String a few AF pearls together with me!

[ChickenNumber3]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

It a hot,sunny day here and I have just baked a chocolate cake for my Mum's 75 b'day with my 3 yr old! Just waiting for it to cool down to ice, then we will go help Mum celebrate with the kids after school is out!!

I agree with the sugar cravings alot! I went crazy there for awhile, just eating sugary and savoury..anything with carbs I guess. It does seem to have eased off a bit now though *phew* and I am trying to get back into healthy eating mode as well..plus exercise!

Am still very glad to not be drinking...feel resolved and happy and just content with it now. BUt am also enjoying the feeling of knowing that everyday without al...is a day toward being more healthy. Even if I eat something naughty, I don't feel half as bad about it as I would the drinking! Cause atleast I'm not deliberately poisoning myself on a daily basis.

I've stopped counting my af days now, cause I don't feel I need to....and that feels good too.

[icandothis]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Good morning Chicken, Chooch, Peace, Fluff and everyone else!

Chicken, sounds like you have a great day ahead of you. I agree, I'd rather eat sugar than poison myself with AL, so I'm not really giving myself a hard time at all about it. I had a cupcake with frosting at work yesterday (someone brought them in) I would normally never do that, but I thought I'd rather have that at 4pm than start thinking about how nice a glass of wine would be after work.

I'm hoping someday to just say....I stopped drinking years ago...or something like that. Right now, it's too early days for that in my case. But I also don't want to focus on the day/month/year that I stopped drinking forever.

Have a great day everyone!

[Choochie]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Hi Everyone,

Well, you guys have brought up an interesting topic - that of counting days. I am day 29 today and for some reason it helps me to count them because I feel more resolve when I have this measureable amount of time. But, it seems that ICan, Chook and Peace are moving beyond that. I think that makes sense too. I guess the amount of days really isn't what matters if you think about it.

Anyway, I'm just glad we're all getting along well and I'm off to work. Oh, and thanks for the posts about your sugar cravings. I really have had them as I mentioned. Not too worried about it - like you've said - better than poisoning ourselves with AL.

Wishing everyone a wonderful AF day.

Choochie

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Had a horrible 2 days of drinking.. ashamed, guilty..lost 2 days of my life. Dont know how to start again..I guess.. just do it.
Day 1 AF
and i do need to count at this time. It helped me feel more confident each day i put behind me. Obviously , i wasnt thinkin about that when i picked up the bottle of wine. But I am bound to make it if i keep trying. I dont want to give up because of a very stupid choice

[Choochie]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Bratty, you know, Chook recently drank too, but it made her feel more resolved about staying sober. Can you tell us what you think made you drink? You know we're here for you and want to help if we can.:l

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

hi Choochie,

i know what made me drink. My boyfriend was going with me to my daughters for a halloween party. I didnt want him to go. Cuz he wouldnt want to stay very long and i wanted to spend time with my grandkids. I was picking up beer for my son to take to party and there, lo and behold was this lovely bottle of wine calllin my name.
I just automatically purchased it. Took it home and opened it and drank the entire bottle before i went back to my boyfriends house to leave for party. So, needless to say, he knew i was drinkin and then didnt want to go to party with me. Problem resolved. Only i had a new problem then...l
I continued to drink the rest of the night and bot more wine, which i woke up to monday morning and started drinking again. I missed work. Had a day comin to me that i was going to use to go to bluegrass show with my sis. Screwed that up to.
So , all because i chose to drink... i missed my daughters party, missed seeing my grandsons and gave up a day of work, to drink and sleep.
I know my boyfriend is my main trigger. The relationship is toxic. I have to do something about it

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

I am certainly resolved not to drink again... but i almost did after work. My car kept wanting to go to the mexican restaurant for a margarita. But I didnt do it. So, this was scary to me. I am so mad at myself and embarassed, ashamed.. all that guilt. Makes me feel like a piece of crap

[Choochie]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Bratty - I'm so sorry you're going through this. You seemed really happy when you were stringing. Sounds like you may need to make a big boyfriend change, eh?? You know, I think I told you my husband quit drinking with me. I think it would have been impossible for me if he had kept drinking.

