Procrastinated for a bit, then went ahead and bought the book for download, and of course found out afterwards that I could've downloaded it for free (oh, well) -
Wanted so badly to buy the supps and cd's but kept saying, "I can't afford it"
Then came last weekend -
Friday night: spent over $100.00 (on credit card, no less!) on beer and shots
Saturday night: apparently everyone at the bar was my friend that night, 'cause I spent almost $200.00 (again, on credt card) buying rounds for the house.
Sunday afternoon: cruising this forum, reading different threads, wanting so badly to buy the supps and cd's. All of a sudden, it hit me, "Holy s*&t, I just spent over $300.00 on booze this weekend using credit cards. What's the difference if I throw a bit more on there to possibly change my life?" So, before I could talk myself out of it yet again, I ordered the stuff. And I didn't drink that night, either.
Monday: bad day. started drinking at 3pm cause, hey it's Monday Night Football, right? And up here in Alaska, that starts in the afternoon. Since 1992, I haven't been able to go more than one day without drinking, so I hit it and hit it hard. Drank over a case of beer by 10pm.
Tuesday: Woke up with the usual - guilt, loathing, remorse, and wondering just how long it's gonna take before the supps show up. I want them yesterday, cause I just don't seem to be able to quit the drinking on my own, and I don't know just how much longer I can keep hating myself. So, I decided to be a bit proactive and go into town, see if I can find any of the supps there. Just as I was getting into my truck, the mail lady pulls up behind me. She hands me a box -
Ohmigod!! It's the supps and cd's!! :wd: A day and half after I ordered them. That just doesn't happen in Alaska, trust me. I was so excited that I decided to start them right away. So I took the dosages recommended for dinner time and wow! two hours later, I had a killer headache that just wouldn't quit. I went to bed, slept poorly (no alcohol) and woke up early. Headache was gone, thank God.
So now I'm at the first full day of supps, and hoping that the headache was just a bit of stress. Take the supps, and by 2:00 in the afternoon, the headache is back, only this time much worse!! I take 4 extra-strength tylenol and crawl into bed. An hour later the headache is gone, only to return later that evening around 7pm to take up residence in my brain for the rest of the night.
Now, to my credit, even though every part of me was screaming, "Just go have a beer, have several and the pain will go away!!!" I didn't. I stayed calm, and eventually the urge to drink went away. However, if this headache comes back again, I don't know that I can take it anymore. What I'm wondering is this - are the headaches caused from the lack of alcohol in my system? I have drank at least 10-12 beers a night (more on the weekends) for the last ten years. Am I trying to get off the suds too quickly? Or are the cause of my headaches stemming from the supps?
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