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[dancelot]

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Many years ago, I used to teach riding (at a barn that was the opposite spectrum of Las Colinas). A woman from another "upwardly mobile" (uppitty mobile?) suburb put on her helmet, which didn't exactly protect her head, as it sat on top of her really big hair. I had to turn away and just try not to think about it, trying to be professional and all!

[LookingToGrow]

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That's funny! I bet Cowgal would laugh her ass off too. My oldest granddaughter -almost 5 now - is learning about horses the old fashioned way. She really enjoyed the ride upto Lake Texoma about 3 weeks ago. Full of horse ranches.

[dancelot]

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That's the way to do it! Thanks for the laughs this morning!

[Muddle]

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I love the duck story, looking! And getting through a panic attack with funny stories! Very cool idea.

[LookingToGrow]

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Thanks, Maise. Dance and I were kinda making light of snobby folks...LOL!! How are you today?

[finallymadeit2]

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LookingToGrow;713908 wrote: Hi Finally!
Sorry you are struggling right now. Anything we can do to help you?

Thanks LTG.... I don't know what would really help. When I screw up, it's not like I get plastered, but I have a few drinks for all the wrong reasons.... I'm annoyed, angry, or lonely. I've also drank just to be able to focus on cleaning my house! I am not supposed to be drinking at all right now- I am on mood stabilizing drugs and my psychiatrist says we won't know how well they are working unless I stop drinking. He also thinks I have adult ADHD, but doesn't want to put me on stimulating drugs if I am drinking.

My husband and I haven't been getting along very well. He blames everything on my mood disorder. I asked him if he would stop smoking pot for the gazillionth time, and he said that I should START smoking pot because it would be better than the alcohol. I was like, WTF? (And I HATE that expression!) I guess I am lacking support at home. I mean, my husband encourages me, but still has a beer or two in front of me most evenings and I can tell when he is "high." I don't feel like it's fair. I don't know..... I'm kind of rambling on here. I just feel like it would be easier if my household was "substance free." He says the pot helps his back pain, along with the pain killers and muscle relaxers his doctor prescribes. I think he has an addiction problem as well, but he will NEVER admit that. He believes it's all "therapeutic" and necessary for him to get through the day. It all just makes me feel really sad. I am trying to find the strength to beat this on my own, but it's not easy. Sigh..... again, thanks for asking. I am trying my best to not get overly emotional about this, but it's a tough struggle on my own.

[LookingToGrow]

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Oh geezzzzzz, Finally! You have alot on your plate with husbo. I have a similar situation with one of my stepdaugthers, the youngest one of 2. I have 3 kids of my own too, but so far they seem okay. My stepdaughters were adopted by my husbo and his ex-wife from the ex's sister. Birth mom has always done drugs and drank. Two years ago she got herself run out of oldest stepdaughter's home for "doping and drinking" on the job with grandson. She is now on the same path with youngest stepdaughter. I guess why I am posting this is because I wish for you to be in substance free home. It's so much harder when you are enabled or encouraged. Praying for the best for you :wings:

[finallymadeit2]

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Thanks for the wishes and prayers LTG. I have high hopes of change in my future. We shall see. I am fighting the urge to drink all day with thinking, "I must do what's best for me and my kids." Drinking right now is NOT what's best! So, I cooked up a storm today, played dolls with my daughter, and read books with my son. If I stay busy, I think of drinking less often.

[LookingToGrow]

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finallymadeit2;714074 wrote: Thanks for the wishes and prayers LTG. I have high hopes of change in my future. We shall see. I am fighting the urge to drink all day with thinking, "I must do what's best for me and my kids." Drinking right now is NOT what's best! So, I cooked up a storm today, played dolls with my daughter, and read books with my son. If I stay busy, I think of drinking less often.

Staying busy is good. Down the line, just remember that staying busy doesn't always mean chores. Try to remember what is important to you, as a person. Take it from there...

