Gee, what do you say when you come on somewhere like here. Um, i dont know where to start. I've been reading for a while now about different peoples stories and whilst im not where i was in terms of drinking now like i have been in the past two years i still think i have a long way to go. I've lost my family, friends but thank god i have my partner who i have given hell to over previous years still with me but only just.
Wine nearly ended everything in my life. I got up to drinking two bottles a night only a month ago. Since then and given the final ultamatum by my partner ive stopped drinking wine as that just made me feel really angry and just unhappy with my life. I will admit my other drink of choice is bundy rum which i do still drink but only in moderation. I dont get angry off that and after a hard days work i enjoy just having a couple of glasses but that is all.
I suppose the damage is done though with my family. It is a long story which really hurts me to the core but there is always two sides to every story. I've been estranged from my family from August last year which has just hurt me to the core which in turn made me feel like i should drink till the hurt went away, until i fell asleep, until i had a arguement with my partner over nothing in particular.
I suppose i should come clean straight up with you all and just say that im a gay person. Not that it should matter but i just want to be straight up with everyone off the bat. I'm a pretty down to earth guy but like everyone we have our own issues to deal with.
I'll stop rambling on now, sorry, im not usually one for big posts so i will leave it at that. I look forward to sharing our triumphs and falls together. After giving up the wine i feel so much better but i just want to start my life again now. I've been in the grip of this for way too long and it really has destroyed my life and friends - i have none right now. But this seems like a great site and i really look forward to sharing my thoughts with you all.
Cheers
TM
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