I have LOST all that I LOVE !!!!!
I have 2 beers left.
Can I QUIT !!!!!
I am SCARED !!!!!
I have been a practicing alcoholic for 32 of my 43 years.
I have tried to quit many times with no success.
Been to Rehab./Detox. (insurance what a "F"ing joke 3 whole days)
Went to AA (hated it at the time) may have to give it another try.
I have Lexapro for depression (that I don't take)
I have Campral (that I don't take)
I still have most of the supps.(that I don't take) from when I first came here.(a couple of years ago was kinda active for awhile)
I have all of R.J.'s cd's (that I don't listen to)
I am trying to find God (but I don't think he is listening to me right now!)
I have LOST
My wife of 14 years who I am still in love with! (The most beautiful, caring, honest, and
the best mother on the planet!!)
Seeing everyday the light of my life my kid's (2 girls 10/12 & my 18 yo. stepson who I am
the only father he has ever known!)
PRIDE!!!
RESPECT!!!!
LOVE!!!
DIGNITY!!!!
I feel
HOPELESS
LOST
UNWORTHY
I guess like a pice of SHIT in general!!!!!
Well that about explains most of my problems in a tiny nutshell.
I am open to all suggestions and PRAYERS!!!
I wan't to write more but I haven't had any thing to eat in 2 day's (only 2x this week) so I should go get some food!
Wish me luck on not stopping for beer on the way back!!!!
I have missed you all and glad to be back! Pray for me!!!
Peace and much Love to ALL !!!
Bob:upset:
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