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[dill]

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Glad to have you join us, starta! We need all the support we can get and will give all the support we can as well!

Pnut, I am in awe of you managing AF in a conference environment! How do you determine who dtes your drink ticket? Do they have to draw straws? Think of a number from 1-10? LOL!! Of course I've always been impressed with your exercise level. Are you still in training for the race? I didn't miss it, did I?

SD, it is amazing how much better June is than May. I really struggled in May. Do you know what I am noticing though? This AF June has been 'easier' than af April was. I guess the more af time you get, the stronger you get, do you think? I'm glad you PM'd me to do this. And I'm glad you PM'd me ahead of June so I had time to get my mind ready.

Shelby, just pick yourself up and dust yourself off and move forward. And, CONGRATULATIONS! on your karaoke win! You must be good. I've done karaoke at parties, but never in a public setting like a bar. I love to sing, though!

Well, June 5 is done! Woo-hoo!

[sdlovespackers]

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Hi Jumpers!!

Just felt I needed to vent for a minute while my son did his neb treatment! We went to the doctor today...he hasn't gotten any better, in fact worse...he said Brayden's lower left lung las collapsed....there is no air movement through it at all now...and he doesn't know why!! Long story short...we can't get him into to Sioux Falls until NEXT MONDAY where they will scope his lungs...they DID change his meds again...to try next week to see if it made a difference???? My step dad is a doctor here and just called the allergist/asthma doctor here in town to get his opinion....this doctor is about 2 hours out of town and said he would see my son as soon as he got back into town tonight!!! I'm so scared and freakin out....Brayden's dad is either coming here tonight or tomorrow morning!!! I'm trying to stay strong for Brayden....the first doctor keeps telling me there is nothing to worry about??!! I'm not going to lie....I want a beer soooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to have to double up on the l-glut today!!!!! I will with all might NOT drink tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SD:l

[dill]

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SD, :l Hon, I am so, so sorry you guys are going through this! I know I would be beside myself, if I were you. But, try to stay calm. I have read that if just a small area of the lung is collapsed that it can often heal itself. It is something that can happen with asthma or infection in the lungs. Don't panic! But, please let us know what you find out after seeing the doctor. I will be thinking of you and Brayden and praying for you, too. :h

I can just imagine how much you want a beer, but that would not help and you know it. :no: I know you know it. It's funny, but even just hearing about your troubles makes me want to drink! But I won't either.

[sdlovespackers]

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Good Evening!!
I DID NOT drink tonight!!!
The asthma/allergy doctor gave me great hope!! He seemed very confident he knew exactly how to fix Brayden right up!! I don't know if it was his confidence or my dad's (step) confidence in him...but I really have faith that things will get better...I keep praying...and giving meds!!! Brayden's dad is still coming tomorrow morning...thankfully...it will be good for everyone!!!
My parents got to thinking about the flood in 2007...the landlord never got the basement fix and we had 18 inches of water...I'm going to have someone come over and check for black mold this week too....because I KNOW they got an insurance check to redo the basement and never did!! That's another story though.....just wanted to check in and let everyone know.....DAY 5 AF!!!!! YIPPEEEEE!!!!!!
And Dill....thanks for being here tonight!!!:l You're the best!!!
Sd

[hiddengoal]

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Hello June Jumpers -

I hope its ok to jump in here. I was reading your thread and a few things grabbed me. I usually stick to just a couple threads (too hard to keep up with more). I started a 30 day AF back in April and am now almost finished with a 2nd 30 days, meaning day 60 is coming up. I wasn't planning it that way, but as you go on and feel a few changes, it makes you want to stick with it and just see what its like to feel clean and free of hangovers or tiredness and confusion from AL.

You all sound very determined - keep it up! The first week is the hardest and you all are hitting day 7! Woo hoo! And sending healing vibes to SDLoves for your son - very stressful and worrisome time.

I would love to hear the kareoke final contest! Am close to Chicago, so do post the details if you continue to the end.

Well, this little bit early in the thread got me:

57Shelby;626433 wrote: ...I live in a vicious circle.....It is a sad excuse for a life. ....Today I am feeling very tired. I was all set to go start going to the gym this week, but I am exhausted.

