Jump In June

[dill]

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Hi, hidden! Yeah, late sleepers!

Hey, SD, what's with you and pnut putting yourselves in these high-temptation situations! Maybe it's because you're younger than me. I wouldn't have been able to tought that one out! Oh, Did you say you were in a bar?:H:H

Yep, June 7 is down! We made it through some powerful cravings. Let's hope they make us stronger!

Hey Pnut, how're ya' doin?

[Peanut]

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Hey guys - been better. I made it through that whole damn conference and at our hash run last night, at our beverage stop, a very blue drink was put in my hand and I drank it. I think it had about 3 ounces of some kind of rum in it!!!! Then, it was "oh, well, my AF streak is shot, so I may as well drink some beer too". Feeling not great about things, but I REFUSE to get that feeling of starting over. I will simply just carry on AF from this day forward like a normal person. I have been trying not to count days this time around. Anyway, I always hate reporting this sort of thing to you guys, but if anybody understands, I think it is you. I wasn't even necessarily craving it - it just happened. And, my BF got totally wasted and out of control - good thing I was in control and after being at the pub, was not drunk or anything and able to drive home safely. BF says he is now through with drinking, all it does is make him drunk,and I laughed and asked how many times he (we) have said that before!!!! Ah well - this is life and we just have to take it one day at a time! Next hash run is in two weeks, and I am hoping to be 5lb down and feeling strong, rather than tired and weak, like I was yesterday. It was just too long a day.

Too many excuses!

SD - I must say, you are one upbeat cat! I love that about you!! How is your son doing today? And good for you for drinking water!

Dill - looks like you and SD are the ones with the "will of steel" - Happy you made it through the weekend and the evil cravings!

Hi to HD and Sooty too and everyone else to visit!
I have thought about going swimming tonight, but have this secret desire to go to bed and sleep 12 hours. I wonder why!!!!

Sleep well all - talk to you tomorrow!
xoxo peanut

[sdlovespackers]

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Hey Peanut--we all agreed this AF June was gonna be a hard one...we knew this going into it!!! Even harder when we have to or by choice we put ourselves into those situations...I knew that going into last night...you had SEVERAL nights of having to say "NO"....I managed ONE!! And it was HARD AS HELL!!! I honestly don't know how you did it night after night!! Don't beat yourself up...we DO understand!!!
Keep on keeping on!!!!
Sd:l

[Taz1]

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Peanut hang tough. You did well to keep in control. You know what you got to do. Keep focused.

Taz x

[Anjicia]

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Morning from Ireland. I'm on day 3 so far so good apart from that shakey anxious feeling you when you in the earky stages on going al free. Went to an AA meeting last night which really helped. Have a good monday all.

[dill]

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Welcome Firefox and Taz1! :welcome:Taz, we need all the support we can get around here and you sound very positive! It's great to have you jumping into June with us! Congrats on 3 days, Firefox! That's great. I used to struggle to get to day 5 and usually didin't make it many times. But finally, I did it and I was so glad I did! You can do it, too!

Feeling not great about things, but I REFUSE to get that feeling of starting over. I will simply just carry on AF from this day forward like a normal person. I have been trying not to count days this time around.

Pnut! :lI'm with SD: "Don't beat yourself up...We DO understand!" Good job on staying in control and not getting drunk! That's the most important thing. I also think it's great that BF swore off alc! :H I've done that more than a few times before I got real! But, maybe he'll be serious enough to get through the rest of June with you? That would be sweet. I know what you mean about counting days. That's why I have been saying 'June 7, going down!' or 'Six days in June', etc. I'm not counting days just now. Just trying to get through June with my fellow Jumpers. I was thinking, maybe you would feel better if you carry forward on af for the rest of June, like you said, and consider it DF June? (drunk free). That would be something to be very proud of!

Three more days of work for me until I'm on break! These will be hard days as I have to do 7 preschool evaluations and prepare for and complete parent meetings for these kiddos in a span of 3 days. It's a stretch, but we are finishing up enrollment activities for next school year. Last year at this time, I would have attempted writing some of these reports at home with my friend Chardonnay at my side. Char had a way of slowing me down and interrupting me and making me forget what I had already written. I'll be better off on my own, I think!!!

[sdlovespackers]

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Great to hear from you both Taz and Firefox!!!! :h Stay close!!! We all need the support ans encouragement!!!

Dill---7 reports!!!! Preschool none-the-less...what are you, superwoman???? What do you do, go in, sedate them a little and do your testing one by one:H WOW!! And then to have to write the reports!!! You have your plate full this week!!! Guess I won't count on you for help in packing in the next couple days!!!:H

One week down!! Feeling GREAT!!! I really think we can do this again!!! I know we've got a long way...but somehow when you get to day 10...you can tell yourself you've gone a third of the way....that seems like a BIG piece of the pie...probably the hardest, right??? Let's keep hoping!!
SD:l

[Lavande]

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Good morning SD, Dill and all to come today.

