ODAT - Saturday

[DancingGirl]

ODAT - Saturday

Hi Patricia,

I spent some time thinking the Drink Tracker was something people downloaded, but then finally found it at the bottom of the list of forums. If you go back up to the top of the page (where you log in), you will see on the left side "My Way Out Forums > Introduction and General Discussion" Click on My Way out Forums, then scroll right down almost to the bottom. The very bottom says "What's Going On" and just above that is a section entitled "Miscellaneous." The Drink Tracker is the second thing there. When you click on it you will see all the names of people who are using it, but again, at the bottom is a link where you can sign in with your user name and password.

I find it really, really helpful!

Best,
Dancer

[patricia]

ODAT - Saturday

Thanks, will have a look. Take care Px

[Bessie]

ODAT - Saturday

I'll second that. It is very useful and if you are tempted to put in anything other than what you have/haven't drunk - don't!! :H You'll only be fooling you. I sometimes wince when I put in what I drink - I use units rather than glasses which can look pretty bad. So if that helps me focus on NOT doing it, it is a very good thing. When I can put in a yellow entry, even a green one, I am very chuffed!

Tonight I am going to bed with a big fat zero in today's slot. Though not sure how many units of chocolate ice cream I would have to put in if I was counting - LOL!!

Night, night
Bessie xxx

[Cinders]

ODAT - Saturday

Tylyr,

I am finally months AF. For the first time since I joined in May of 2007. Finally AF and so darned grateful to be there.

I was telling hubby this morning that I will be cautiously optimistic when I get a year's sobriety under my belt.

Until then, I do it ODAT and refuse to really count. If I do, I start obsessing.

ODAT and Monthly Abs are my two sections, besides the Meds forum. (I use Baclofen and it helps me greatly.) I also use subs.

Oh, heck, I go everywhere except I avoid Mods most of the time, even though some of my favorites hang out there. But we manage to keep up. I try to avoid reading about people drinking and trying to moderate. I have found it simply tempts me to think, "maybe I can moderate someday, too..." and I just flat out know I can't. I have tried it too many times with disastrous results.

I am hanging on to my sobriety as hard as I can. I use Baclofen, I go to AA, I read MWO, I am even adding in exercise (ick). I do supplements. For the first time in years, my body is finally showing signs of repair. My mind is clear and my heart is filled with joy.

I know I don't have long term sobriety but I have hit that place we all look for. The elusive, I just can't and won't do this to myself anymore. No matter what.

Love,
Cindi

[patricia]

ODAT - Saturday

You're helping a lot of people!

thanks,

[openheart]

ODAT - Saturday

Dreamstealer

Thanks, Cindi et al for your posts. Very helpful. I forget sometimes that I am doing this for me.
Today is my 5th AF day--quite unusual since the last few years have usually been 20 - 25 days out of a month w/ al (wine). I would buy the boxed wine because then I wouldn't know (and no one else would know) how much I was having. If I bought a bottle, I would buy a replacement bottle and fill the original one with a funnel, furtively looking over my shoulder to see if anyone was coming and would catch me. I also started having my DOC (drink of choice) in different kinds of glasses--coffee cups/styrofoam etc... I know I haven't hid it well, because family members would walk right over and deliberately look in the cup. Shame.

But I am choosing to be AF *for me*. It is a dreamstealer for me. My creative and energetic side really get flowing with a couple glasses of the red stuff. I would have ideas and feel passionate and so capable! But the next day, my confidence and energy and motivation to follow through on these things would be out the window (and sometimes in the toilet). I never thought I would be so dependent on anything because I have been so independent and a bit of a rebel my whole life.

I was thinking of celebrating tonight my AF days--celebrating with the one thing that makes me feel so carefree, but makes me old and dumb and a schlump.

I think if I am going to choose to slip up (or mod--depending on if I want to sprinkle sugar on sh__), I am going to insist I read this forum first and then decide. Hope I can stick to that.:h