here i am again

[lovemylife]

Ok, another old story...i was drunk again last night on my friend party and almost did something i shouldn't do and here i am with my guilty feeling again. feel ashamed of myself and hate why i just don't wanna stop drinking and why i always lose control. i can't make any promise with myself for being AF again, but this time i want it...i have to be AF or i know i'll die suffering because of my guilty feeling and i don't want to do something to betrayed my love because of the love i have with alcohol.

Usually it's not dificult for me to stay sober for 7 days, but now, i can only make it last for 4 days the most. so this time i will try to stay AF for 3 days...i hope i can...thank you for reading.:upset:

[My New Beginning]

here i am again

Hi lovemylife. Glad to have you here. You slipped up. Everyone does it or has done it. No sense beating yourself up because of it. We just need to keep trying. So now jump back on the wagon and just take it one day at a time. Check in to the ODAT board everyday; I think that you will find great support there. That has really helped me take it slow and stay focused because it's so hard to say 'I'll never drink alcohol again'. For me, and I know a lot of others here, that's how it has to be but only one day at a time.
Hoping today will be the start of AF days for you! Good luck.

[sparrow]

here i am again

Good morning Love,

Just wanted to say hi, and offer some encouragement. You can do this don,t beat your self up about last night just move foward. Keep stringing thosr AF days together. 3,4,5. and keep going of you fall off the wagon get right back on again. When the desire to drink cimes wait one hour and it will probably pass. Also dont put your self into drinking situations. Good luck to you.

Sparrow