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[LucyFem]

Phewww, last night was a toughie. Its a School Holiday today, therefore i had a great excuse to have a few drinkies as no getting up early for the School run. My mind was saying to have a drink its ok....no early rise and shine. I didnt. So, day nine for me today. Clear head, all housework in order, and thought id take my son Bowling today. He had a friend over for tea in the week, a while since that has happened, i rustled up fish fingers and chips, WOW, ice cream for afters and they had a fabulous time, all because MUM was sober. Oh, and also lost 2lbs in 9 days!!!!, so tired though, go to bed tired and wake up tired. Anyway enough of me, Happy 1st of May to you all and hope all is good with you. xxx PS: thankyou for all your support on my journey of trying to beat the Vino. Ive a long way to go, well a lifetime, but im trying. Been binge drinking for 30 years in big style, 3 days non stop then recover for the rest of the week. x

[LucyFem]

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one2many.... thankyou. x

[Blue Sky]

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Hi Lucy

Great news on Day 9. Hope you can last the weekend, Bank Hols are always a trigger for me!

Why not plan things to do with your son, then you will be committed to getting up and going out and HAVE to be sober! That's my plan anyway, got a busy weekend ahead and it will be lovely sober but HELL with a hangover!! (Keep repeating that to myself!!)

[msfritz]

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me too

Lucy-

Way to go! I have gone 14 days AF and I feel better, but so exhausted! I hope everyone is right and this tired feeling will go away soon. I do sleep and feel better overall, just so tired for some reason. Good luck on weekend!

[voguefit]

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Well done Lucy! The guilt around kids and drinking is imense i know, i've been there the comments they made when i was drinking are like a knife thru the heart, my youngest 14yrs said the other week "I prefer it when you're not drinking Mum!" So tonight i've commited to an AF evening, just put the dinner in the oven so @ least he won't have to get his own 2nite which he has had to do on numerous occasions.
V xxx

[AstraiaJ.]

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Well done LF!!! I love the idea of my son having a friend over for tea -- here in the states they don't do that, instead they come over to "hang out." Coming over for tea sounds so much more lovely.

I sure know the feeling of "triggers" like no work the next day, or I "deserve" it since I've been AF for however many days, or whatever. These days what helps me the most is to stop and ask myself, "Why do you want to go to bed drugged?" And then someone else mentioned that they focus on the next morning, how exactly they want to feel the next day when they wake up and what they want to do. I really latched on to that strategy, and found that it really helps me to get through it too.

I also remember the constant sleepiness. It passed. Keep up the great work!

[alexis1313]

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Voguefit

The kids issue is the hardest – always tried to hide it from the kids – last Sunday was the worse – I’m so embarrassed – in front of the kids and my husband. Mom stumbled in and passed out – I can’t believe that’s me, that’s my life.
So day 5 AF. Told my son (also 14) that I will try not to drink for a while and now he is counting the days with me. I didn’t want to scare him and tell him that I really have a problem.

I’ve been drinking since I was 16, now I’m 43 – minus 2 pregnancy and couple of 9-12 months AF times that’s almost 21 years of drinking – everyday (at least in the last 15 of those) x 365days x 6 glasses of wine a night (at least) x 5oz – this is fun. – that would be 1,796 gallons of wine – 9053 bottles, 754 cases of wine.

Ok I’m an engineer. Tomorrow I’ll calculate the cost.

Lex

[AJAH]

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Oh that math!!!

Ewwww Lex...those numbers... I can relate. Actually, I can relate to your entire story. I'm your age, been drinking since 16 also, have kids and they say, "Mom, do you realize other kids never see their parents drunk and we see you drunk A LOT!!" It's comments like that which make me want to stop, slow down and get a big grip on this monster that is taking control of my life in the evenings. I had an event on Easter Sunday where my almost 13 year old wrote down on a note that she left me and also video taped me for me to see the next day (which I don't even remember) coming into her bedroom asking her dumb questions and her just saying "Mom, go to bed, just go to bed." That footage was an eye opener I guess you could say - proof in the puddin!

I'm now on the meds and trying to find other means of occupying my time in the evening vs. reaching for that wine glass and my companion that has been there by my side both cooking and doing whatever else I did until I lay myself down for the night. I want my kids to want to bring friends around, not be afraid of what state their mom will be in on any given night. This site is a step in the right direction for me. I was here before but maybe not with the right mindset. I think this time I am more determined. I want them to be proud of me. I feel more like the kid than the adult - sad isn't it?