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[The New Me]

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Oh, and I drink GALLONS of tea too. Did you try the detox one? I went through one box in two days. Not sure if it helped detoxing, but kept me away from wine plus made me feel like I am helping my poor body!

[Loobyloo]

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Hey Ellabella, it's day 3 for us both today! I am JUST THE SAME as you were last night, being a Friday I was a bit worried as I usually have a bender on a Friday BUT I drove up the shops at 6.30, usually I would be over the limit - same! - and I bought lots of fresh veggies to go with dinner. I was too scared to sit still because I usually have a glass in my hand...so I cooked, and cleaned up (I never clean up as am usually half gone by that point!) peppermint tea, thought I couldn't sit and watch tv with hubby (even he was drinking water to help me out) then went and had a nice soak in a bubble bath. It really helped me chill out and switch my mind off.

When I first went to sleep last night I had a nightmare like someone was playing with my hair and I screamed and told hubby I was scared, I had a few hallucinations like that yesterday, does anyone know if that is normal when you are coming off AL?

Had really bad sweats last night and kept waking up all wet around my chest and neck, does anyone know if that's normal also?

Woke up doing that one eye thing checking to see if I head a spinny head and no, it was safe to get up. That feeling on it's own has got to make this worthwhile.

I am scared about when the cravings hit cos they made an appearance last night but I didn't listen. I am scared they will get me and I won't be strong enough to ignore them. Can someone remind me where the toolbox thread is that I have seen ppl talk of, I recall seeing someone say to write yourself a list of all the reasons you want to give up AL and reading that helps your resolve not to give into the voices in your head.

Cheers you guys. Its 7.45am here on Saturday in the UK and it's day 3 for me, my hangover from the Wednesday night binge has almost lifted and I am feeling pretty OK!

I love being in this safe place at MWO, it's so nice to be together xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[ellabella]

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Morning everyone :-)

thank you National, New Me, Cat42 and LoobyLoo

New Me - I AM stronger than i thought - thats a shocker to me. I think i knew that once upon a time i USED to be a strong willed person, but that faded over the years - it must still be there somewhere, just need to dig down, bring it out and start exercising it again.... my tea selection includes: Nettle & Peppermint (cleansing), Pukka Clarity (Giner, Lemongrass, & Gotu Kola (whatever that is!) to "focus and uplift", A Moment of Calm (African Honeybush with a Hint of Lavendar), and standard Peppermint (cos i love it)

Loobyloo - the Toolbox is a sticky in Monthly Abstinence - i was flicking through it all last night (it took me a while to find it again too, but i know where it is now - phew lol) Not sure about the hallucinations - although i suppose as the poison is leaving your body, it could affect some people that way...

Yah we are both on day 3! It seems a bit surreal actually, this "new me". I had a good chat with hubby last night (after he asked what i was doing on the computer). He said he's going to support me and help me as much as he can.

Well, as i seem to be up and at em this morning, there's a small mountain of ironing that needs looking at lol and its a gorgeous sunny morning, so might go for a walk by the canal after that.

Have a lovely AF day one and all and thank you so much (i think it was fate that had me take the afternooon off on Friday and find this place!) xxx:l

[sunshine_gg]

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Ella and Looby.... CONGRATS on 3 days! You two ARE on your way out

Looby, yes, night sweats, nightmares, etc. are quite common. Not sure about hallucinations - but it wouldn't surprise me, if it were.

Wishing both of you (and all the rest of you/us) a wonderful weekend!

[ellabella]

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Well, i'm happy. I went to my friends last night and although i did drink, i only drank the same as others and didnt get too wasted (for once). I did drink enough to wake up with a bad head though :-( but today was a first for me. Went to the bbq and I drove, so drunk sparkling water with lemon all day and had a couple of coffees. Everyone else there, apart from one other person was drinking beers and i just didnt. I feel so happy - and i THOROUGHLY enjoyed myself!! It was wonderful to be there and chat with people normally - have proper (instead of drunken) conversations. Its a real milestone for me and in all the time i've been with hubby, (9 years) its been the first time that i've driven to a social do, so that he could have a drink (he's not a big drinker but it was nice for him to have a couple for a change). I did feel a small amount of smugness at being sober, but i just cant get over how much i ENJOYED myself. I MUCH prefer the sober me to the drunken me. It felt a little strange for perhaps the first half hour, but after that it was great and i was in no rush to leave :-))))) It was weird for me to be around people drink and watch them get tipsy, rather than being the first one to get really drunk...

I drove home then got on with some tidying and ironing (i would normally have got hubby to call at a shop on the way home to buy more wine and i'd be wasted in bed by now and feel like crap in the Morning. I know this is probably not that interesting to most of you but i just find it helps me to write down my feelings here, almost like a travel journal on my journey... It feels great to know i'm going to start a monday morning sober!! woohoo. So, i'm on day 1 again now and i think my aim is to go AF for 30 days initially, then try and moderate so that i only drink socially.

[Popeye]

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That is so good to hear.
It is interesting...and uplifting to hear of somebodies success.
Thank you for posting and good luck with your 30 days.

[Loobyloo]

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bless ya sunshine, cheers for the encouragement. it's early days but I am nearly at the one week stage. am very excited! Hope you had a great weekend and continue to be a strong lady xxx

Ellabellla your AL night sounds like you had it under control, more than I could ever do. I wish I could mod like that but I have tried many many times before and only lasted a day and then made up for it the next day by drinking more so abstaining is the only way for me. I envy your self control girl! Good on you for starting your Day 1 again, we have lots of support here xxxxx