I'm so scared!!!

[tassimo]

Hi everyone,,I was here a long time ago, gave up, kept drinking, now I'm back. Had some blood work done during a routine dr. visit, and today I found out that my liver levels are high. She is doing additional tests and wants me to get an ultrasound on my liver. I've done some research on the internet and I'm freakin out. I'm only 42 (today is my b'day) and I could have damaged my liver. My question is has anyone out there gone through this and is it reversible??? Obviously I need to stop drinking but I have visions of never sleeping again...I want to live to see my kids grow up. But how can I live without my best friend...alcohol????

[donewithit]

I'm so scared!!!

hi there.
I am 43..I have not had a drink in almost 4 weeks but it is really really hard. I don't know about health issues..I have not checked ..kinda scared to..but I almost lost my husband thru my actions for the last few years (still may...he is on the fence right now)

I also want to live. I want to be a good grandmother to my future granddaughter who is due in December.



I didn't sleep well at first but slowly it is getting better.

I posted my story in "my story" section if you are interested. This board has helped me alot thru the last little bit. I intend to hang around. hope you do too.

Lynn

[Determinator]

I'm so scared!!!

Tassimo, first off Happy Birthday! sometimes a harsh dose of reality is what we need to get our lives in order.

so...first off alcohol is your worst enemy and it's already struck a blow to your very life by damaging your liver. you HAVE to let go of notion that you need it, because trust me you don't. I was going through precisely the same thing with painful URQ (upper right quadrant) pain, ultrasounds etc and STILL trying to bargain for a life with this toxic chemical. When I think back now I wish I could have slapped myself in the head and screamed: stop being so selfish you dumbass!!!!

ok, back on track here.... you have a family, and therefor responsibilities greater than yourself. Your liver WILL make remarkable progress and probably a full recovery but ONLY if you abstain. There are some supplements that will help your liver recover but they only work if you abstain. if interested I'll gladly PM them to you.

welcome back Tassimo. you CAN do this.

I was a fall down drunk for decades, and just last week made 1 1/2 years of sobriety thanks to my friends here at MWO.

[OverIt2007]

I'm so scared!!!

I am sorry you got such bad news on your birthday but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Alot of liver damage can be reversible, like determintor said, with abstinance. The liver has remarkable abilities to regenerate itself, so have some hope!

There are also alot of herbal treatments that can benefit the liver. Your local health food store will have lots of suggestions and answers for you.

Try not to panic until after you have more tests done and know for sure. It does no good to panic, but NOW is the time to take actions to recover your health!

Best of luck to you, and try to think positive thoughts,

Overit

[Afresh]

I'm so scared!!!

Happy Birthday Tassimo, like you I visited this site some time ago, ignored the help and support on offer here and carried on drinking. Like you, I have been worried about the effect alcohol has had on my liver and my body in general. When last checked my liver results came back at the higher end of normal with the advice being to 'knock it on head'. Insanely, I continued to drink taking milk thistle, as a herbal remedy, as I have been advised that it helps clean and restore the liver, this was some 10 months ago. Now finally I have made the decision to take my life back with the help of MWO and AA with my being 12 days AF, quite an achievement for me although I realise these are early days and that the road ahead will be long and arduous but so worthwhile.

Even now I feel so much better, although the cravings are very much there, I am sleeping well, tensions at home are much relieved given that there is hope, with my being taken seriously in my efforts to heal myself this time. I could certainly talk the talk, now I am walking the walk, it certainly makes a difference, long may it continue, I don't want the misery alcohol was inflicting on me and my family anymore. My self-respect is being restored and I can remember what I did the night before, waking up in the morning with a clear head and indeed conscience knowing that I haven't offended or upset anyone, i.e. my partner and children.

Like you, I love my children dearly and want to be alive to bring them up, with their having a "normal" childhood, without worrying whether they are going to lose thier mother to alcohol, in more ways than one. I want them to be proud of me which is a tall order if their mother is drunk more often than not, I can't afford to ever get drunk again, if I don't pick up the first drink then I can't, AF one day at a time, that is how I have been advised to live without (no friend of ours or anyone elses) alcohol.

In finishing, if it is any help to you I had liver and kidney failure as a result of a rare syndrome attached to childbirth, however, thank god I made a full recovery, if given a chance the liver will heal itself, abstainence is the way to go.

I wish you all the luck in the world, you can do it, wish me the same.

All the best to one and all

[adi]

I'm so scared!!!

Hello

I am new on this site, but surprised that so many like me.
I am a loving father, though sometimes grumpy late in the evening when i've had a few.
I wish you the best of luck.

My doctor told me my liver levels were high after I had a blood test the other year,
I had a lump on my doodah, - he asked me why I was there !

told me to come back after 3 months of not drinking - that's why I'm here I guess.

happy birthday.

