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[Taz1]

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Hi Dill

Yeh excersise is really helping, joined the gym a month or so ago, didnt go much but now 3 times a week breaking sweat makes me feel pumped up all day, keep up the good work. Peanut I been off the juice for 13 days now and am absolutly knackered truly...been in bed some nights at 9pm reading my book, I thought I would feel more energised, weird. Hi Lovepackers thanks for the welcome good to be here good luck with the move, sounds like you making packing fun! Ktab good to see you here too! Enjoy the contact we have on other threads, it really helps. I like an idiot have always been truthful about my units with Docs and on forms, as a result whenever I need to revise my insurance or take out a new one I have a nurse test my bloods for liver function. Lesson learnt there!

Off to London this weekend to see a show 'Les Miserables', not drinking will be a challenge, wish me luck and strength.

To you all - hang tought this weekend, hope you achieve what you set out to

Taz x

[dill]

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Hi, Jumpers!

I like an idiot have always been truthful about my units with Docs and on forms, as a result whenever I need to revise my insurance or take out a new one I have a nurse test my bloods for liver function. Lesson learnt there!

Taz, WHOA! I never thought of that! I always lied about my consumption out of embarrassment and 'cause I wanted to keep my 'problem' off the record. I never thought about what would happen if I honestly reported it! As it turns out, I did finally last summer, admit my problem to my doctor so I could get meds to help me. She was very supportive and did prescribe. She also is monitoring my liver function, but has been doing that anyway due to choleseral medications. So, I ended up having it on my record, but I felt desperate enough at that time that I was ready to try anything that could help!

Today, I was pondering what I'd be doing today if I weren't in the MWO program. I feel pretty confident that I'd be waking up with a hang over and swearing to myself that I wouldn't drink anymore. By noon I'd be wondering where I was going to get my next bottle of wine. By 3:30 - 4:00, I'd be pouning myself the "just one". You know the rest of the story. " Repeat pattern to end", as they say in knitting and crochet instructions!

What would you Jumpers be doing, if...?

Luck and strength to you Taz!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hi everyone, hope the day finds you all well.
Dill in answer to your question, the weekend would start in the pub with approx 3 pints after work Friday, cause I have had a hard/good/bad week (delete as applicable)
A bottle of wine would open as soon as I got in the door, cause you cant eat dinner without wine, Right...yeh
Maybe a 2nd bottle would be opened and half drunk or finished off.
Would wake up Sat morning prob not well. If really hungover a lunchtime hair of the dog would be had and so the circle would continue ad nauseum. Bloody madness.

[lilmea]

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Today, I was pondering what I'd be doing today if I weren't in the MWO program.

Good Morning Jumpers,

I hope you don't mind if I jump in here for a quick hello. I haven't been able to be on here as much as I use to be. But I do try to keep up with this thread. I see some familiar "faces" and some new ones.

Dill-What an interesting question today. But an easy one for me to answere. In my other life I usually got up around 4:00 am. It's 9:22 now so I would probably be working on my third drink of the day. I would continue drinking through the rest of the day until about 9:00. at which till I would pass out.

In stead, today I watched a sunrise. I have sheets on the cloths line drying and I'm getting ready to take a bicycle ride. I have almost 5 months AF. So hang in there. It really does get better!

[LilBit]

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Taz, I know what you mean about not expecting the fatigue to last so long. I'm still experiencing bouts of it around week 6, though not as many. It's all good though, right? I remind myself it's one of my poor abused body's best ways of healing. BTW, have fun at Les Miz! You'll be fine without the AL, and will actually enjoy it more because you can follow the storyline more easily and can experience it in a full state of consciousness. How about a lovely cappucino at intermission? There's nothing like a foamy upper lip to make you smile.

