My husband keeps saying that if i drink again, he will leave me. So i try really really hard not to drink. It takes all my concentration, every single day not to drink. I try to explain to my husband what it is like when i relapse. I just loose concentration for a few moments and i have a drink in my hand. I cant even remember going to the bottle shop to get another drink. It doesn't help that it is only a few houses away.
When i relapse he gets really angry and sleeps on the couch and wont talk to me for days. I feel awful already but he treats me like shit and he cant understand that i really need him to help and be supportive. I need a hug.
It doesn't help that he drinks nearly everyday after work with his friends so he comes home and i can smell yummy yummy alcohol on him.
I am trying so hard to quit for good but it is so hard. I am trying to just stay sober for longer then last time and then i will set a new goal.
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