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[CakeQueen]

Hello Everyone

I have just read through the posts i made a while ago .. I have to start again why the hell did I go through that just to go on holiday and not be able to control myself and then continue when I came home

i am disgusted with myself but already want a drink ..stupid stupid I am going to try again

so here goes my day 1

Love Tracy x

[Mad Mummy]

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Hi Cake Queen

Don't beat yourself up we've all done it (and will probably do it again...). Don't think about it as back to square 1 think about what you achieved before the holiday and then just do it. Holidays are hard and I always over do it and get into the same old bad habits, thankfully we don't take that many holidays so move on ODAT! You can do it again!

Bx

[Blue Sky]

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Welcome Back

Hi Cakey

I remember you. Glad you came back.

Holidays are a trigger for me. We are going away at the end of May and I'm a bit anxious about how it will work out. We are going with HB's family. They know I 'like a drink' (Brother-in-Law does too) but are unaware of just how much I drink. I know I'm going to have to be very careful if I don't want a graphic account going back to Mother-in-Law!

Anyway, move on. You can't change the past but you can change your future. Today is your Day 1.

[Anjicia]

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Don't beat yourself up cakey i've slipped many a time. Best of luck and just look forward each day.

[CakeQueen]

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Thanks all xx I know whats coming after my last de tox so I stocked up yesterday at the chemist
I got some headache tablets a case of flavoured lemon water some nytol lol I also got some lollies as I think these will help with the metal taste oh a a box of kalms it says the will help with sweating ewwww and nervous stuff

[MissMerlot]

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Welcome back cakey

I'm the queen of slip-ups and just started back at day 1
Yip,a day of shakes and sweats but it's over now and hey i survived and you know ul get through it 2.
Day 2...and just posting a quick hello,had a great sleep last night allbeit with a few weird dreams and alot of sweating.

My goal is to be able to say "No thanks,i don't want a drink" and mean it.
I went through my last 8 days af with "i'd love a wee glass of wine"...being my every 2nd thought...and constantly talking myself out of it but right now i figure if i had to spend my life wanting something but denying myself of it then surely i would never be happy or content...?
Will be a long learning curve but i talked the need for alcohol into my tired and weary brain so i hope and pray i can talk the need for not wanting it taking over my life.

Know this is possible by reading some of the tremendous stories on here.
Don't think i can handle modding cause like you cakey i find a special occaision just sends me into orbit and it's difficult to get back on track.
The thought of the dreaded day 1 always made me keep putting it off.:lame:

Feeling confident and upbeat today,know i won't everyday but will re-read this post when i'm feeling weak,and of course log on here..

I do not want a 2 drink 2day,,,,,

tomorrow i may feel different but for 2day,that is my mantra...

Just my 2c's worth everyone...

Wishing all you lovely girls & gals a happy sober day...


annie
xx

[CakeQueen]

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Blue Sky;608838 wrote: Hi Cakey

I remember you. Glad you came back.

Holidays are a trigger for me. We are going away at the end of May and I'm a bit anxious about how it will work out. We are going with HB's family. They know I 'like a drink' (Brother-in-Law does too) but are unaware of just how much I drink. I know I'm going to have to be very careful if I don't want a graphic account going back to Mother-in-Law!

Anyway, move on. You can't change the past but you can change your future. Today is your Day 1.

Hi Blue , thats what did me the holiday I thought I would have been ok but far too quickly reverted in to all day drinking and sunbathing ...lol it was bliss

[CakeQueen]

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anniemac;608858 wrote: I'm the queen of slip-ups and just started back at day 1
Yip,a day of shakes and sweats but it's over now and hey i survived and you know ul get through it 2.
Day 2...and just posting a quick hello,had a great sleep last night allbeit with a few weird dreams and alot of sweating.

My goal is to be able to say "No thanks,i don't want a drink" and mean it.
I went through my last 8 days af with "i'd love a wee glass of wine"...being my every 2nd thought...and constantly talking myself out of it but right now i figure if i had to spend my life wanting something but denying myself of it then surely i would never be happy or content...?
Will be a long learning curve but i talked the need for alcohol into my tired and weary brain so i hope and pray i can talk the need for not wanting it taking over my life.

