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[Peanut]

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Yay Alison!!! Good for you!!!
Hi Chops - been wondering how you have been fairing. I do hope things are going well, and you are coping with all the changes that I assume you are having in your life. We are cheering you on too!!
Lavande - we NEED some of that rain you have!!! If we don't get some soon, I wonder if there will be any crop - thus, work for me next winter!!!!
Hi Dill - you are right, and I am feeling a bit better today after my two nights of uber-sleep! I will just have to watch out and sleep when I need to.
Hi to Lilmea, KTAB and Sooty too!!! It is almost bed time - one more workday and then the weekend. Uau!!! And, tomorrow is my sons last final exam (I thought it was today silly me) Yay again for him!!!! My last kid through high school!!

OK - goodnight all!
xoxo peanut

[sooty]

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Hi all, glad to be jumping with you all.
Dill, South Wales is in Europe if you call the UK Europe! Britain consists of England, Wales, Scotland, N.Ireland. Does that clear things up for you?
Hope everyone's having a good day. Sun coming out here, hip hip hooray.
See you all later
Sooty

[dill]

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Hi, Jumpers! I hope you all are doing well today! I made it yet another day! Whoo! I thought a LOT about drinking yesterday. A lot. But, I didn't do it. And again, a couple times, I had the thing happen where I would think about it, then the other half of my would say , yeah, but is it worth it? Would you really stop at one-two? Probably not, and then what. It's weird, this internal conversation! I am not even in control of it! It's like I'm watching TV or listening to a talk radio program!:H

Yesterday was our 32nd wedding anni. There is no way I would drink on that day, as Mr. Dill is so desperate to have a sober spouse! We had a very nice day, though. Didn't do a darn thing 'fancy'. Just hung out, ate at Arby's, went to Big Lots,:H sat out in the yard drinking ice water. I didn't make one single meal at home! We had take-out pizza for dinner. Oh, and we sat out on the front porch at the end of the day and waited for the lightning bugs to put on their show.They are not as thick yet, but they were out there!

Sooty, thank you for the info. Actually, that was pretty much the way I thought it was. It's just that when you mentioned it in a post a few days ago, I got the impression (mistakenly) that there was a South Wales in Canada or something. So, anyhow, I am glad you are here on this thread no matter where in the real world you are!

Allison, keep it up! :goodjob:

Pnut, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better! I was tired my first week or so of this af stretch.

Chops, great to see you here!

Hi SD, What color is Brayden's room? What color are your legs? And all men don't suck. Hang in there!

[lilmea]

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Good Morning Jumpers,

Dill-I remember the "mind talk" It actually seemed as if I had 2 people in my head having a conversation. Weird. Good for you for thinking it through. I wish I could tell you that pretty soon you will never have another craving but I can't. I can tell you that they won't be as bad or as often and they won't last as long. I have days when I never think about drinking. So hang in there. It really does get better.

Pnut-I wish I could send you some of our rain. Our farmers are in danger of losing their crop because of too much rain. Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better.

Hello to Chops, Lav, SD, Sooty, and KTAB. Hope everyone has a great AF weekend.

Hb and I are going camping for a few days so I won't be around for a while. I'll see everyone when I get back. Stay safe.

[dill]

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Hey, Jumpers, I just realized I ought to tell you all I am going to a family reunion this weekend! Leaving early tomorrow morning for northern Ohio. I don't know if I'll have opportunities to check in quite as often, but I will try! Have a good one!

[Lavande]

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Hey June Jumpers,

Thought I would do an evening check in.
I should be strolling thru Old City Quebec tonight but alas - we've been stranded at the airport in Newark, NJ!! So much for plans.................
Oh well, we are rescheduled for an 8:30 AM flight so we'll have most of the day Saturday to see some sights.
Dill, hope you enjoy your reunion, behave
Have a good one!

[dill]

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Hey, Jumpers, I am just doing a quick check in this morning. I am disgusted with myself as I blew it yesterday. I will not let it ruin the rest of my month, but I am really mad at myself right now.:upset: Complacency is my enemy.

Here is a part of today's daily recovery readings that I really liked and thought I would share:

Live for some purpose greater
than yourself. Each day you will have something to work for.

I hope you each have a good day. I will be checking in late tonight, or tomorrow.

[dill]

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Lav, sorry about your bad luck!! Newark?!! Geez!

Hopefully today was much better! And, I did take your advice and 'behaved' today!!! The reunion was fun. It was in a lovely setting up on Lake Erie. The weather was beautiful!