[sosad61]

I'm so scared!!!

tassimo;690453 wrote: Hi everyone,,I was here a long time ago, gave up, kept drinking, now I'm back. Had some blood work done during a routine dr. visit, and today I found out that my liver levels are high. She is doing additional tests and wants me to get an ultrasound on my liver. I've done some research on the internet and I'm freakin out. I'm only 42 (today is my b'day) and I could have damaged my liver. My question is has anyone out there gone through this and is it reversible??? Obviously I need to stop drinking but I have visions of never sleeping again...I want to live to see my kids grow up. But how can I live without my best friend...alcohol????

tassimo, it IS reversable. 15 years ago I was diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis and my doctor told me if I didn't quit drinking, I'd be dead in a few months. At the time, I was throwing up every single day around noon. I felt miserable and was drinking almost a fifth of whiskey every night.

After detox, and staying off of alcohol for a few weeks, my liver enzymes returned to normal.

The liver is an EXTREMELY durable organ in the body and one of the few that almost regenerates completely if given the ability to do so by staying off alcohol. So trust me friend, although it may look bad, your liver has a tremendous ability to heal.

[Elpis]

I'm so scared!!!

Hi tassimo,

Happy birthday!!!! My birthday was the 10th. I too am in the same boat as you. Whenever I tried to quit AL I couldn’t sleep. I once went three nights with no sleep and my wife insisted I go get wine so I could sleep (what a change of pace that was). I saw a psychiatrist last week and laid it all out for him. What I thought I needed and the problems I had. He gave me a detox med, an anti-craving med, and a sleep med. I am now day 4 AF and have slept pretty well from the beginning. I urge you to get help. We can beat this demon.

E-

[mandytyer]

I'm so scared!!!

Happy birthday Tassimo.
I am new here but I just started reading your post and I feel like answering today.
It's my birthday tomorrow. I'll be 29 years old.
I am an on/off alcoholic since 7 years.
I don't know how I ended up like this.
I had my last drink 27 days ago.
I tried to quite so far...about 150 times...never made it...never made it longer then a week.
So this time...27 days...very good! ;-)
I am killing myself and I reached a point where I told myself NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
it's hard - of course - but the desire to live a normal life
and make my family proud is now stronger than ever.
I am not attending any AA classes, no rehab, nothing this time.
Cause all the time before nothing like that helped.
I feel like something clicked...it's hard my friend...believe me...any second is hard...
but I am done...I want something else then being a slave to the bottle.
I am so angry with myself that I wasted all that time, hurt my family and so many others
but then I understood that this anger is not helping...
I accept now that I was/am sick and it's more then time to heal myself!
From the bottom of my heart I wish everybody here to be able to heal themselves and start enjoying life the way it's suppose to be!
Thanks for listening!

[Popeye]

I'm so scared!!!

Hi tassimo,
You're doing the best thing that you can do for yourself. You liver is excellent at healing and regenerating. Give it a chance and I'm sure that you will be fine. I wish you well.
Mandytyer,
You sound so determined. I know what you mean about having the feeling that something 'clicked'. I had the same thing happen to me and it made all the difference. Well done.

[sunbird]

I'm so scared!!!

YOUTH IS ON YOUR SIDE

:goodjob:

Hi Mandytyer,

Well done on 27 dats solo-that's awsome!

I'm sure many of us wish that we had made the decision at your age. John Maxwell says that "a successful person is one who makes a decision early, and the manages that decision for the rest of his/her life".

My best wishes for you. Good Luck, good life.
Sunbird :l

[Zeppie2]

I'm so scared!!!

tassimo;690453 wrote: But how can I live without my best friend...alcohol????

Hi Tassimo, Happy Birthday
I would just like to add "Alcohol is not your best friend".

Al steals from your wallet
Al makes you unhealthy
Al ruins relationships with everyone you love
Al makes you look older than you really are.
Al makes you feel like crap after he's tricked you into thinking you feel good (the sensation that lasts less and less the more you hang around with him).

SOME FRIEND

[tassimo]

I'm so scared!!!

Hey everyone,,can't thank you enough for taking the time to reply. I'm feeling much more optimistic today,,hearing that there is hope to undo some of the damage I've done to myself. I'm still scared to hear from the Dr. regarding the results of my new blood tests but hopefully I can make some positive changes in the meantime.

I guess I'm pretty lucky in that my husband doesn't drink much at all...so at least it won't be in front of me all the time. But it does seem all our friends drink a lot, there are lots of parties, poker tournaments, you name it and they all include excessive drinking. That will be tough. I'm not sure if I can handle moderation or not. Guess it's all a learning process and I will see what I can/can't handle. This website is so great to be able to read about others and know i'm not alone...

Hopefully we can all help each other through this!!!!

Thanks again!!

[Savannah]

I'm so scared!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!:bday7:

I've never had my liver checked, but reading your post I should start soon! I say, just take this day and enjoy it with your family. You can always replace a bottle of AL.. Enjoy YOUR day!!

[tassimo]

I'm so scared!!!

Interestingly, I didn't want to have my liver checked!!! She is a new Dr. to me, and she asked if I drink,,I lied and said "socially". She automatically had the liver levels checked as well as the usual other stuff which was fine. I think when they call back with the results, I may have to suck it up and admit to being an alcoholic. And hopefully she will prescribe some meds to help me along and stick to sobriety. Then I will have to suck it up again with my husband and tell him I have a problem. I have no idea if he knows how much I drink...but I think if I'm going to do this right this time, his support will be very important. That way I know I have someone to answer to if I screw up...Anyone else feel like they have been living a lie???