I snuck back on this site to read some more and just started to try the chat (which I couldn't figure out if you saw me on there and not responding). What I didn't know is that he had gotten out of bed and was standing behind me watching...for how long I have no idea (but I know he can't see well without his glasses). He scared the crap out of me and it would have been too obvious to close the site. My face was totally red and I looked guilty as hell. I can only imagine what he could have been thinking while watching me "chat". In order to keep his mind from wondering into crazy places, I was forced to tell him that I was trying to cut back. He walked away as if he was pissed. Still not sure what he was thinking or even if he believed me. I closed the site and crawled into bed with him. He told me the internet would not help me (coming from a complete computer illiterate guy). I told him the things you guys taught me yesterday and he became interested and rolled over. He huged me and told me that this is wonderful. I could have just cried. I still don't know if I can do this, and now he knows I am trying, so if I can't I will dissapoint us both.
This morning he got up and grabbed a couple dollars in quarters that I was keeping incase I couldn't stand it. I joked with him and asked if he was stealing my beer stash. He kissed me and told me he would have money tonight. Not sure where this came from, but I told him "I don't want to drink again today", and I meant it. I am going for day 2 today.
We are supposed to go camping tonight (which is a beer activity to me). I will try to get to the store and buy the 2 meds/vitamins that were recomended to me yesterday (I forgot the names, I will look it up again) before I go.
One more thing...what is with the night sweats???!!! We were swimming in bed all night and he kept commenting on hot hot I was when I was freezing...and I have a headache which I never got in the mornings after drinking. He covered me up and told me to hang in there. So is this normal? And if so, how long does this last?
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