HI, Everyone! I am still on this lovely blue ball, and I have made a decision. I knew it was coming when I chose to not make it through the month of August AF, even though I had started out that way. There were all sorts of reasons, circumstances, stresses, etc, all the way from out of town guests from the end of July to the middle of September to my in-laws being here for two weeks (lovely people, but still) to starting a new job. But the bottom line is, I was just feeling miserable about not being able to drink, and so I talked to my husband about it, and he agreed that it wasn't the right time. Yes, I tried to moderate. No, I wasn't successful. Dreadfully UNsuccessful, in fact.
And so, I went back to the MWO book, and reread it. And took it to my doctor. Whew. was that hard! But she borrowed it, read it, and agreed to prescribe Topomax for one month, to see how it works for me, and if it helps, she'll keep on going. I ordered EXACTLY the types of supplements RJ suggests and am doing the hypno cds again, and all. I tried to do it last spring, as some of you may remember, without the topo, and just didn't work at it after my 30 days AF. So, this time around, I am sticking to the program JUST THE WAY THE BOOK SAYS FOR THE WHOLE BLESSED 12 WEEKS. I had to shout that because I feel so strongly about it.
I started it this past Monday, the last Monday of September, and to be honest, there hasn't even been a glimmer of a craving. Last night my husband had dinner with a buddy, and to be honest, it was the first time I even thought about the possibility of having a drink, simply because I know that would have been my MO. I did think about it. But even though there is a half bottle of wine in the cabinet (not my type, but when did that ever stop me before?) I did not indulge. I sit here with a goofy grin on my face because I feel just that good about myself tonight. Yes, it is Friday. I have been known to over-indulge on our Friday date-nights, as you all know. But I also know I won't tonight, and I am not even tempted. So, for me, I am thinking that the Topomax must really be working! Oh, thank God!
So, my wonderful friends, who have been so faithful, here I am back again. I may not actually post every day, as the work schedule is keeping me hopping, but I promise to post as often as I can. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for all of you. Have a lovely weekend!
Mica
And so, I went back to the MWO book, and reread it. And took it to my doctor. Whew. was that hard! But she borrowed it, read it, and agreed to prescribe Topomax for one month, to see how it works for me, and if it helps, she'll keep on going. I ordered EXACTLY the types of supplements RJ suggests and am doing the hypno cds again, and all. I tried to do it last spring, as some of you may remember, without the topo, and just didn't work at it after my 30 days AF. So, this time around, I am sticking to the program JUST THE WAY THE BOOK SAYS FOR THE WHOLE BLESSED 12 WEEKS. I had to shout that because I feel so strongly about it.
I started it this past Monday, the last Monday of September, and to be honest, there hasn't even been a glimmer of a craving. Last night my husband had dinner with a buddy, and to be honest, it was the first time I even thought about the possibility of having a drink, simply because I know that would have been my MO. I did think about it. But even though there is a half bottle of wine in the cabinet (not my type, but when did that ever stop me before?) I did not indulge. I sit here with a goofy grin on my face because I feel just that good about myself tonight. Yes, it is Friday. I have been known to over-indulge on our Friday date-nights, as you all know. But I also know I won't tonight, and I am not even tempted. So, for me, I am thinking that the Topomax must really be working! Oh, thank God!
So, my wonderful friends, who have been so faithful, here I am back again. I may not actually post every day, as the work schedule is keeping me hopping, but I promise to post as often as I can. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for all of you. Have a lovely weekend!
Mica
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