I've been alcohol free for 23 days now. I'm on Campral and I think it's helping. Let me rephrase that - I know it's helping because I could never go this long on my own without relapsing. I also talked honestly with my wife about my problem and she was supportive. I felt very strong those first couple of weeks, but I've been having some doubts as of late.
I think one of the biggest issues I face is positive association. For some reason, I associate drinking with good memories. For example, I like to collect independent and obscure films and one of my favorite past times (while alone) was to watch a movie and have a drink or two or three. I know I can't engage in these behaviors anymore and I feel like something is missing.
My wife is going out of town again in two weeks and I already anticipate I'll relax and enjoy some time to myself. We bought a new home theater system recently so I figure I'll watch some movies, but I fear the temptation to drink like I used to is going to be great.
I suppose I need to tell myself that having a drink is not a requisite for watching a movie. Also, my good memories rarely manifest themselves in reality - at least they didn't the last few times I tried to duplicate these experiences. When I would drink and watch a movie, most of the time I would drink too much and pass out or get sick and totally not focus on what I was watching. Not fun at all.
Any suggestions?
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