[sdlovespackers]

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Dill, you blew NOTHING!!!!! You've had an AMAZING, AMAZING June month!!!!! You are the June QUEEN!!!:crowned: You rocked this month and will continue to do so!!! I KNOW you will!!!! urgirl: You're our Dillie!!! I hope you have a great time at the reunion .....I think those are so much fun...we've only had like one or two....all my family hates each other or every time we try to have one everyone gets freakin drunk and starts fighting!!! Good times!!:H

I had the best day with my dad today....we went fishing and just hung out talking....just the two of us....he tried so hard to "be good". We've had such a strained relationship...he's an alcoholic and can be pretty mean when he gets drunk...not physically but verbally to the point where Brayden and I would have to go to the bedroom by 8 or 9 ....and finally last summer I called him on it....and stopped coming out to the cabin and refused to let him see Brayden if he was going to get trashed every night....he's really been trying...took him awhile (several months) to realize I meant what I said...I'd had enough!! SO we were on the boat today....and mind you, he had gone to the fridge countless times, and would open and close it....finally at 4:30...looks at his watch, looks at me and says it's 4:30.....and I just smiled....so he opened the cooler he brought and grabbed a beer. I'd be a total hipacrite (sp?) if I got mad at the guy for drinking...it's when he gets ripped in front of my son and does stupid sh*t and is so freakin mean it me...that I can't handle it! Anyway...where I was going with that...My dad and I....went boating, fished, had dinner, opened presents...and had a wonderful day...and I didn't end up in tears!!!

Sorry...it's getting so late here....I'll JUMP on here tomorrow and check in and see how everyone else is doing....I only caught Dill's last couple posts....I apologize!!!
SD:l

[dill]

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SD, thanks for your uplifting response. How can I not start feeling better after reading that! I really was so down about it. Thanks. You're the best!:wings:

I think your day with your dad sounded wonderful!. It's heart-warming to read. Your dad sounds like he is trying to get his priorities straight and that you and Brayden are at the top of his list! We all know that to beat out alcohol on a drinker's list really means something!!!:H Mr. Dill would love to have a daughter like you. (Well, actually, we do have one here in the 3-D world, but she lives far from home.:upset He loves to fish and would have gladly spent the whole day hanging out like that. He was so happy when our g-son was here. He would be drinking lemonade, though.

[Lavande]

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Bon Jour everyone from rainey Quebec!!

Can you believe it? I've been moaning about 2+ weeks of rain at home only to fly to Quebec to find more rain - is it me Pnut, your rain is here.

This is a beautiful, very green city and I'm getting out to see the sites, regardless of the weather. Doing lots of eating & walking - hope one cancels out the other..........

Best of all, I'm doing it all AF & NF. Dill, listen to that conversation going on in your head. I do and I actually have 2 of them going on right now. I just walked away from breakfast at the hotel and a demon told me 'Time for a smoke' - my head immediately answered 'No you don't'. It's kind of cool having all this activity going on in my head, directing my every move and I don't even have to lift a finger. I swear it can't get better than that for me

I hope you all have a great Father's Day, make good choices, listen to the internal conversation, make yourselves proud.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hello JJumpers, just on for a flying visit.
Dill I am so glad you can pick yourself up, we need you here.
SD it sounded like your visit worked out really well, its great that you are getting on with your dad.
Lav I was going to say enjoy Quebec but sounds like you already are.
Hi to Lilmae, Peanut, Sooty, Chops and Alison I hope you are all behaving yourselves and are happy and healthy. Sure hope I didnt miss anyone out.

[Peanut]

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Hi gang - and Happy Father's Day to all the papa men out there!!!

Lav - the rain finally came!!! Such a relief!! It won't stop today. On the other hand, we have a hash run later with a bbq, so it is not so good for that, but I really don't care!! We're not made of sugar. We won't melt. Quebec is a lovely city, isn't it!?

SD - sounds like a wonderful day with your dad - he really is trying! Reminds me a bit of my brother though - gets really mean after 2-3 bottles of wine. I refused to let it get to me the last time I visited with him though - he got really mean to me and the next day quit drinking and hasn't touched a drop since (that was the end of February!). Family is more important than booze!!

Hey Dill - you have done so well this June, that one day is really no a bad thing. Sounds like you had some fun at your reunion. In the grand scheme of things though, it is really nothing. I think the important part to remember - and that I have to remind myself all the time - is that one day of drinking does not mean all is lost and we have to drink every day after that. Hell 29days AF out of 30 is absolutely fabulous!

KTAB - hope all is well with you. And Sooty too. And Chops (you doing ok??)

Very quiet in my house - I must wake my son up. His Biology teacher called yesterday and it turns out he missed a unit test, and that will really bring his mark down, so she is letting him meet her at the school today to write it. Pretty nice of her, I must say!!

OK - I'm outta here!
xoxo peanut

[dill]

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Hi, Lav, KTAB, Pnut, SD, Chops, LilM, LilB and anyone else who might stop in! I hope you have all had a nice day and met your goals for today! Thankfully, I did!

[dill]

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Hi Jumpers!

At the end of the day, yesterday, I was out planting a daisy plant in my front flower bed. I thought while I was at it that in my active drinking days I would not have been free to engage in this simple activity. Instead, by that time of the evening, I would have been tied to my bottle and too dazed to care about gardening or pretty much anything else.... Just how much was left in the bottle. That's what I cared about.

This morning, it occured to me: that plant will be always be a symbol to me. It will always remind me of the struggle and the benefits of the struggle of freeing myself from the grip of al. That because I engaged in that struggle, I was able to perform a constructive act when I otherwise wouldn't have been able to. It is a perennial daisy, so if/when it returns next year, it will represent the good that an af life can bring. It will represent and remind me of the achievements I have made so far. Do any of you have a place you can plant such a reminder for yourselves?

Have a wonderful day, Jumpers! Stay strong!