD.

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