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[Loobyloo]

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AH sunshine I just re-read your post. Today is July 9, day one again for me also! One day at a time. We can do this I know we can xxx

[being present]

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Looblyloo,
Your story of stopping for four months and then letting it seep back in really scares me. I told myself I would give it up for a month and then re-evaluate. I suppose I am telling myself one month b/c that seems more do-able right now than FOREVER. But I really want and think I should stop forever. I also suppose I am hoping that after a month I will realize how much better my life is and that I don't want to drink again. It is just so scary that you can do so good and then it can seep back in and take over.

[ellabella]

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lol yeah i think Looby and i must be related lol

i'm already thiking about having a drink tonight :-( there's some red in the kitchen and it would be so easy. I would normally have had a drink by this time, so dont know if to just finish whats left in the house and then start my stop, or to see if i can go without tonight. I just feel really down :-(

thanks for your support xx

[Loobyloo]

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hey being present, it is scary. I am scared too. But after the first 3-4 weeks I LOVED it, I stopped getting withdrawal symptoms and totally got my life back, I owned my life again. It was only my stupid willpower that let me down, when I sipped hubbys wine after 4 months it tasted horrible. I did that for a few weeks on and off before I slipped back into my old ways and introduced a glass here and there then it was a bottle here and there and here I am again. We are only human and we are not perfect. If you fall off just jump back on again. I am also thinking about joining my local AA to get support as I am scared I'll get cravings in the next day or two. Petrified in fact. I just read Roberta Kewell's biog and she mentioned the supplement Thiamin is supposed to help reduce cravings. Maybe we should try it. Has anyone here tried the hypnotherapy that Roberta mentions? xxxxxx

[Loobyloo]

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hey ellabella my new soul sista!!! Don't have a drink tonight, you don't need it honey.... Make some tea like I have done. Maybe have a nice bath to relax you hey?

If I were you and had that little bit of red, I wouldn't be able to stop, I'd have to wobble down the shops and get another bottle. It's your choice if you want to finish that bit off though but I know I wouldn't be able to cope.

I am sorry to hear you feel really down...I felt like that yesterday when I hit the wine and it just made me feel so worse! I get lonely and down for no apparent reason, but I think the wine makes me down in the first place, so I drink, then the next day I feel down, so I drink...and so on. YOu have got me now to talk to eh mate. And all the ppl on here seem so warm and nice. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[sunshine_gg]

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Hey Looby,

Yes, I do have the hypno CDs. I honestly can't say they if they help with quitting AL. I probably haven't even spend as much time with them as I should have. But, they DO help relax you, reduce anxiety, help you sleep.

Ellabella... I'd pour out what is there, if I was you. I (like many others here) can NOT have AL in the house. Sooner or later, I'll cave and have 'just one' (read bottle). So, while you have resolve on your side... go and pour it down the drain!

Good luck, my dear

[being present]

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Ellabella, I concur with Loobyloo. I would just throw out the wine. I think otherwise it will always be, well maybe tomorrow. If you are like me I would have that little wine left, start feeling really good and then get more, so tomorrow night you may have a little wine left and there begins the cycle. YUK! Whatever you decide, you have my support because I know how hard it is. I have been trying to quit forever and finally just had enough! I am sorry you feel down but I am certain you will feel worse if you pop open that bottle. I can only hope that I will continue to stay strong. Good luck and my thoughts are with you.

[being present]

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Loobyloo, Your story inspires me and lets me know that moderation is probably never going to work for me and that I can never let my guard down when it comes to AL. I don't want to fool myself and then end up with the out of control shame that I carry around after a binge.

[Loobyloo]

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I feel that shame too, I am having a bad episode today, it sucks so bad xxx

[Loobyloo]

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hey cheers opal, I am so excited and the warmth of everyone here has given me so much strength today. I hope ellabbella will be OK, I hope she comes back here tomorrow and lets us know how she got on tonight xxxxx

[ellabella]

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thank you everyone :l i still feel down, but reading your responses has encouraged me no end. I've not gone as far as chucking the wine yet... but i havent had any either. I should scrap that and just go chuck it shouldnt i - its only there tempting me.... it really helps to know that i'm not alone in this... i just feel like i'm in the shallow end at the moment, watching the expert swimmers in the deep end (to quote the swimming pool analogy by (i think) Mary xx people who have gone so far - 20+ days, god to me 7+ days would be a record - really have my admiration xx

[sunshine_gg]

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:l ella!

As impossible as it may seem now... you can do it! Believe me, for the first month here, I could NOT make it past day 3. I felt like SUCH a loser. But eventually, I got to day 4 (which is a tough one). And then to day 6. The very next week to day 8. And eventually to 30 and beyond.

You could make a great start by pouring out the wine!

[National]

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Ellabella - I am 35 and haven't been sober for 10 years until yesterday. I'm on day 2. I'm shaking, aching and feel like crap. But guess what, I've had too many hangovers that felt like this so why not? What do we have to lose? I sincerely wish you the best of luck. I also find this site amazing! Take care.

[ellabella]

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thank you Opal and Sunshine - it really does help, and National - well done to you - I think there comes a time when you realise you need to do something, and we've both reached that point yesterday and today! All the very best to you. Does ODAT stand for one day at a time...? :blushing: i think it does but just checking ...xx

[TakeHeart]

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Ellabella...I am so like you, only a couple of years older. A few years back when I was your age, I knew in my heart of hearts I had a real problem with alcohol. CUT TO: Today in my heart of hearts; I know I have a problem with alcohol. Don't be like me. I wish I had tackled the demon years ago. I'm waiting until Sunday to go AF because I will be visiting my sick dad who I know worries about me and doesn't want me to drink.

I know that sounds like such hypocrisy...don't wait another day...yet, I'm going to wait until Sunday. Sorry about that. I just think it might make the first few days easier for me when I really don't and won't drink in front of my dad. And hey! You're already ahead of me! You just joined and already know how to get an avatar and do the little smiley things in your post!

I'm scared too, you're not alone there. Let's hope and pray that the other side is even half as wonderful as those there say.