My life was a mess for 3 years... not because of alcohol, but personal trauma and tragedy. Wine numbed the pain. I am a high-functioning drinker, but a mess all the same. My blood pressure is now a problem, I've gained a bit of weight, I never feel really well, always anxious, wake up at the dreaded 3 am. I do exercise quite a bit, eat well, try to keep taking the supps I got from here, but fall off.
The thing is now my life is really turning around. My business is booming. I have found a great new relationship, I have wonderful friends, my kids are doing well... what more could one ask for? But that voice in my ear says I need to keep drinking; drinking will make me feel even happier, calmer. Drinking will take the edge off when I feel bad. I go a day and a half at most w/o AL, feel good, and then that hideous voice tells me I need to open the wine. I want off of this treadmill, but can't turn off this voice... (I don't mean I really hear voices...not schizo
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So I am back here, trying again today, taking my supps, drinking tea. Hoping that like many of you I will find my way out.
J
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