The cycle, the tiredness and exhaustion - this I have known too well. Some days it seems like I live in a maze and don't know how to get out. You know those boxes that mice are in and run down one hall to find a dead end, then go scurrying to another dead end? And even if they hit no dead ends, they are still stuck in the box. (I feel a long post coming - sorry) Well, my life has felt like that at times and that is what I am hoping being AF will do - SET ME FREE OF THE BOX! Doing the same ol routine, of work, drink wine and wake up and do it again just isn't a life. Now, my new goal is to figure out JOY - to find it and I know its not in that box!

The tired and exhaustion - have to speak to that - of course that kind of maze running, with no way out, gets you exhausted. (MWO is a pretty good name for this program, eh?) I have also been doing a little counseling as I get free and I keep hearing from her reflecting back on my apparent exhaustion. But it hasn't been too clear why exhausted - well, it makes sense now that that sad way of doing life that ended every day with too much wine (even though I functioned in the day) was exhasuting. Don't sleep well, hard to wake up, day is short because can't wait for evening wine, don't feel like working out.....and on it goes.

SO, I hope my little novel here is inspiration for you all to stick with it - to get free of the wine trap. You can do it and you might surprise yourselves. I never expected to be doing 60 days, and while I won't say my life has changed drastically, I am beginning to see a new path. Things look brighter, I have hope and moments of joy - that is a very big door out of the box.

Enough! Have a great day all and keep the AF days going - you may find some lost part of your selves.

[sdlovespackers]

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Hiddengoal--:welcome: and please feel free to join, stay and post as much as you'd like...your post was amazing!!! I can totally relate!!! VERY well put!!!!! And CONGRATS on 60 days!!!:wd: That's awesome!!! Stick around--these gals are great!!! I appreciate the well wishes for my son too!!:h

I know in the midst of all this drama in my life I forgot a big :welcome: to Starta!!! My apologies!!! How are things going for you so far in June???? It's the 6th right??? We ARE almost at a WEEK!!!! LOL!!!

Shelby--any updates on the singing??? Did you have another competition last night???

Hello to Peanut when she races by to check in...HAHAHA!!! Get it...races by...running...hahaha!!!! Hey, I've only finished half the diet pepsi this morning...give me a break!!! LOL!!!
Alright....here I go...I see a box with my name written all over it!!!!!!!
SD:l

[sdlovespackers]

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Good Morning to Dill too!!!:l
I posted to you in the nest as well this morning!!! And here last night...thanks again for being here for me...it was a tough one!! But I do have to agree with you in general...this month does seem to be easier than April was...I'm not sure why???? Maybe it will get tougher once things settle down here???? Let's hope not!!! Have fun this weekend with your grandson!!!!:h
SD:l

[dill]

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Hi June Bugs, I'm jumpin' on here real quick to say I'm making it another AF day. That's 6 down in June! I must say, although I am enjoying the visit with my g-son, I have been battling drinking thoughts all afternoon! I think it's because the routine is so off for me. It's presenting a new challenge. However, I'm determined to stay AF.

Back to my g-son now!

[Peanut]

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Hey Jumpers,
Must check in before I go for a nap. Got up at 6am to go to my building on campus to help with the breakfast and tours before all the conferencees left. Man - am I pooped. It was an excellent conference, and the last session was 1 hour, before the wrap up, during which I went for a fast 10km run. Wow! My speed has increased, but was I red faced!!! The banquet last night was really great, but everyone (at least my usual hangout colleagues) were getting sloshed on wine. Oh, it was sooooooo freakin' hard to resist, but I did it. Talk about peer pressure though!! And these are 40-50-60 yo people!!!!! They missed the party girl, as I refused to go up to the hospitality suite to drink martinis into the wee hours. Thanks goodness I offered to be on campus at 7am the next morning. So now, I am cleaning my house and will have a rest before my hash run tonight. Tomorrow, I will relax (maybe!).

So, SD, my prayers are with you and your boy! You poor things. I shall send all positive thoughts and vibes your way!!! I do hope the doctors can help!

Dill - enjoy your time with your grandson. Change of routine maybe, but a nice one!