Dill, thanks for a very great, thought-provoking question! Lilmea, I like how you referred to it as "my other life." A sunrise and bike ride sounds sooo much better than being on the third drink by this time. As for me, toward the afternoon, I would most certainly chant KTAB's great rationalization:

...cause I have had a hard/good/bad week (delete as applicable)

...and begin snarfing down some champagne or wine by 4 pm as a reward for working so hard during this horrible week, which had to be rougher than anybody's week on the face of the earth...ever! :H Heehee, how we do go on! :H Saturday morning, I would wake hungover, work out anyway and sweat like crazy, then visit the local Whole Foods for brunch comestibles and at least two bottles of champagne to share with the BF (only because of my horrible week, which had to be rougher than anybody's week on the face of the earth...ever). Long nap midday, and then up and drinking again by early evening. Completely sh_t-faced by 8-9 PM, more than likely in an argument with the BF because he did something dreadful like look at me the wrong way, pass out and then wake up Sunday and have 1-2 beers for breakfast (only to cure the hangover). I'd break from the AL long enough to have a coffee, which only made me irritable, and then probably go out somewhere for lunch to make up with the BF and have a few more...

Geez, it sounds like such a fun life, doesn't it? Instead, I'm shoe shopping after work today (bought a dress yesterday, and I've dropped a size -- yippee!), then off to an evening tour of ghosts in the city. Tomorrow will bring a mocha coffee at sunrise while I work on my novel, an overnight family wedding trip, a long hot tub soak, a drive back on the Cal. coastline, and a good movie with my BF who no longer looks at me the wrong way. Duh, which is better?

[Peanut]

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Hey June Peeps!
Logging in late today. Been super busy in the lab at work today, playing with yeast.

Dill - if I had never found the program, I have no idea where I would be by now. And I too was desperate enough last year to finally fess up to my doctor about my wine problem, so she could be on board with me in trying out the Topa. Lucky you - holiday time!!! I might take some time after my son is done school at the end of the month (they go to the end of June here) and then work all July before more August holidays. I could use some time right now though, as I can't seem to wake up in the mornings too well!

SD - I didn't realize you were on Topa. I know when I first had a couple glasses of wine last july while on it, I had the worst hangover in my life!!!! And that just after maybe 500mL of wine!!! It was quite dreadful, which probably helped keep me off wine through most of last July (which was after my first 30day AF stint!)

Taz - glad I'm not the only sleep-head around here! I could hardly keep my eyes open while BF rubbed my feet last night - so I went to bed. Why force myself to stay up and longer than I have to!!! Enjoy Les Mis this weekend!!!

Lilbit - loved your post. It does feel great to get out of that wicked cycle, eh? And the body-size drop is an extra special bonus!!!!

Lilmea - sunrise, laundry and a bike ride. These are the little things that make going AF so great. I actually got up and made breakfast for the boys before school this morning before getting myself ready for work!!!

I actually have that friday-after-work-drinking-urge right now. But I shall not. Going out to the ski hill to do some up and down running, so I simply cannot. Lots of exercise planned helps to make me stay away from wine in the evenings. It is the late at night, after it is all done, that I have difficulty!!

Hi to everybody else on the thread! Have a great friday night!
xoxo peanut

[dill]

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Hi, Jumpers! I hope you all are doing well and feeling good. SD, I see you did not check in yesterday, but I would have been surprised if you had! How did the move go? I'll bet you're exhausted! I was helping you from afar....

Pnut, you keep so busy all the time! That's really good. People talk about endorphins being released by lots of exercise. I never exercise enought to know!! :H

Taz, LilB, KATB, LilM, thanks for contributing here! I think we all gain by sharing stories, experiences and ideas. I know each one of you are helping me, personally.:h

I've read that just quitiing is not enough. You have to change your lifestyle and your thinking. For me, there isn't that much to change in my lifestyle as I was pretty "high functioning". I was beginning to become less so by starting drinking earlier in the day, especially on Sundays or last summer, any day. But, my point is, I have to think of alternatives to drinking. I have started walking as a form of exercise. I'll let you know if I add to that. I work sudoku puzzles, read, knit and crochet. You can do all those tings while drinking, but you don't do them as well, and you don't remember what you're read!!! :H I am always working on my thinking! I believe that is the key to staying AF/DF, whatever the goal. (It takes more than the WOS -'will of wteel') We have to train our minds to think and react differently so hopefully we aren't just in a mindless stuggle to resist cravings. I thought I'd share a couple of books I picked up at the library yesterday to help with that: One is called Spirituality for Dummies and the other is Practicing the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I came across these suggestions on another thread on this site. So far, I think they are going to be very helpful. I just picked them up yesterday (after my walk!).

