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[golfpro]

I had my family over this afternoon for a cookout. Normally my family functions involve heavy drinking. Everyone knows my struggles with alcohol and excessive drinking. No one brought alcohol, I did not provide any alcohol, and nobody drank. I want a drink so bad. My seventy year old dad just fell asleep and snoring watching the golf tournament on TV. I want that. I got to go cook some steaks. I hope every one is having a good Saturday.

[greeneyes]

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Golfpro, hang in there - it'll pass!! I think its absolutely wonderful that you are surrounded by such a supportive family!! Just think how you'd feel if they were drinking. You can come here and say to us you want one badly, and I'm sure you do. You know it's not worth it. It simply can't improve being surrounded by loved ones that support you. That rocks!

[Lavande]

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Golfpro,

I'll bet we can all relate, one way or the other. As Greenie said - it will pass.
Try to focus on all the good things to come, I do. Think about waking up with no hangovers, think about all the extra $ in your wallet and mostly, think about how proud you will be when you can say 'I don't drink'.

This process is very hard but totally worth it

Wishing you the best!

[cacky]

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Golfpro; sounds to me like you did a great job today. i know its tough but you did it. you should be proud of yourself.

[tlrgs]

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hang in there it does get easier

[golfpro]

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Thanks every one. Cacky I didn't do that great of a job. I did cook every one dinner, but I snuck a couple of drinks when no one was looking. I feel guilty as hell. I made every one feel like they couldn't drink, which was not my intention, and then I had a couple of drinks. It wasn't much and I don't think any one noticed. It is so exhausting being a drunk. lol. Thanks again.

[Doggygirl]

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Golfpro, it IS exhausting being a drunk. I can absolutely relate to that. I wish I had a nickel for every hour I spent planning my drinking and figuring out how to "hide" it and being resentful towards everyone around me who was "preventing" me from being able to drink as much as I wanted, etc. etc. etc. There IS A BETTER WAY!! Freedom from all that in addition to freedom from hangovers and such is huge. The journey is not easy, but if you want sobriety more than you want to continue being a drunk, you can have it.

And what a bonus having a family that is supportive! Icing on the cake.

Welcome to MWO and strength to you on the journey.

DG

[startingover]

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Hi Golfpro,
you are in the very early days of sobriety, everything does seem like such a mammoth effort and it can also make us feel totally alienated within our familie, friends and day to day life.
It passes, it get easier. Life will get better if you let it.
Keep going.

[Tulipe]

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Golfpro,
I can certainly relate. At some point, the cumulative guilt involved in living a lie exceeded the constant desire to drink and that drove my change.
Keep trying,
Tulipe

[cacky]

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Golfpro, drop the guilt. i would have done the same thing although im such a bad drinker that i know that everyone would know the moment i took a drink. because of that when i do drink right now i drink alone. bummer.