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[michigan]

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i stopped drinking for 3 weeks about a couple of months ago i felt really great. unfortunately i am now not AF. not feeling too good about myself could anyone help me with their encouragement. i am going to start my sobriety again today. :new::new:

[needtobefree]

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Here I Am!

After many years and a very sad week I've decided to doing something about my alcohol addiction. Life has gotten way too complicated to continue. My husband is ill, my Mom is losing her mind and my best friend is dying. To top all that off, my lovely daughter revealed to me what I've known for some time now. She is also an alcoholic. That pushed me over the edge. I'm hoping that through all our pain we can do this together and tame the family beast! This will be the hardest thing I've ever done in my life and beleive me I've been through more than most.

Okay, pity party over. Any and all words of encouragement will me most appreciated. I will present my plan to my husband 1st. I hope he'll support me.
:new

[mollyka]

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big fat mess

I keep trying and trying, promises made, broken, again and again and again,I managed 36 days af and went on holidays, thought I could do it - moderate - fell over and cracked my head open, everyone so kind, felt such a fool, and a mess. Came home, promised again, and again, and here I am again, drinking. Will go to bed tonight and maybe try again tomorrow, wish I was someone else, anyone else[/I]

[Lemonhead]

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Need,

I'm sorry there are so many truly difficult challenges for you all at the same time. This is a wonderful site to find support and practical information on stopping drinking. Being alcohol free for even a few days will help you to think more clearly. Please remember to take care of yourself, even if that means pursing individual treatment or saying "no" to others.

[Lavande]

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Welcome needtobefree & michigan,

We're here to offer all of the support & encouragement you need to succeed. May I suggest downloading & reading the MWO book, if you haven't already. It's full of useful info to help you make good plans for yourselves, ones that fit your individual needs and can commit to. See, that's really the big thing - you need to make the commitment to quit - once you do that, everything else will fall into place. You have to get that first AF day under your belt, then go for another, and another, and another, etc. Next thing you know you have a week AF, you are feeling good and oh so proud

Hello to Pan, mememe, KTAB, mollyka & Lemonhead (hope I didn't miss anyone). We know whether we've been here a few days or a few months - mess ups happen. We have to remember to not beat ourselves up, just jump back on the wagon and continue the journey, right??????????

We CAN all do this, we need to keep trying................
Never give up. I have developed a 'mantra' for myself when I get a drinking thought - 'No, you don't do that anymore'. Say that to yourselves a few times and the drinking thought goes away. It's been working for me for 8 weeks now. I also quit smoking 3 days ago so I'm using it for that too.
Guess how many times/day I'm telling myself 'No, you don't do that anymore'

Peace & Blessings to all of you.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Michigan and Needtobefree a big welcome to you both, you have found a great place here. I like you decided enough is enough and my life had to change in a big way. That was 12 Days ago and I havent drank since. I am still astounded on a daily basis by the support and encouragement offered by the people on this site, all in various stages of their own personal battles.
Hi Lavande well said on your last post, how true it is that the commitment really needs to be there. If it truely is then anything is possible.
Mollyka, you sound really down but remember yesterday is history, tomorrow is another day. You had a slip, please pick yourself up and try again. You are the same person that did 36 Days AF and you can do it again. We are here to help.
Keep safe
KTAB

[mememe]

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this is a test

[mememe]

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ok, it worked, i went for 5 days and drank today. i don't know why it's so hard to stay consistant with this. i don't enjoy drinking. i hate it actually. Not only that, but i enjoy not drinking. I want to have a self-image as a non-drinker. I have a young son. I want him to have a vision of his papa as a non-drinker. Drinking really isn't an option for me any more. Not only did I recently have 90 day non-drinking stint, but i also quit smoking weed for 60 days and i stopped smoking cigarettes for 3 weeks. I am back at all three again. I have 3 addictions, booze, cigarettes and weed. The big three. I'm sure these are the most common drug addictions. I want to be addiction free. I have to be. I don't have a choice. It's time to be an adult. Time for a paradigm shift. There are so many facets to drug addiction. I have to retrain my brain in regards to each one. One big one is the belief that drugs will provide me with some benefit. I am calling alcohol a drug. We all know it's just a drug. We are born perfect. we aren't born imperfect and there aren't any outside substances that can improve me whether it's creatively, socially, physically, intellectually, whatever. There isn't any toxic substance that i can take that will make me function better as a human. NOTHING! Not a thing. I function best when i am sober. sobriety rules. I can't and will not forget this.
mememe

[mememe]

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I don't know what to write. I'm not drinking today. yesterday i went to the beach with my wife and son. it was great. Afterwards a drink sounded nice. My wife knows i'm trying to quit but sometimes she likes to drink. She agreed that a drink sounded nice. We went and had some. I wish i hadn't. I always wish i hadn't. Same time it always happens. Afternoon the idea kicks in. I know it's a bad idea, it always is. I'm just going to do the one day at a time thing for awhile. Not drinking today. No Matter What, i'm not drinking today.

mememe

[~iirene~]

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mememe;621981 wrote: I don't know what to write. I'm not drinking today. yesterday i went to the beach with my wife and son. it was great. Afterwards a drink sounded nice. My wife knows i'm trying to quit but sometimes she likes to drink. She agreed that a drink sounded nice. We went and had some. I wish i hadn't. I always wish i hadn't. Same time it always happens. Afternoon the idea kicks in. I know it's a bad idea, it always is. I'm just going to do the one day at a time thing for awhile. Not drinking today. No Matter What, i'm not drinking today.

mememe

focus on all the good foods on the menu at the beach. i prefer to eat than drink now. think about that next time your wife wants a drink away from home. order some sea-food. many places offer mock drinks-non al ones, that are delicious. wishing you the best. food will reward one and take them urges away.

yesterday my partner was in the mood to drink. so i had soup, salad and mediterrainen pizza then dessert and coffee, who drove home, of course it was me. today i feel great.

start over and order something good next time.

[needtobefree]

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KTAB thanks for the welcoming words. I'm feeling better already. Feeling more in control. It's really hard. Not AF yet but I'll get there. I just wish I could figure out how to use this chat room thing! I'm a novice and could sure use some help.

[myprivateme]

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mememe... i am in the daily grind 12 to 16 hours a day...try with me? x Angel

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hi guys, Needtobefree I am glad your feeling a little better. Coming here and posting is the first step to getting AF, if you really want to. As I said I am only fairly new here myself and haven't used chat much.
If you go out to the 'my way out forums' page and scroll to the bottom you will see a heading 'whats gioing on' below that is 'members currently using chat' click on those words and it should direct you in from there.
KTAB

[mememe]

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hey everyone,
i'm still here. going for another day. I love being sober and i hate being drunk. i'm with you, Angel
mwmwmw

[Lavande]

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mememe,

I had to smile reading your post about 3 addictions - booze, cigarettes & weed.
I've just managed to kick the first two................
As far as the third - I guess I'm just too damn old. I really don't even remember the last time I ran across any weed. I suppose that's a good thing Everyone I know gave that up years ago when we all realized it messes with your memory, who needed that?

My decision to jump on & stay on the wagon was fueled by the birth of my first grandchild. I realized immediately that I couldn't (wouldn't) be around him with my perpetual hangover and the cloak of guilt & grief I had been carting around for many years. I am grateful to a new born baby and to everyone here at MWO for the support & encouragement I needed to reach my goal.

Hang in there, you can do it too