Why do i keep doing this?

[okkslady]

I am 31 years old and have been a binge drinker since i was 20. If I go out i cant stop at a couple drinks i usually go till the point of intoxication or blacking out. I didnt think it was a problem because i would only do this once in a few months. BUT i am tired. I am tired of the hangovers, the vomiting, the hurting my friends and family. The last episode was wednesday...I went out drank way to much went to after party with friends and dont remember some things. I threw up in my sleep and didnt even realize it till the morning. Here it is 2 days later and i still have a headache. I have made several mistakes drinking (im sure you could just imagine, embarrassed to say some of them) I was arrested for a DUI 2 years ago when i ran into somebody at a stop light. THANK GOD they werent injured! I am tired, i dont know why i continue to do this. I am killing myself and i dont know why i do this to my body. I have went months before getn out of the party scene only to find myself right back in....i want and need help.:new:

[42cat]

Why do i keep doing this?

Welcome .. very nice to meet you. You have found an awesome site. So much to learn and read and try here. So much support and understanding. Lots of people in the same boat .. at varying stages of dealing with things.

Read through as many of the posts on the boards as you can ... that's really what helped me get going. I learned soooooo much.

Keep on posting as you find your way through. Looking forward to seeing you around the boards!

[cacky]

Why do i keep doing this?

Welcome Oky, we are all in the same situation where we dont know why we do what we do..and alot of us are much older than you. we are here for you

[Popeye]

Why do i keep doing this?

Hi Okkslady.

I'm glad you made it here.
Lots of us will be able to relate to your situation. Don't let it get away with ruining any more of your good times. It's not easy but I'm sure you will find a way.

[Anjicia]

Why do i keep doing this?

:welcome: I can understand as i've been there so many times. I went for a few days this week, my last drink was wednesday and i had a hell of a hangover for 2 days. Didn't throw up in my sleep but did 3 times during the day. Also had hot and cold sweats and shakes. Had to spend much next day in bed. Still had a headache today but i 2 parmecetmol 2 ease it. I don't drink daily but i'm having too many slipups. I can relate to your story so well. Why indeed do we do this to ourselves? The demon drink thats what the Irish call it.

[being present]

Why do i keep doing this?

Okkslady, I so hear you. I too am a binge drinker and so it took me a long time to see I had a problem. And even after I realized I had a problem, it took me a long time to get to this point. I too realized I was killing myself and felt imprisoned. Honestly, your story could be mine, except I usually binge one, two or sometimes three times a week. It is day 3 for me and I have been on a self esteem high but am very nervous right now. I am going to a dinner party in a minute where there will be wine and then possibly out to a bar after to see a band. I just have to not look at that drink and think it looks good, I have to look at and see the prison sentence it truly is. I want to be free! So here is hoping and welcome. May we enter this journey together and be successful!

[okkslady]

Why do i keep doing this?

thanks so much

Thank u so much for the responses i really didnt think i would get responses so quick. I am in tears after reading the responses because i am feeling real depressed and down. I feel like none of my family supports me because i was telling them i dont want to do this anymore and they are like "we heard this before" and "yea right"! I dont have to much support and it is understandable because i always fall right back in....nice 2 know im not alone

[boDork]

Why do i keep doing this?

Hi,
I am new too. I signed in after you. I will try to help you and hope you will do the same for me.

I think this site proves we do not have a free will. Oh, boy, I just had another drink of wine.

I do not want to make this too long, but its nice meeting you, I share your problem, lets keep working on it together.

By the way, I am 68 and never nad this problem till about 4 years ago.

[Popeye]

Why do i keep doing this?

You can do this Okkslady, but you need a plan and a lot of determination.
I struggled to stop for years. I tried, failed, tried and failed so many times. It's a battle against a very wily opponent who will use many tricks to get you back on his side.
I'm on a good streak now and I'm not going to let drink take away any more of my energy.
Spend a while reading through some of the threads here, on whatever topic strikes you as interesting. There are as many ways of getting back in control as there are people who do it. You just have to find the way that works for you.
I find being sober is much more fun than the altrnative and I'm so glad that I chose this path.
Good luckto you.

[Popeye]

Why do i keep doing this?

Hi boDork.
Nice to have you aboard too.

[miss elle]

Why do i keep doing this?

Hello. I am new to this site. I am so glad to found out that there are many people who have same porblem as I have and they know exactly what I have been through. My goal for this problem is as same as my life goal. I want to control myself. I want to belive in me that I still have will power. I do not want to give up drinking. Many of you may disagree but just giving up drinking simply does not solve my problem. My problem is " I CANNOT CONTROL MYSELF'. With this site and your help, I will choose the hard way but I will make it through this time.

[LilBit]

Why do i keep doing this?

Welcome Miss Elle a.k.a. Hello Kitty. You can do this! There's a lot more to it than mere self-control, and there is much help available through people, supplements, meds if you need them, and knowledge. Please browse the threads and you'll see what I mean. Also, the MWO book can help you understand how to make a plan that works for you, whether it involves modding (consuming alcohol based on a plan that you make and stick to) or abstaining. It's a very individual decision. Good luck to you.

[Liath]

Why do i keep doing this?

Okkslady-

Welcome. Your post sounds like my first one months ago when I stumbled across this forum. I too am a binge drinker with no control once I get started. Ditto on all of the feelings you described. My history with binging has been from highschool on. Going out to the bars has resulted in many a disaster for me. And yet, I would do it over and over again. Its a vicious cycle. The worst in the hangover drink in the morning that spirals into a 2 day (or longer) binge. I do hope you haven't had to experience that but I have to say it scared me enough to begin the process of making changes. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone in this. Stay close and we will all get through it somehow. The book is a great place to start!