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[dancelot]

09-09-09 Club

Morning! Happy Sunday, 999ers! Hope ya'll are still around.

Ragweed gettin' to ya, LTG? It is me.

[tawnywitch]

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I love Halloween too, I think Imust be abit of a pagan, I will be playing scrabble on facebook tonight too, any one want to be my friend, I have only just joined and I don't have many, my children don't think it's cool to admit that I'm on it, mind you I wouldn't want them knowing about the A, not sure how that work's, can everyone see your conversation's or can you keep them private?

[finallymadeit2]

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dancelot;714516 wrote: Hi, Finally -

I also have adult ADHD and was in a long term relationship with a man who had very similar traits as your husband. In fact my main motivation to stop drinking was when I could no longer be prescribed Adderall because my blood pressure was getting high. I don't have insurance, so I thought trying behavior modification was the best way for me, including eating better, exercise ,and (at first) minimizing my AL intake, then realizing I had to give it up. Interestingly, the ADHD is a lot more manageable, though I am careful to avoid situations that make it worse, just as I had to before I ever knew that this was what my problem actually was (I was not diagnosed until 5 years ago). As long as I'm not in a learning or school environment, I'm doing OK, but if I take any classes (which I'm considering), it would be a thousand times easier on the ADHD drugs.

I also think this contributed to my heavy drinking, since it's difficult to slow down or focus when you need to. Just another example of the ways we self medicate. My ex also always blamed my moods for every problem, and same as yours, saw his indulgences as "therapeutic", not drug abuse. The funny thing is, I've never been involved with a heavy drinker, my father was one and I knew better, but I seem to have a long history of these "smoking" types, which has never particularly appealed to me.

I wish you the best and if I can be of any help let me know. Keep hanging in there - I know how hard it is. :h

Much love to you - Dance

I've been MIA for awhile, other than logging onto drinktracker. Dance, you're life sounds so much like mine.... self-medicating to slow down, history with the "smoking" types, etc.

I've been doing o.k. with my ups and downs with drinking, although I went on a bender last night. We had 2 weddings to go to. I probably had 6 drinks, but I drank hard alcohol which hubby tells me I drink too fast and become really nasty. I even blacked a bit... my memory on what happened once we got home is a bit fuzzy. I haven't had that much to drink in about 2 months. And I haven't drank "hard alcohol" since last winter. I know alcohol is alcohol, but I drink gin & tonics way faster than wine or beer. I just wanted to feel like the "life of the party" like I used to. I considered not drinking prior to the weddings, but felt really insecure about socializing without a drink in hand. I was with way too many of my old "drinking buddies." Not sure where I should go from here.... my therapist REALLY wants me NOT to drink at all. He says it will halt my progress. Every session begins with "don't pick up the bottle right now.... not even one." I get annoyed when he says this because it makes me not want to go back the following week, yet I know it has some truth to it. So, I go back each week to my appointment anyway.

Enough venting for now..... hugs to everyone! It's going to be October very soon.... a new start for all of us! (Even though many of us are struggling, I think there are many more "0s" on the drinktracker than ever before!)

[dancelot]

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Hi, finally -

Glad you're still lurking around, and checking in on DrinkTracker (which I decided is worth doing every day, whether I feel like reading or posting or not). In my mind, every BFYZ (big fat yellow zero) counts for a lot. I felt kind of crappy all weekend, but saw that and there's concrete proof something's going right.

That and being really aware of any and all triggers (for me, feeling cruddy, tired, bored all weekend) knowing that was a major trigger for me, but not giving in (I don't keep AL in the house, and if my roommate has any in the fridge, I move it to the back, make sure I don't see it, not that I'll actually drink it, but I don't want to be reminded of it either).

I agree AL is AL, as far as comparing the types, but I do remember my dad advising me (fatherly advice to a chip off the old block) that "hard liquor sneaks up on you", which to me is different than wine or beer which is more gradual, maybe because chugging isn't as easy with something in a bigger glass (though I know I could go through the 4 pack of little wine bottles in an hour - almost a full regular bottle, which is 4 1/2 of those).

It is almost October, which always feels like a "new year" to me (probably because the Texas heat finally breaks for good!), so that is also a time to have a positive new start. Even with 50 days AF, I need to do the day at a time thing, always remind myself, because I had a bad habit for so many years. Just gotta keep an eye on it.

So..... here's to a sober October (and it rhymes!). Keep on keeping on.....

Much love all! - Dance

[Lynnie]

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Tawny - I'll play Scrabble with you on Facebook. Actually it's called Wordscraper (the version I prefer anyhow). So add the application and then I'll have to add you as a friend then we can have a game. Not sure if you're comfortable telling me your real name here or not. You can PM me if you want!

[dancelot]

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Morning, Lynnie!

Do you have to use your real name on Facebook, or can you have a screen name, or can you keep some information private?

[Lynnie]

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Hi Dancelot!

Everyone uses their persdonal name on Facebook and yes you can have your profile restricted to your family and friends only for viewing or have it open for everyone to see.

You thinking of registering?

[dancelot]

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Only because I want to play Scrabble!

[LookingToGrow]

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Good morning everyone! How was the weekend? Mine was abit rough but I made it AF by cooking alot with GD here.

[dancelot]

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There she is!!!! Hi, LTG!

Mine was a little stressful as well, and I already felt like crap from allergies. But I stayed AF, though it felt like a "need to drink early and often" kind of weekend.

[LookingToGrow]

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Sorry to hear about the allergies! Can you take anything for them? What did you do to stay AF?

[dancelot]

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I take generic Zyrtec. It works for most things, less on whatever's out now (ragweed, grass, elm). Probably should switch around or bum an Allegra off my roommate if he's feeling generous.

No AL in the house, and it's gotten easier the longer I stay off. If I don't (or can't) exercise I notice old triggers coming on, like when I can't breathe good (I don't know that AL ever actually helped), when stressful events come up, I notice I think about AL, or at least remember how 2 months ago I would have drank under those circumstances (or any actually, if I'm being truthful).

I take L- glute and kudzu, avoid refined carbs, exercise, and read stuff here (sometimes the awful stuff acts as a deterrent). Do the one day at a time, or one hour at a time.

[dancelot]

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Good morning! Hey, where'd ya'll go?

[LookingToGrow]

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Hey Dance! How are the allergies today?

[dancelot]

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Hey, LTG!

Still here, but I can get used to anything, I guess. How you doing?