I was thinking about not posting until I had a week or more of AF days.
Someone very wise from site told me that was kind of defeating the purpose. So, here I am in all my (non) Glory!
I had it worked out (in my mind!) that I could drink yesterday AND get things done. I drank & got nothing done.
Worst part is that I returned a call I got from my brother (who Rarely calls me!). It was later that evening, and I felt like I was sober by that point. But he wanted to get me off the phone... so I think he could tell. The last time I spoke to him before that, I was drinking.
(But, honestly, does he have a Camera in my place that shows him when I've been drinking? On the other hand, the odds have been good that I have...)
So here I am - Day 1. Cannot mod. Cannot drink. Do not want to drink. (I know that's easy to say on Day 1...)
I pray that I have learned an important lesson, because otherwise yesterday truly was a complete ruin.
And I hope that others can learn from my mistakes, as well.
It SO isn't worth it. :upset:
PS - When I've chosen to drink, I thought myself quite clever because I would buy "only" a pint so I couldn't drink too much. Guess what? A PINT is WAY too much!!! Who was I fooling..?
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