Know this is possible by reading some of the tremendous stories on here.
Don't think i can handle modding cause like you cakey i find a special occaision just sends me into orbit and it's difficult to get back on track.
The thought of the dreaded day 1 always made me keep putting it off.:lame:

Feeling confident and upbeat today,know i won't everyday but will re-read this post when i'm feeling weak,and of course log on here..

I do not want a 2 drink 2day,,,,,

tomorrow i may feel different but for 2day,that is my mantra...

Just my 2c's worth everyone...

Wishing all you lovely girls & gals a happy sober day...


annie
xx

Hi Annie , I know how you feel , I am sat here wanting a drink to make the sickness and shakes stop trying to convince myself that I would just hhave the one ...yes course I would

I need to do at least 6 months dry before I can consider modding x right now 6 days would be a bonus

[Lavande]

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Hi Cake and annie,

Wishing you both a good and comfortable day

I just wanted to mention this, in case it may be of any help. I found that I needed a reason, more important than myself to quit. Yes, my health & welfare, my marriage, friendships, etc. were all important reasons but the thought of losing access to my new grandson pushed me over the edge. I just couldn't bear the thought of not being able to see him, hold him watch him grow............
I am happy to tell you that's what did it for me.

Maybe we all need just one important reason, other than ourselves to motivate us to do the right thing. Maybe you can look around and find that one thing, person or whatever it will take to get you to your goal. I'm 6 weeks AF now and won't even consider the possibility of modding some day - it just won't work for me, I know that now. A glass of wine is not worth destroying my relationship with my new grandson.

All the best to you both - stay strong.
Lavande

[polaryzed]

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Hey Cakes and Annie . . .

I agree don't waste any part of your day or mindset feeling bad . . . no-one is perfect . . . . we are only human, when I get together with family members, I am in the same boat your were in . . .

Live in the Moment of Now and realize what it is you really want and go for it.

Like Lava. said "look around and find that one thing, person or whatever it will take to get you to your goal".

for me it's this forum MWO, my personal internet research and my hobbies.

Great Stuff Lava on your 6 weeks. AWESOME!

[MissMerlot]

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lavande and pol,i think that may be my problem,i can't seem to 'get' what it is i really want,be it person,place or thing.I'm newly single and my kids are the only thing i have depending on me,and even then they are so busy that they only need me to make dinner,wash clothes and keep them in a clean and warm house.
i can't find a thing that interests me and trust me i've tried everything...only thing i enjoyed was my wine....
I just seem to have hit a midlife crisis of some sort(at 33)and haven't a clue wer my life is headed...
sorry,i'm just feeling sorry for myself here...missing my one and lonely little piece of me...big-time

praying that i find a goal....
at the minute it's mwo,and even when i'm on here the kids are forever complaining that they never get online.
can't do right for doing wrong...

prayers to you all for a sober & happy day 2moro

annie
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[MissMerlot]

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p.s

it's amazing how 11 hrs can make you slide into a hole...so much for me feeling upbeat this morning eh?

[Lavande]

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annie,

Keep your eyes & ears open - you never know when that one special reason to quit for good will come knocking at your door. In the meantime, you do have young children that need a healthy Mom, so try to do it for them. I do remember (believe it or not) being your age and feeling, basically, like a slave to the house, kids, husband, job, elderly parents, etc........ Looking back now, that may have had something to do with my down fall later in life. I held it together until I was 45 then lost it when my husband presented me with some severe disappoints.....you know how that goes

Try to take a little time, when you can, to do some soul searching. Try to picture, in your head, who & what you like to be when you 'grow up'!! I'll tell you this, once your kids grow up you're left with no one but you. Dream about the new you you want to be in the future and start your preparations now.

You can do it, you owe it to yourself.

All the best,
Lavande

[cacky]

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Honey, it sucks. im pleased with my relationships now. im happy with what i focus on now. hang on it will get better

[MissMerlot]

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thanks lav & cacky....don't worry i'm hanging in and keeping my eyes and ears peeled!

xx