I'm on day 21. I'm hoping not to have any reason to think I won't make it to day 30.
I'm not sure what to do then. I'm not physically addicted to alcohol- my problem is I do stupid things when I drink and get completely out of control. I'm a binge drinker in the simplist terms- I have one and it always leads to another, I don't know when to stop. I HATE the person I become drunk.
My ideal would be to mod, but it a) seems very hard and b) all my judgement tends to go after a couple of drinks.
But the idea I will never drink again does scare me. A lifetime of making excuses with friends, missed toasts, missed pimms in the summer, wine with meals out, holiday drinks, etc..
However, if the simplist defination of an alcoholic is someone who wants to give up drinking but can't, isn't that me all over?
any advice very much appriciated, thanks
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