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[Gold]

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propartychief;689429 wrote: Gold, I Think I get what what you saying but how do I show compassion/understanding for something I didn't have anything to do with!
The actions/choices that my parents made have hardened/sheltered my heart and feelings!
And for most of my life I have hiding from this in AL.

Hi Bob,

I meant, to have compassion for yourself, as the child that you were when you began drinking. I think when we are trying to resolve problems as adults we often tend to blame ourselves a lot and expect too much from ourselves. If there was a tough childhood then I believe it is important to honour the child that was ignored, hurt or whatever else happened. It can be painful but necessary I feel, otherwise a part of you is left on the outside, the child needs to be integrated and then you can be less hard on yourself.

Sending healing, keep going!

[propartychief]

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I suck !!!!
I've had one don't know if I can hold out at that !

[sosad61]

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propartychief;690607 wrote: I suck !!!!
I've had one don't know if I can hold out at that !

Yes you can. Even if you have some you have had a few days under your belt for the last few days (Bob). You've drank less in the last few days than you have in awhile. So, if you start over you'll be starting over with more of an advantage friend.

Bob, you are a FINE human being. I realize this doesn't mean much coming from a complete and total stranger. I KNOW how you feel.

Don't give up Bob. And if you fall off the wagon don't condemn yourself, please please please.

You have a long life ahead of you filled with happiness. I know that it doesn't feel that way now but Bob, it will. It will, if you can manage to take this Demon to task.

Love and prayers Bob.

[Elpis]

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propartychief;690607 wrote: I suck !!!!
I've had one don't know if I can hold out at that !

C'mon Bob! So you had one... or two... or whatever. You know the drill. Tomorrow is a new day. See a doctor, man. Seeing a psychiatrist, one who knows about addiction (which is most of them) was the best thing I ever did for myself.

E-

[propartychief]

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Thank you all !!!!

Day 7 or really day 4 (slipped).
Thank you all for your support !!

I am doing OK.
Finally started getting an apptite !!
I really haven't had one for a long time.
I hope I don't get FAT !!

Hope all is well with you all !!

Peace and much love !!!!


Bob

[propartychief]

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OK it's official I'm a piece of s**t
It's 3 am I have been drinking all day!
I'm only getting worse drinking more than ever!

I'm going to loose my house.
My(ex) totaled my car.
I lost my job.

So,no family
no job
no transportation

Why should I be here anymore!
I feel like I'm just wasting everybody's time and concern.
And I apologize for that!
You all have been so good to me!
I don't deserve all your concern.

Not sure if I'll be around anymore

Thank you all for your support!
But i think it should go to someone more deserving than myself.

Much Peace and Love to all!!
Be well!

Bob

[tawnywitch]

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Bob, noone is more deserving than you, we all understand how you feel, please stay on a nd talk to us, I need your support as well you know, if you want to go to live chat I#m around at the moment, caved in myself last night and feel like shit today, please talk to me,love and big hug's Tawnywitch,

[colbe]

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Proparty...just when you didn't think it could get worse! Are you still there? Can you come to chat?

[mooderator]

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Yes go to chat...we are all here for you...

[betty boop]

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Big Hugs Bob ........

Everyone deserves support, we have all asked for help at sometime ............. we are here for you ........

BB xx

[reneesmiles]

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Wishing you happy thoughts and happy days to come! Believe in yourself!

Blessings,
Renee

[golfpro]

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Propartychief - My situation sounds fairly similar to yours and I can relate to a lot of what you are going through. There are probably a lot smarter people on here than me, but if you would like to talk please contact me. I am a 37 year old male, middle of a divorce, lost a step-son, lost my license from a dui, etc.

You are not wasting anyone's time. Look forward to hearing from you if you like.

Mark

[LookingToGrow]

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PP, how are you doing now? I can get back to chat if you need to.

[puddytat]

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Prop, Listen to Mark (golfpro). I'm no one to talk, God knows... I'm still in the throes of AL. From one to another: please give yourself a hand-up? Stay on the boards; talk to Mark. stay here. Totally get it what a hard thing this is to conquer. I'm heartened to learn many have stumbled and stumbled ... all with the best of intentions. Prop, You're in a tough spot, God knows. please at least stay here. Talk.

[betty boop]

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Bob, check in hun and let us know that you are OK please!!!!!

:l:l:l

BB xx