After looking around this site for hours the past couple days and reading the pdf book, I'm ready to jump in I guess... My last binge was 4 days ago, and I've been AF for 4 days, after getting the motivation from this site.
What happened that last night was that, after drinking all day at a festival, my boyfriend took me to a restaurant, where I couldn't eat because I had no appetite after all the beer. We got into an argument, he left me there, and I proceeded to head back to the bar where, after a few hours of drinking as much as I could, the story ends because I haven't the foggiest idea what happened. I woke up with boyfriend calling for the tenth time worried about me, I was on a strangers couch, and had no idea how I got there.
I consider it a good night out if I remember all of it. I'd say I drink about 4-5 nights a week, mostly at home. Every couple of months (it used to be much more - having cut back to that I considered an accomplishment) I get plastered and can't remember a thing. My boyfriend has threatened to leave me because of it, and every time he does I vow to get control of it but it obviously hasn't worked. I stopped drinking my drink of choice (first, vodka, then wine), and switched to beer thinking that I could always handle that. Clearly not.
I think this was the last straw for my boyfriend. I haven't heard from him in three days. We live together. I'm sure he'll be moving out, which kills me - to know that I drove away the person that mattered the most in the world to me.
So I need to change. I read the book and guess I need to read it again because I'm still confused about the meds. I have a few initial questions...
(1) I'm an attorney starting my own business so the mental confusion thing on the topa really scares me. Is this very common, and if it happens to me, how long does it take to go away when you stop taking it?
(2) I'm also hyperthyroid and on meds for that. The kudzu rescue has a note to be careful if you have thyroid issues. Does annyone have more info on the link there?
and (3) I'd like to find a local doctor who understands this program. Are there lists by location, or should I tell everyone where I am and get recommendations?
There may be better forums for these questions, but I thought 'starting out' would be easiest and I'll go from there. If anyone made it to the end, thank you so much for listening. I'm just aching from guilt and shame and sadness right now, but excited to finally get this problem - hopefully! - under control.
Lights Out
What happened that last night was that, after drinking all day at a festival, my boyfriend took me to a restaurant, where I couldn't eat because I had no appetite after all the beer. We got into an argument, he left me there, and I proceeded to head back to the bar where, after a few hours of drinking as much as I could, the story ends because I haven't the foggiest idea what happened. I woke up with boyfriend calling for the tenth time worried about me, I was on a strangers couch, and had no idea how I got there.
I consider it a good night out if I remember all of it. I'd say I drink about 4-5 nights a week, mostly at home. Every couple of months (it used to be much more - having cut back to that I considered an accomplishment) I get plastered and can't remember a thing. My boyfriend has threatened to leave me because of it, and every time he does I vow to get control of it but it obviously hasn't worked. I stopped drinking my drink of choice (first, vodka, then wine), and switched to beer thinking that I could always handle that. Clearly not.
I think this was the last straw for my boyfriend. I haven't heard from him in three days. We live together. I'm sure he'll be moving out, which kills me - to know that I drove away the person that mattered the most in the world to me.
So I need to change. I read the book and guess I need to read it again because I'm still confused about the meds. I have a few initial questions...
(1) I'm an attorney starting my own business so the mental confusion thing on the topa really scares me. Is this very common, and if it happens to me, how long does it take to go away when you stop taking it?
(2) I'm also hyperthyroid and on meds for that. The kudzu rescue has a note to be careful if you have thyroid issues. Does annyone have more info on the link there?
and (3) I'd like to find a local doctor who understands this program. Are there lists by location, or should I tell everyone where I am and get recommendations?
There may be better forums for these questions, but I thought 'starting out' would be easiest and I'll go from there. If anyone made it to the end, thank you so much for listening. I'm just aching from guilt and shame and sadness right now, but excited to finally get this problem - hopefully! - under control.
Lights Out
I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
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