Any suggestions out there to help resist the pull to drink? Please share any thing you might be doing that is working for you!

Today is June 13th! We are getting close to the halfway mark!!

[LilBit]

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Hi Dill, your new avatar is stunning! One of the things I've noticed (40 days AF now) is that I have almost no tolerance anymore for TV. I can stomach the occasional PBS or Discovery/History program, but I am horrified to think that I used to have my "boob tube" on all the time as "background." Ugh! I think that all the commercials designed to make us want to consume, consume, consume are a definite drag on AF efforts early on, and (at least for me) become an intolerable way to spend even a minute of one's precious life later on. I am replacing the "background" noise with Mozart, Bach, Handel....and silence!

Happy weekend to all!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hello there all June Jumpers, its a beautiful summers day here and my mood matches it

Lilbit just read your last post and thought you might like this, it is one of my favorites.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3T899yAHgDI[/video]]YouTube - Maria Callas "Mon coeur s'ouvre à ta voix" da "Samson et Dalila", Prêtre, Parigi 1961

[sdlovespackers]

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Good Morning Jumpers!!

Sorry for ne check in yesterday...pretty crazy in SD land!!! I'm an official house owner!!! Yea!!! But it was running from one thing to another yesterday....I just read and caight up with everyone...you all sound so great and positive....I LOVE it!!! I'd address each of you BUT TODAY is actually moving day....yesterday I had the carpet guys come over and do all the carpets....with my son being so sick and I knew they had a cat (which he;s allergic to) I wasn't taking any chances!!! So...I need to get to the bank....hope I still have $$ :H go get the moving truck and get started!!!! You all have a WONDERFUL Saturday!!!!
I will try to check in when I can...my computer get hooked up at the new place on Monday!!
SD:l

[sooty]

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Hi everyone I'm sorry to say that I had a drink yesterday so I probably shouldn't be in this part of the forum anymore as I can't do the whole of June AF.
I don't know why I had the drink, i was just in a low mood and feeling a bit anxious - nothing special or significant. It didn't make me feel any better (or any worse for that matter)
Anyway if you'll let me I'll try and stay here for the rest of the month
Sooty

[dill]

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sooty! Please don't feel like you can't be on the thread! As long as you are trying, you need to stay with us. Slips happen. We've all slipped from time to time! This is a process. Stick with us and dust yourself off. Onward and upward! There are a lot of days left in June!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Sooty, as Dill has just said its a slip and these things happen. So dont go beating yourself up over it and please keep posting here.
KTAB

[sooty]

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hi and thanks for your messages. I'm still here and haven't had a drink today. In fact I've been thinking about my slip and in a funny way think it was quite useful as its made me realise that I didnt enjoy it, it didn't achieve anything and i've been feeling tired today as I don't think I slept very well.
I'm certainly hoping that I'll get thru the rest of June, feeling v strong today!
Thanks again for your support
Sooty

[dill]

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Hi Jumpers! It's day 14 of AF/DF June. If we make it through today, we will have two weeks! I'm planning on an AF Sunday, and to be honest, Sunday is one of my hardest days to stay AF. Isn't that ironic? I think for most people it is Friday/Saturday? Oh well. I got into some pretty bad Sunday habits and I'm working my way out of them.

I hope you all are well and feeling positive!

Here is a quote from the Eckhart Tolle book I mentioned yesterday:

"When you create a problem, you create pain. All it takes is a simple choice, a simple decision: No matter what happens, I will create no more pain for myself. I will create no more problems."

Have a good and peaceful Sunday! I'll check in later.