I know I have a drinking problem. I have admitted to having a drinking problem. I am trying to do something about my drinking problem.....
And, I was successful, atleast w/o drinking for 12 days.
Then...I was completely frustrated with the results. Mostly that I didn't lose weight. I was eating MUCH healthier (minus a couple of sweet splurges) and had starting working out again...5 X per week and the sweat (though not a big sweater) rolled off me....I lost 2 lbs and in a day, gained one back. I mean surely, 2+ bottles of wine per night is a 1000 calorie savings!!!! Almost 2 weeks and only 1 lb to show for it!!! PLUS I was eating small meals every 2-3 hours so my body didn't think it was starving.
And then there's my BF, he is supportive to a degree. However...we went out over the weekend and he pretty much made a scene with our waitor to take the wine list off the table. He knew I wasn't drinking, but almost made a scene in getting the waitors attention to come back and remove the wine MENU!!!! And he doesn't have a problem with alcohol. He usually has one drink. However, when I was drinking, he wouldn't have anything at all. Now i don't drink....he always wants his one. Why can't he be like he used to and not drink at all??? He says he's supportive, and he just only has one, but why even the one????
This is a long rant...apologies....
I quit drinking and thought if there was nothing else I could do to change my life, giving up drinking would have the most impact. However, since I've not drank...I don't feel any better (never had hangovers, although I should have), haven't lost weight, and I thought I would open channels of goodness to pour into my life. Truth is, have had a couple of "bad" financial things cross my path since then. AND, most catastrophically, my car engine died.
And, my BF has loaned me his car yesterday and today. He knows I have out of town clients I need to take around tomorrow...So when does he schedule a routine blood test that he's been wanting to do for almost a year????? Well. he scheduled that TODAY for TOMORROW! Is he being an ass or does someone have a different angle I need to see?
As far as me...I have had a couple of drinks the last few days. Nothing over 3 which is barely a buzzz for me. I just poured a drink (1 so far) from my BF's vodka bottle. I know he'll notice. I'm just so mad about the timing of getting routine bloodwork done on the last day I'd need his car. I mean he's put it off for 12 months and he knows I need his car tomorrow and he makes it for then????
Everyone who has gotten here...sorry for the rant...thanks millions and God Bless
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