I guess I need to tell a bit about my drinking story first.
I am a 31 year old female and have been drinking for several years. It started as weekends going out and partying and was the accepted thing to do. All of my friends would go out and get wasted. In fact in Australia if you DON?T drink you may as well walk around with a sign that says ?there is something seriously wrong with me?.
I found that as a person with severe anxiety problems that alcohol could take the edge away for me whether it be in social situations or just helping me sleep at night. So over the years I kept on drinking alone. Things have been pretty bad because of my drinking. I have lost count over the number of times I have woken up and not remembered what I did the night before ? only to hear the stories (usually embarrassing) from people the next day. I have very stupidly driven while I was drunk and one time over turned my friends car and charged for DUI. Even this didn?t stop me.
My drinking at home made me miss days from work because I woke up too sick to make it in. I would always make a plausible excuse and funnily enough no one would suspect that I have this problem. One of my favourite things to do on a weekend was just to buy a huge cask of wine and just keep drinking it ? staying indoors all weekend.
My God actually writing this down makes it all the more clearer what REAL problems I have.
I have gone through periods of sobriety and have then thought I had it beaten only to have ?one? drink and for it to turn into 100 instead.
My drinking has interfered with my past relationships. It wasn?t the ending of them but it didn?t help. Now I have met someone I really like and I don?t want to be the ?drunk? girl anymore. Over the past 3 weeks I have not had any alcohol except on the weekends. The only problem was that last weekend I got spectacularly drunk and ended up passing out in front of this guy after apparently verbally abusing him. I was so incredibly ashamed of myself.
I really need to do something that will help me continue. I have purchased the book but am very reluctant to take medication due to some severe reactions I have had to some medications. I am very scared and really need some encouragement.
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