Hi to Hidden Goal - good for you on almost 60 days.
Hey - CS - drop in and visit, ok?
Shelby - hi you karaoke queen!!!
Hi to everybody else - I have to run and wash my floors. Then I can collapse!
xoxo peanut

[sooty]

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just starting out

hi all, just trying to find my way round. I'm setting myself a target of an AF june - doing well so far.
looking forward to getting to know you
Sooty:new:

[last call]

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So sorry to hear about your son. My prayers are with both of you. Keep us posted.

[dill]

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:welcome:HG, welcome, and thank you for such a thoughtful post! Yes, the maze analogy is a good one. That was how I once felt. Now, thanks to this website and the friends I have here, I know how to get out! I like your term: 'the wine trap'!

SD, A BIG SIGH OF RELIEF! :happyheart: Thanks for letting us know that Brayden is in good and competent hands and that you feel better about his ability to recover. I'll keep sending thoughts and prayers though! Interesting thought about the black mold from the 2007 flood ( you mentioned it in Newbies Nest). That is a distinct possibility! I'll be interested to hear of the results.

Pnut, I swear you floor me!

but everyone (at least my usual hangout colleagues) were getting sloshed on wine. Oh, it was sooooooo freakin' hard to resist, but I did it. Talk about peer pressure though!!

You must have a will of steel to pass up wine in that setting. Since you managed it though, you must feel really proud! If it were me, I might have been able to get through, but I don't know that I would've been able to not pop open a bottle when I got home to reward myself! :H Oh, the pathetic sick thinking...:nutso:

My g-son has left but will be back on Monday for a last visit before heading home to Florida. We had and absolutely wonderful day with him. He loved the wagon rides and the paddle boat ride and just hanging around outside on the farm. It was fun to see things through his 3 year old eyes! The drinking thinking passed. It really puzzled me when it happened because it was so strong an urge. First time this June. Why?

Hi starta and shelby and any one else that pops in!

[dill]

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:welcome:sooty! If you want an AF June, this is a good thread for you!

And Hi, lastcall! Cross-posted!

[hiddengoal]

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Morning JuneBugs -

Thought I would check in, but y'all are late sleepers, either up too late, or living on the west. Project day....been cleaning and clearing my house, as well as, my mind on the AF journey. Feels good - mucking and chucking. Clearing...ahh

Happy AF DAY!

[sdlovespackers]

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:welcome: Sooty!!! Yep this is the AF June thread to be on...we are one positive group...minus the chick who keeps telling us about her sick son...hahahaha...she's a real downer!!!
HG--I hear you on the cleaning...this move has been the best thing...hauled out 5 bags of garbage yesterday...and I think all I did was go through a couple of closets and a few of my drawers!!!! YIKES!!!!
Dill--we must be on the same wave length...I was having the STRONGEST craving yesterday....BAD...and seriously don't know how I didn't cave. Listen to what I did....I went out with Mike...we were suppose to go out for dinner...but I ate with Brayden and his dad (cuz I cooked for them over at my mom's....and I got hungry looking at all that food)....so I watched Mike eat and drink a beer....then we went and and played darts, pool and a little video lottery....he drank a couple beers...I drank water with lemon...IN A BAR....the entire night!!!!! IN A BAR!!!!! Did I mention I was in a bar!!!!!! SO needless to say I kept telling myself the same thing (I'll reward myself when I leave and am home be myself, right?).....but I didn't...I don't know why....I seriously had to clinch that steering wheel so tight not to turn and just go home....I kept telling myself how pissed I'd be at myself in the morning....I was so right!! I was so freakin happy when I got!!!! ointup:
I was almost on the high I'm sure Peanut must get after running....YEAH RIGHT!!!! I loved how you, Peanut said you went on a fast 10K run!!!! OMG!!! This morning I ate bacon, eggs and a bear claw donut....and a 20oz diet pepsi ( I super sized this morning!!) No wonder I have to lay on the bed to zip these darn jeans everyday!!!:H You go girl!!!!
To the rest of you jumpers.....IT'S A WEEK!!!!! YIIIPPPEEEE!!!!! How ya doing?????
Happy Sunday!!!
SD:l