OK, I'm starting a 30 day trip!
The hangover and guilt lasts longer than the buzz. You may not want to stop but you know you need to stop. The longer you are AF the better you will feel and you will wonder why you did not do it sooner. Just do it.
mica;606883 wrote: Well, I'm not "mentally ready", nor do I really WANT to do this, but it is definitely time for me to begin my 30 AF stint. I tried back in February, before I had found this fantastic support group, and due to outside circumstances that should not have been an excuse, only made it a week. In the past, I waited until everything was in order for me, the planets lined up, the urge to quit strongly in my head and heart, and if I could hold my eyebrows correctly for long enough, in I would jump. Well, if I wait for all those things to be right this time, I'm afraid I'll never choose to go AF. I just gotta jump in and go for it.
I've been trying to moderate ever since finding out about RJ's book. I ordered it, read it, ordered the cds, and was really successful modding for about a week. But, I've so overdone it the last two Fridays and Sundays, that I know now that I've got to really get it out of my system. I have been an off and on poster (poster child?) on these threads, but I know I'll really need you all, and the wonderful support you give to get through this month. Thank you for being here for me. I guess we are all in this together, aren't we? So, I promise to be honest with you, and I promise to be here for you, too.
As my friends and I used to say as kids when we'd jump off the swing, "Here goes nothing!" But I really mean, here goes something big. I'm doing this thing.
I've been trying to moderate ever since finding out about RJ's book. I ordered it, read it, ordered the cds, and was really successful modding for about a week. But, I've so overdone it the last two Fridays and Sundays, that I know now that I've got to really get it out of my system. I have been an off and on poster (poster child?) on these threads, but I know I'll really need you all, and the wonderful support you give to get through this month. Thank you for being here for me. I guess we are all in this together, aren't we? So, I promise to be honest with you, and I promise to be here for you, too.
As my friends and I used to say as kids when we'd jump off the swing, "Here goes nothing!" But I really mean, here goes something big. I'm doing this thing.
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