[dancelot]

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finallymadeit2;714032 wrote: Thanks LTG.... I don't know what would really help. When I screw up, it's not like I get plastered, but I have a few drinks for all the wrong reasons.... I'm annoyed, angry, or lonely. I've also drank just to be able to focus on cleaning my house! I am not supposed to be drinking at all right now- I am on mood stabilizing drugs and my psychiatrist says we won't know how well they are working unless I stop drinking. He also thinks I have adult ADHD, but doesn't want to put me on stimulating drugs if I am drinking.

My husband and I haven't been getting along very well. He blames everything on my mood disorder. I asked him if he would stop smoking pot for the gazillionth time, and he said that I should START smoking pot because it would be better than the alcohol. I was like, WTF? (And I HATE that expression!) I guess I am lacking support at home. I mean, my husband encourages me, but still has a beer or two in front of me most evenings and I can tell when he is "high." I don't feel like it's fair. I don't know..... I'm kind of rambling on here. I just feel like it would be easier if my household was "substance free." He says the pot helps his back pain, along with the pain killers and muscle relaxers his doctor prescribes. I think he has an addiction problem as well, but he will NEVER admit that. He believes it's all "therapeutic" and necessary for him to get through the day. It all just makes me feel really sad. I am trying to find the strength to beat this on my own, but it's not easy. Sigh..... again, thanks for asking. I am trying my best to not get overly emotional about this, but it's a tough struggle on my own.

Hi, Finally -

I also have adult ADHD and was in a long term relationship with a man who had very similar traits as your husband. In fact my main motivation to stop drinking was when I could no longer be prescribed Adderall because my blood pressure was getting high. I don't have insurance, so I thought trying behavior modification was the best way for me, including eating better, exercise ,and (at first) minimizing my AL intake, then realizing I had to give it up. Interestingly, the ADHD is a lot more manageable, though I am careful to avoid situations that make it worse, just as I had to before I ever knew that this was what my problem actually was (I was not diagnosed until 5 years ago). As long as I'm not in a learning or school environment, I'm doing OK, but if I take any classes (which I'm considering), it would be a thousand times easier on the ADHD drugs.

I also think this contributed to my heavy drinking, since it's difficult to slow down or focus when you need to. Just another example of the ways we self medicate. My ex also always blamed my moods for every problem, and same as yours, saw his indulgences as "therapeutic", not drug abuse. The funny thing is, I've never been involved with a heavy drinker, my father was one and I knew better, but I seem to have a long history of these "smoking" types, which has never particularly appealed to me.

I wish you the best and if I can be of any help let me know. Keep hanging in there - I know how hard it is. :h

Much love to you - Dance

Hello, LTG - I'm off to do the mud dance (maybe!) - talk to you guys later

[dancelot]

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Good morning 999 club! Hope you all had a good weekend! I mostly just got rained on.

[LookingToGrow]

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Hey Dance! How was the mud fest?

[dancelot]

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LTG!

Looked like 3/4 of the people scratched, except the ones who were scheduled to ride inside! Should of checked in with my friends first, but at least it got me out of the house for an hour. Oh, yeah, a huge flock of geese took over a vacant lot on Forest Lane, as well as the right lane, and were still there on the way back. Guess I should have called 911!

I should have stayed home and watched the Cowboys, I guess. How'd this weekend go for you?

[LookingToGrow]

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911...LOL!!
Weekend was so wet with the pets and all. Now, we have leak in the roof in the living room. Just watched football and went out for groceries inbetween down pours. Glad you got out for a bit. Oh, I see 1/2 a ray of sunshine

[Lynnie]

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Hello everybody! I am still here and drank lots of water on the weekend!! Oh, I bought some de-alcoholized beer and had one on Saturday night and one yestersday. Pretty good! I also bought some non-alcohol wine but have not tried it yet. I am day 6 here and feeling very confident. I actually lost 5 pounds in 5 days! But I've been exercising LOTS and like I said drinking LOTS of water too. I am not even overweight and I lost!! Gotta love it! I weigh 140 pounds but it would be nice to be even 10 pounds lighter.

How did everyone do over the weekend?

:yay::wave: