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[Skittles]

I cannot believe I made it through both a friday and Saturday night without getting drunk. It was by accident I discovered this site and I am so grateful. I knew I needed support, but AA is not for me and now that I have found this place I truly feel like I have a chance! What a Godsend this website is! I am really actually looking forward to the not drinking with a new attitude, and it is NOT a sense of dread, but a sense of relief! It feels so good to wake up and feel GOOD! Usually I would have woken up at 3am with this god awful thirst and gulp down several cups of water because i was so dehydrated. my head would feel like a stake was being driven through my skull................this is so much better! I actually spent the last 2 nites reading books instead of as a robotic beer drinking vegetable staring at the tv and not remembering it the next day................I am beginning to realize all of the time and money i have literally been wasting! I have not been living at all, just existing day to day. I want to live! I want to live this life and be a part of something. I want to make a difference. I dont want to be a drunk recluse that has dropped out of life any longer!

I just wanted to share the things that have been going through my mind this morning. I hope someone out there can relate. I am so excited about this journey! Thank you Roberta (and Allen Carr too!)................Thank you to all of the caring people on this site............something inside me has finally clicked!:H

[Muddle]

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Thank you for your post, Skittles. I can relate to so much of what you say.

Particularly the 3 am headache and parching thirst. Also, I've been trying to study and kidded myself that one glass of wine wouldn't hurt. Three glasses later, I had no idea what I'd been reading. Today is Day 4. Maybe my dog will actually get a walk after work next week since I won't be so focused on having to get home for that first glass of wine.

[ladybirdheart]

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It’s great when the lights come on isn’t it, Skittles? You seem like a true sweetheart, and I wish you all the best, one day at a time. When much of our lives have been characterized by things done or left undone when we are drinking and then this is lifted even for a moment, I think we can never completely go back. We always know what life could be like if we find our way out. Good show, Maise. Love, Ladybird.

[warrior22]

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Skittles,
I'm with you! It's such a great feeling to wake up in the morning and feel refreshed and cheerful, not headachy and grouchy and slight nauseous. Here's to many more sober evenings and non-hungover morning!

[Determination]

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Skittles -

I agree with everything that you sad. AA is just not for me - I tend not to be the most social person to begin with and I'm not very religious. The thought of AA meetings just turned me off...but I knew I needed support to change my life. I stumbled across this website by accident too, and it is the lifeline I needed to make real change.

I never would have imagined that being sober could have such a change on my life - after being drunk was the "norm" for so long, I forgot how much better life can be. I feel like "myself" again!