Last week I started drinking pretty heavily by myself. Then an old friend and his girlfriend showed up and we really started drinking. He then brought out a bag of weed and I haven't smoked that stuff since college, and back then I only did it a few times (it is much stronger these days). Well long story short, four days later after a couple bottles of Captain Morgan, smoking, and not eating I ended up in the hospital.
Although in pretty bad shape I was able to check myself in half way sober. I spent two days in the hospital connected to an IV line and wires connected all over my chest so I could be monitored. They performed every test possible from an EKG to a catscan, must have taken my blood 6 or 8 times over two days, took my vital signs every four hours, and even had a person sit in my room all night to just monitor me.
After all the tests, blood work, etc. they said I need help with my drinking, but I couldn't be any healthier for a 38 year old male. I could go out and run 10 miles or ride my bike for 50 miles without any problem right now. I feel guilty for going to the hospital because there are people out there that really need help (I did need help when I went to the hospital). I didn't drink for four days after getting out of the hospital, but tonight I have had a few drinks and scared I am going to start this cycle over again.
My mom was trying to get me to go to the Betty Ford Clinic the past couple of days, but I have resisted. My parents are too old to keep putting up my crap, but I don't know how to quit.
Well that's all I have for now and hopefully this will help someone before things go too far for them.
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