Happened to stumble across this site, obviously for a reason...
I would like to think that I do not have a drinking problem, but I do. I can not seem to stop at just one glass of wine, and I drink wine like water. I do not have this problem with beer, or other drinks. As a matter of fact, I do not care for hard liqour.
My downfall was/is red wine...it seemed to start getting out of control though. My moods were altered, especially around mensturation times, I would think delusional thoughts about my partner, most of our relationship issues would be alcohol related.
I feel crappy and burnt out in the mornings and I hide my wine sometimes...
I accept that this is a problem and then switched to white wine, still, I slip back to red and have no trouble polishing off a bottle of wine myself...
I know my partner sees it because he will subtly comment. He says stuff like, "why not go alcohol free for a week"...even my son sees things...
I do not come from a family of alcoholics, however, I was married to a man who was a progressive alcoholic. It ruined us and I ended the relationship after 13 years. I could not keep on any more living in an emotionally unstable environment and I could no longer expose my children to that way of life.
Funny, now I realize that I drank habitually and continue now even more.
I want to be able to control myself but it seems that I can not.
I hate what it does to me and I hate how I feel after but when evening rolls around and we have a nice meal, I think that I can just have that one glass of wine...appears that is not the case.
Any suggestions, because the cravings are strong or perhaps the ritual or habit is strong...
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