How come? Let me explain, i came here to find a support group to find a way to stop drinking. I am no stranger to quitting, i have battled a very tragic and life changing drug addiction to the point that if i used now i would kill myself because it discusts me that much, but the one thing i haven't been able to overcome is the booze. The main reason i can't, is because it helped me through the drug addiction. But i am soooooo stubborn, i refuse to get help, and my family is full of enablers, and i have a great job, and have been through hell in the last two years and kept it all going. But there is only so much you can pull off, so as i see friends dropping off at a fast pace, i can only imagine that the rest is to come. So, why do i call this How Come? because music is very inspiring to me, i and i am listening to a song named How Come, and it is asking a question from one friend to another, here is part,
"How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin' now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can't be true
We family aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you!"
I can tell you all my story, and hope i find at least one to listen, and talk back to, and i hope i can find the help and strength here to get it done. It has been 2 years now since my last truly sober day, so i am in pretty deep, but i can do it, i know i can. I hope someone sees this, and writes back!! I am now in China so i am on a different time zone than the US, but i will log in daily, and hopefully tomorrow i start my journey to the new life!! CIAO and much love to all of you who are fighting the same battle that i am, you are all so strong!
"How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin' now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can't be true
We family aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you!"
I can tell you all my story, and hope i find at least one to listen, and talk back to, and i hope i can find the help and strength here to get it done. It has been 2 years now since my last truly sober day, so i am in pretty deep, but i can do it, i know i can. I hope someone sees this, and writes back!! I am now in China so i am on a different time zone than the US, but i will log in daily, and hopefully tomorrow i start my journey to the new life!! CIAO and much love to all of you who are fighting the same battle that i am, you are all so strong!
helo and :welcome: eltonmatters12 this community that you have found is great,if you are moderating,abstaining or just want to cut down,its all here with real people from everywhere.hope you stick around and join in. dont quit quiting 
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