Well, anyway, we are here for you. Please don't beat yourself up, though. "Failures" make us stronger in the long run. Maybe this will help you next go round. Hope so!

Big hugs,
Choochie

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Thanx so much Choochie,

Your husband has to love you alot to quit for you. A very unselfish man. My boyfriend will not stop drinkin around me. Says he doesnt have a problem, i do, so why should he give it up.
A real sweetheart, eh? lol

[ChickenNumber3]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Dear bratty...don't beat yourself up now..it will only make you feel worse and that could trigger more urges to drink..I know (been there done that!)

Starting again is hard, you feel crummy at yourself for letting yourself down, but just remember that the point is to string them together.....you have done that, it is a blip on the radar of sobriety, now you string some more together....even if you have another blip at some point in the future...atleast those af days are allowing you to heal. You know that you can do it ,cause you've done it!

Be gentle on yourself, but be resolved!

My hubby still drinks and alot of our friends do too. But they are not my problem and I am not their's. Right now being af is the right thing for you....! Don't get me wrong, I sit back and watch them drink and at times feel 'isolated', but that is rarer now...cause now I sit and feel quietly smug that I'm not the poor schmuk with the hangover the next day!

Don't be discouarged.....just roll up those sleeves and get back into it again. Remember two af days is a string of pearls and still precious!
Chook:l

[Ringing Cedars]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Hey Chick!! Good to see you..hope all is well and you're jammin!

[ChickenNumber3]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Hey Ringing!

I'm doing really well..other than having the flu at the moment ...am enjoying af life and getting on with things! How about you?

[Choochie]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Hi Everyone - day 30 af for me today - feeling good.

Bratty - just start stringing - one little blip along the way.
Chook - sorry to hear you're under the weather - tis the season I guess. Thanks for this bit of insight on how you feel when you're with others who are drinking. This is a big challenge I haven't faced yet but I'm going to hold the thought of feeling good knowing that they'll be hung over and I won't!

Hope we all are feeling strong and ready for another AF day!

Hugs,
Choochie

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

ChickenNumber3;995403 wrote: Dear bratty...don't beat yourself up now..it will only make you feel worse and that could trigger more urges to drink..I know (been there done that!)

Starting again is hard, you feel crummy at yourself for letting yourself down, but just remember that the point is to string them together.....you have done that, it is a blip on the radar of sobriety, now you string some more together....even if you have another blip at some point in the future...atleast those af days are allowing you to heal. You know that you can do it ,cause you've done it!

Be gentle on yourself, but be resolved!

My hubby still drinks and alot of our friends do too. But they are not my problem and I am not their's. Right now being af is the right thing for you....! Don't get me wrong, I sit back and watch them drink and at times feel 'isolated', but that is rarer now...cause now I sit and feel quietly smug that I'm not the poor schmuk with the hangover the next day!

Don't be discouarged.....just roll up those sleeves and get back into it again. Remember two af days is a string of pearls and still precious!
Chook:l

Hey CHook,
Thanks for the encouraging words. I know that it is not my boyfriends fault that i drink. I made that choice. I dont blame him for it at all. I blame myself for being weak and using alcohol to try to resolve my stress , which never works.
He is however my main trigger, so i have to step back and figure out if i can do this and still be in a relationship with him. Right now i am not. We are taking time apart, so if i see that i am happier this way and AF. ,I will know what i have to do.
I am very resolved and have woken up with a new determination. I will do this. There are bound to be little bumps in the road when you are on a journey. Hopefully it will be my last, but if not... i still know i am on the road. I will not give up

[bratty57]

String a few AF pearls together with me!

Day 2 AF... stringin a new string of some beautiful pearls !