30 day commitment.. who's in?

[sparkleAZ]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Ok, ok, ok, sorry about the age thing, I still do win though, I'm a very, very hot 57.

[LookingToGrow]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

LOL!! Sparkie :h

[DeeBee]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hahaha Sparkle -- you win!!

[Liath]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Good morning everyone- I can't tell you how happy I am to have you all here. Em, DeeBee, LookingtoGrow, puddytat and the rest-- :welcome:

This morning I had a dream that I went to some work related meeting but we were sitting around a table with a white linen table cloth. Everyone was drinking wine except me. I stared at this open bottle of white wine with one glass left, and lost track of what anyone was saying. Fast forward to the next scene, suddenly I had an open beer in my hand and started to drink it! Too late, I remembered that I was not supposed to drink for 30 days. Weird, a few days AF and my subconscious mind is screaming for it. I am using the hypno Cd's, WTF?

Day 3... I have the day off. I am sending the page proofs of my manuscript for publication in September. I plan to go to the grocery and buy lots of mineral water and root beer and healthy food. I am going to exercise and maybe do a little shopping... anything but drink. I will be on this thread a lot I suspect.

Puddytat-- LOL. Glad you are out of 'lurker mode'. I know the feeling. When I was trying to mod I felt like a fake. If any of you read my thread on 'need help a.s.a.p.' then you know how well that worked out for me! :l

[LookingToGrow]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Liath, what is your manuscript about?

[avera]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

i wanna join, today is my starting to AF

[Elpis]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hi Laith,

I so know that feeling you have - that scarey queasy feeling. I have a fear of making a commitment not so much because I am noncommittal but I really don?t want the guilt and self-loathing of not being successful yet again.

Applying to grad schools is wonderful. One of my goals is to go to work on my doctoral degree but the booze is making that essentially impossible. Man I hate this disease.

[sparkleAZ]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Liath,

Awful dream you had there. I quit smoking 5 years ago and I still dream of smoking, I sure hope I don't start smoking/drinking dreams. That might put me over the edge.

Avera, welcome to MWO, this is a great place to be.

[Elpis]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

OMG

SpiritGirl;683372 wrote: Nothing sounds better to me than 30 days AF (well, a lifetime would be better!). Liath, I have just returned to MWO today after having a terrible night last night.... WHY do I keep doing this?? Why is alcohol more important than the precious things in life - spending QUALITY time with my children (not hungover and sluggish), more important than taking care of my HOME, more important than going to work ON TIME (wow, thats a concept!), more important than maintaining my DIGNITY at family/friend functions, more important than working on my FAITH (church on a Saturday night or Sunday morning should NOT be a burden - but with a hangover it is), more important than my HEALTH (the extra weight and red eyes are NOT attractive!).... I can keep going but will stop burdening you with my self pity...

I'm in for 30 days.... I pray I can make it.... Self-doubt and self-loathing keep getting in my way...

What you wrote is EXACTLY how I feel.

[Kimberley]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hey all -wow so great to have so many on here determined to do the 30 days. I am actually feeling exited about it now. I had a long chat to my counsellor about guilt and she told me it's my 'saboteur' inside me and next time I feel it I should sort of ask it what it really wants and what purpose it is serving.

I guess its that same saboteur that gave me a drinking dream last night as well!

Today I have still got a banging headache - always get that for the first few days, but at least I managed a good 8-hour sleep last night for the first time since the dreaded binge. So I have stocked up on some healthy food and am gonna see if I can lose me some weight as well!

Looking forward to achieving this with ALL of you! X

[LookingToGrow]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Almost the end of day 3 here. Hope to see y'all again tomorrow.
Kimberley, I can relate to the sabateur thing.
No regrets, just onward and upward!
I double dog dare y'all for Thursday...

[OverIt2007]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hi Friends! Hope your day was AF! Hey, it better be AF!!

Just got in after a looong day at work. I worked 12 hours and work another 12 hours tomorrow. I work around booze! Normally I would have gotton some drinks one way or another. Determined to do this!

Will check in in the morning to re-commit to another AF day! I really really want this this time guys! Hope you all hang in there, you know and I know it will be so worth it!

[Liath]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Overit- That must make it really tough if you work around booze. Great job!

We did it people. Day 3. Its supposed to be a bad one and it was tough for me. Also have had a headache and stress with getting my proofs to fedex to meet a deadline today. I also bought a bunch of healthy food, including lots of liquids. I talked to my best friend in the neighborhood and he is going to hang out with me AF occasionally this month.

Ironically, this weekend is the great midwest beerfest. I could regale you with stories of drunken past beer fests.. Lets just say, EVERYONE in the city seems to get wasted for this one. I wont be tempted since I am working. I feel great about being AF. I also got this book called "Happy Hours" about women and drinking.. Anyone else read it? I am hoping for motivation.

Day 4 here we come! Kim- Hopefully no AL dreams tonight!

[OverIt2007]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hey Liath, Yes we did do it. Yeah!

Liath, not only do I work around booze, but I also bartend at times. With nobody around most times. Just me, Grey Goose, and the best chardonnays around. Challenging? Yes. But then again, once your mind is stone set in something, then not really. My mind is set right now.

Sweet dreams Dear Liath!

[SpiritGirl]

30 day commitment.. who's in?

Hi Everyone... Sorry to check in so late - a crazy day then late night grocery shopping.... This is the end of Day 2 for me... I am having cravings but its better than a night of debauchery or a splitting headache... I did have a challenge today that I did NOT pass ... I was putting my groceries away and needed room for my Perrier and saw the newly opened bottle of Sauvignon Blanc (from Monday night)... I contemplated dumping it but then for some reason didn't... Surely its not going to be good after 30 days, right? Plus I am hoping to make it longer...

Ok - now that I just wrote that I realize how stupid it was to not pour it out... Will do first thing in the morning!! (I'm already in bed, or I'd do it now):bedtime:... It's nice to look forward to a morning as opposed to dreading it!!

Happy Thursday to everyone! Glad that we have each other...