June is shaping up nicely, isn't it
Just wish the weather here was as nice. Looking at yet another gloomy, rain soaked week. I did take advantage of the 1 1/2 sunny days on the weekend though. My garden said thank you!

Funny, but I think I unknowingly gave myself a huge gift 20 days ago when I quit smoking. I don't have a single thought about drinking now - I'm too busy chasing away nicotine thoughts

I wish success for all of us this week and beyond.
Have a great Monday.

[sooty]

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hello all sorry i couldn't get on last night as had house full of visitors - but no alcohol for me and nothing today so June going well so far.
Hope everyone's feeling strong and well
Sooty

[dill]

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Hey, Sooty, SD, Lavande, Pnut! June 8 is done!
Glad you checked back in sooty! Keep up the good work! I like your avatar!

Lavande, you are amazing giving up smokes AND alc. Wow. Good job, good job, good job!!!!!

SD, It was crazy hard. I did 4 assessments today and 4 reports, but only got one IEP written. Have three left to write from today's batch, but I didn't want to work late because today was the last day I could visit with my g-son. So, tomorrow I have to do 3 assessments/reports and probably wite 6 IEPs. The meetings are Wednesday. Looks like I'll be working into the night!
But, ya know, I think I'd rather be doing that than PACKING!! Hate packing!

How's Brayden?

[Peanut]

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Yes - the day is almost done, and I'm ready to get some sleep!! Just in from a a 1 hour hill workout at the ski hill. We hit the top 6 times and that last accent almost killed me - thought I was going to throw up!!! I'm feeling better about saturday night. As long as a night with a few drinks doesn't lead into a string of several successive drinking nights, I'm happy!!

Dill - hope you don't have to work too late into the night tomorrow. Kinda stressful time of the year, yes? You'll get it all done though. Glad you could visit with your grandson one last time.

SD - tell us how your boy Brayden is doing!! He is feeling better??

Sooty - you sound really good. A house full of visitors and no AL! Another with a "will of steel" here! You must feel so good about it.

Welcome Firefox - happy to hear the AA meeting helped. I've never really considered going that route, but it sure seems to help some people. That shakey feeling will be gone before you know it!

Hey Lavande - I think you have something with the quitting smoking. I bet if I didn't have those 2 ciggies at night, I wouldn't need to sit and drink a beverage. I am never sure whether I drink to smoke, or smoke to drink!! But I know I can't smoke without a drink (which is now soda and cranberry), but if i didn't need to smoke, maybe I would just go to bed and wouldn't need a beverage at all, and it was always so easy to say I needed just a glass or two of wine to go with my two ciggies, but I always ended up refilling because I hadn't finished the cigarette, then lighting another before the glass emptied and having to refill, and on and on and on...... If I didn't smoke, I wonder how I would do with the drinking......

OK - better go have a shower. I don't think my dog nor I picked up any woodticks this time. At least I hope. nasty, evil critters!
xoxo peanut

[sdlovespackers]

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Awesome job Lav!!!! Way to go on the smoking and drinking...that's great!!!:goodjob:
Sooty...not going to lie...feeling weak tonight!!!!!!
Dill....Brayden had an AWESOME check up today at the doctor's )the new one we went to Friday night...the one my step dad called)!!!! AMAZING improvement!!!! COuldn't have asked for a better birthday present!!! Yep....35 today!!!! YIKES!!! Went to my parent's house tonight for dinner....everyone was drinking.....ugh!!!! I didn't....but dang it...I want to so bad now that I am home!!! I know how stupid that is....but I'm just am so happy and relieved and oh, also the doctor said even though the mold thing was going on in the basement...it didn't cause Brayden to be sick...told me to just get out of there and start focusing on how to keep him healthy and treat his allergies!! I just feel like...."letting go tonight" so bad!!!!! Just for one night!!! I haven't felt this sense of relief in such a long time...I know...I'm making excuses ....trust me, I know. (((URG))))
Good luck writing your reports!!! 2 days left, right!!???
SD:l

[Peanut]

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SD - cross posted! Great news about your boy! What a huge relief!!!
xoxo peanut

[sdlovespackers]

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Hey peanut!!!
Thanks!!! More running...I don't know how you do it??!! That's amazing to me!!! My "will of steel" is NOTHING tonight!!! Perhaps I should try exercise!! LOL!!! Probably would REALLY hurt myself!!!
Take Care!!!
SD

[dill]

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WOS

Looks like the WOS (will of steel) was there after all, SD! Congrats on resisting the pull to celebrate with a drink! It's stories like that that help me get through another day! And thanks for the update on your son. GREAT NEWS!:h

I was thinking 'bout you yesterday, SD, and wondering when your birthday is. I knew it was June, but thought it was later in the month. Anyhow Happy Birthday!!! :day5: :threesome: :bday3:

Pnut, Do you smoke just the two cigs a day? I can't imagine running up a hill ONE time, much less six! I don't think I'd puke. I'd probably skip that and just have a heart attack!!!:H When is the race?

Sooty, Lav, Firefox and all who stop in, have a great AF June 9th!