OK, I'm starting a 30 day trip!

[mica]

Well, I'm not "mentally ready", nor do I really WANT to do this, but it is definitely time for me to begin my 30 AF stint. I tried back in February, before I had found this fantastic support group, and due to outside circumstances that should not have been an excuse, only made it a week. In the past, I waited until everything was in order for me, the planets lined up, the urge to quit strongly in my head and heart, and if I could hold my eyebrows correctly for long enough, in I would jump. Well, if I wait for all those things to be right this time, I'm afraid I'll never choose to go AF. I just gotta jump in and go for it.

I've been trying to moderate ever since finding out about RJ's book. I ordered it, read it, ordered the cds, and was really successful modding for about a week. But, I've so overdone it the last two Fridays and Sundays, that I know now that I've got to really get it out of my system. I have been an off and on poster (poster child?) on these threads, but I know I'll really need you all, and the wonderful support you give to get through this month. Thank you for being here for me. I guess we are all in this together, aren't we? So, I promise to be honest with you, and I promise to be here for you, too.

As my friends and I used to say as kids when we'd jump off the swing, "Here goes nothing!" But I really mean, here goes something big. I'm doing this thing.

[choppersmom]

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Hi Mica! Good luck on your 30 days AF stint. Keep coming here and posting, we are all here for you. From the sounds of your post, I would say you are "mentally ready", so go for it girlie!! :l

[Pan]

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Yep, Mica, you have the right attitude. Honesty is very important. If you feel connected enough to a promise you can do it. Yes, it is a HUGE thing and you should be very proud that you are even willing to start. You will feel so empowered when you reach your goal and will want to further it.

[mica]

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Thanks so much for your words of support. Knowing that everyone is so supportive, and that everyone really KNOWS makes me want to sit down and cry. Thank goodness for you all.

[Pan]

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mica;606883 wrote: Well, I'm not "mentally ready", nor do I really WANT to do this, but it is definitely time for me to begin my 30 AF stint. I tried back in February, before I had found this fantastic support group, and due to outside circumstances that should not have been an excuse, only made it a week. In the past, I waited until everything was in order for me, the planets lined up, the urge to quit strongly in my head and heart, and if I could hold my eyebrows correctly for long enough, in I would jump. Well, if I wait for all those things to be right this time, I'm afraid I'll never choose to go AF. I just gotta jump in and go for it.

I've been trying to moderate ever since finding out about RJ's book. I ordered it, read it, ordered the cds, and was really successful modding for about a week. But, I've so overdone it the last two Fridays and Sundays, that I know now that I've got to really get it out of my system. I have been an off and on poster (poster child?) on these threads, but I know I'll really need you all, and the wonderful support you give to get through this month. Thank you for being here for me. I guess we are all in this together, aren't we? So, I promise to be honest with you, and I promise to be here for you, too.

As my friends and I used to say as kids when we'd jump off the swing, "Here goes nothing!" But I really mean, here goes something big. I'm doing this thing.

You will NEVER be ready if you keep putting this off. I know exactly what you are saying. It may be hard, but what I need to say to you, is just remember the ACTUAL REASON you WANT to give up. The first euphoria will be addictive in itself. The follwing thoughts may try and trick you. I feel you are alot like me, so please, just keep on going. You can get to Day 30. Just push Day 4 and 6-7 away from your mind.

[ladybirdheart]

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I loved your post, Mica. I am shooting for 30 days also and know that I am cheering you on. It is clear from so many folks here it can be done one way or another. I look forward to hearing your way out.

[mica]

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THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! I love you guys. It is such a relief to know others know. I am the only one in my family with this addiction, and so it is really wonderful to know that there are people in the world who understand. I love the idea of not stressing about Day 7, just being in each day as it progresses. Thank you.

[Lavande]

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Glad you're on board Mica!

When I made my 30 days I was so happy I couldn't think of messing up again. It will be 6 weeks in just a couple of days and I'm staying with the program. Just wait - you'll see

Best of luck,
Lavande

[Anjicia]

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Best of luck

[tlrgs]

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GOOD LUCK AND JUST DO YOUR BEST ..

[The time is now]

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what

has been the best thong you noticed in your body from not drinking for over 30day s?

[mica]

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Day 2!

Hi, All,
Here I am, and just got home from the grocery store without my usual bottle of wine. It was a challenge! There was a time, oh, maybe ten years ago when I went for more than a year without drinking, so I know I can do it again. I know that that time, my body felt good, and I lost weight, but I also ended up severely depressed. I don't want THAT to end up happening this time.

Thanks again for all your words of support. You guys are great!

[ronnie]

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Hi Mica, I can so relate to your post I would love to join you on 30AF if you dont mind. I am so fed up with the way I have been feeling lately and I just want to be a better person and I can only do that sobar. I am on day 2 AF today how many AF days are you on? If you want to PM me you are more than welcome. TOGETHER (If you want to) WE WILL DO IT love ronnie xxx

[mica]

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Day 4

Still here! Yahoo! My garden is getting attention like never before.

[ronnie]

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Well done Mica, you are doing really really well, just remember to keep yourself really busy over the weekend and you will get through this and you will be so so proud of yourself. love ronnie xx