Maggie;s story

[clockworkorange]

Hello everyone, I thought since I'm new here I should tell you how I got here. I'm Maggie and I'm 33 years old. I started drinking when I was 16 after my mother died along with smoking cigarettes and weed. At first I only drank heavily on the weekends with friends, but it wasn't long before I started drinking alone and at school. After I graduated I met my husband Matthew and we moved in together. He didn't really like how much I drank, but he never said anything about it as long as it didnt affect him. By the time I was 22 not only was I an alcoholic spiraling down to rock bottom but I had also started taking morphine excessively, to the point where everyday I was averaging about a quart of vodka and 10 pills. When I was 24 I found out I was pregnant and I checked myself into rehab for the sake of the baby and stopped everything. After my daughter Loralei was born, I stayed sober for almost another year until I ran into one of my old "friends" that I used to drink and get high with, and he told me that he is selling morphine. I had just lost my job and got into a fight with my husband, so i got some because I was depressed and thought "no harm in just once" (haha...) and that was it. I went right back to the way I was before and started drinking too. I went to rehab a few times but it never worked like it did the first time. Someone I met at rehab the last time told me about this site. I need to get clean and sober again not just for me, but for my husband and daughter. She is growing up and suspects something as much as I try to hide it from her and my husband is growing more and more concerned. I have been off morphine for 1 week now and tomorrow will hopefully be my first alcohol free day. I'm very nervous and if anybody has any advice I would appreciate it. Failure is not an option! :upset:

thank you

--Maggie

[mario]

Maggie;s story

:welcome: maggie,This is a great place you have come to,lots of good advice & supportWe alcoholics are on a merry go round,going round and round and we couldent get off,This merry go round is like a hell on earth,You can learn to get of that merrygoround by trying to stay sober and i would like to think you will get some of the strenght by droping in here as much as you can. :goodjob:

[Marshy]

Maggie;s story

Welcome Maggie!

Well done on the week off morphine. Do you have plan for quitting alcohol - how to distract yourself with other things, how to change your routine, what alternative alcohol-free drinks will you have? There's a "toolbox" thread in the monthly abstinence section which has some great tips about how to make a plan and stick to it.
Hope to see you around.

[JackieClaire]

Maggie;s story

Welcome Maggie,
Just a quick hello. Feel your way around this site. Read as much as you can. Soon you'll start to get familiar with the names.
Mario, I feel as if I'm following you around this morning.
Love Jackie xxx
AF since 7/7/2009

[Gold]

Maggie;s story

Hello Maggie and welcome,

You've come to a good place, so much support and inspiration. Making a plan of some sort as Marshy has suggested was helpful to me, it made my decision to stop drinking more real than when in the past I would just think to myself 'right that's it' or something like that.

I'm finding that the L-glutamine and Kudzu seem to help and also becoming a regular on one of the ongoing threads, for me it's the monthly abstinence one.

When you were pregnant you had a plan and perhaps that contributed to your success at that time.

I wonder whether you were able at the time to express how you felt when your mother died, or at any time since then. The loss of your mother when you were so young must have been devastating.

You can turn your life around and find new ways to cope with challenges iny our life.

[Tulipe]

Maggie;s story

Hi Maggie,
You're at a good place now, to be morphine free for a week. Keep up the good work, and it will make you feel good to achieve.

[sunbird]

Maggie;s story

Welcome Maggie, and well done on a week morphine free!

You have come to the right place for love and support. You are still young, and so licking the problem is so worth it. Are you seeing a counscillor? The multi faceted approach is often the best. God bless, you are in my prayers.
Love, Sunbird

[Lavande]

Maggie;s story

Hello Maggie!

Welcome! You've found a great place for support. Have you read the MWO book yet? It's full of useful information to help you make your plan.
Please feel free to join us on the 'Newbies Nest' thread. There's lots of folks there just beginning their journeys.
Congratulations on your progress so far, keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Best wishes,
Lav

[42cat]

Maggie;s story

Welcome, Maggie. Stick close to the boards. I learned so much from this place. Wonderful bunch of people!

I wanted to ask ... How much have you been drinking lately? I was drinking a quart a day (vodka / rum). It can be dangerous to quit cold-turkey. Have you talked to your doctor? If not, and if you're currently drinking as much as I was, you may want to think of tapering down a bit before cutting it off all together.

If you're interested in my experience, I tapered down and posted a bit about it :
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...ggy-34156.html

And, as others have mentioned, the supplements (Kudzu, L-glut) are really great. Drink LOTs of water too (warm water with lemon is good for your liver and helps you detox). I found short walks (get the heart rate up) and warm baths to help too.

Please post as you go along to let us know how things are going. Power to you!

[MissMerlot]

Maggie;s story

Good luck for today Maggie.
I wish you all the love in the world...
My day 1 was yday and it wasn't good if you and read my post "another seizue" in the general discussion section.
But hey i made it through to day 2...
I'm 33 too.
We don't need this shit,nor does anyone!

Keep reading and posting,it really does help.
If i wonder too close from the boards i tend to get carried away.
Aim to check in at least once a day.There's always someone here...

love & prayers
annie
xx

[Dreamweaver]

Maggie;s story

Welcome Maggie! I'm so glad that you found your way here. The people here are wonderful. I know how hard it is to kick opiates! Great job! Your halfway there. I lost my children (they are grown now and I talk to them daily) due to my drinking. You don't want to let that happen.

[darkie]

Maggie;s story

hi maggie.welcome.your a young woman.with a full life before you ,its great you realise at this stage you have a problem and are ready to do something about it,stick with us ,i have found it a great halp talking to people whom understand,you are not alone and rember you stopped once for your baby .you can do it again .best of luck maggie

[Elpis]

Maggie;s story

HI Maggie,

Welcome to Sobriety 101. I?m a new student in this class too. AF day six for me. You are at the right place. A week ago I hit a new low and came crawling in here. I found love, support, and most importantly for me, I found people JUST LIKE ME ? a lot of them... people all over the world. Words of support came in from four continents in less than an hour. And these people were JUST LIKE ME.

We have a disease. A disease is best managed by a physician. You might do it alone (I couldn?t). I know, you?ve been there ? done that. So go there and do it again. I read a statistic that the success rate for an attempt at quitting an addiction is only 10%. But each attempt is associated with a 10% success rate thus if you KEEP TRYING, chances are that you will win eventually. We only fail when we quit trying. Consider each relapse merely a practice for when you finally achieve you goal.

All the best!

E-

[Guitarista]

Maggie;s story

Hiya Maggie, and a big Welcome to you!
Read, read, read, and post ANY questions too, if that helps. Get a plan organised, that suits you. You've got to do the work, and you can do this for you!
Best wishes on your journey. Go for it!.......

[clockworkorange]

Maggie;s story

thank you everyone for your support! so today was supposed to be day 1. I didnt go completely alcohol free like I planned too, but tomorrow's another day and I'm going to keep on trying.

What are the supplements like? I was thinking about looking into something like that but I was wondering if someone who has tried them could give me their opinion.

thank you all

Maggie