So the last couple of days have been getting harder. No physical craving, but gosh darn it, i just miss the lovely feeling of relaxing with a nice glass of wine! I've held off, but I'm beginning to think, "What's the harm in a little drink??"
Tonight my husband (who has been 28 days AF) wants to go out to dinner, and I know he plans to order wine. Fine for him, but I'm not sure about me. My fear is that my glass of wine will turn into 3, followed by a couple of vodka tonics when we got home, followed by a headache in the morning. I know if I asked him not to order wine, he wouldn't . . . but part of me WANTS to have the wine. So what to do?? Is there any reason why I shouldn't have a glass or two? I've poured out the vodka, so I couldn't have the after dinner cocktails at home.
I'm afraid I'm rationalizing things or in denial or all those other things "alcoholics" supposedly do. Heck, I'm not sure I'm even an alcoholic (or is that just denial again??). I'm confused about what's the right thing to do at this point. My planning never got much past "I've got to stop getting completely drunk every night." I've accomplished that, and now i'm not sure what's next.
Any thoughts?
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