urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

[ladyjan]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

8am test

Well here I go, 8am got my first test I know it will be clean coz I am AF....

BUT just hope that after I can hold out till next week

coz I have already got it in my head that I have got time to relax and have a few before next week...childish and stupid huh??

it really is like having the devil on my shoulder whispering in my ear tempting of how I could get away with it..

LJ

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Well done LJ you have achieved your first aim, and I bet it feels good. You can build from here, tell that devil on your shoulder to take a running jump you have more pressing issues, like your son. In relation to relaxing and having a few you need to rethink this and see that you are rewarding yourself now by not drinking. Keep up the good work you are doing great.

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urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Hi Jan,

I am amazed at your determination and success! Keep us posted and let us know how you are going. Also, it will be good to get your son home xx

[42cat]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

LadyJan ... *hugs* and power to you.

[ladyjan]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

00.00 result on test..

:yay: I knew it would be coz I've been a good girl for 2 days now...

But it's first time I've done one... except for DUI which I always got done for..!!!!! ops:

have resisted the devil and feel very positive and happy just got to keep it up.

Did have a 0.0 proof beer, wasn't bad rather nice really, coz it's still very hot here, nice and cold gonna get some of them for my fridge.

still taking the BAC & not gonna stop, coz 4 sure between that & u guys I am this far..

kisses Jan,:kissyface:

howz you going chook?? any better?? and tawnywitch howz the BAC going?

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urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Yay Jan! Thats fabulous news!
Keep on trucking and resisting those urges and might be an idea to put in place some strategies for future use should the going get tough.

[ChickenNumber3]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

ladyjan!

I am so totally proud of you right now..how good is that feeling!!!!!!!
You rock! You have just re-inspired me to go AF again for my babies!
Keep it going ! You are AWESOME!
Chook

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ladyjan;741163 wrote: in the end after 20mins paid for it and left it on the bar

You have got willpower! Just keep thinking of your son

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urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Hey LJ
How are you doing?

[ladyjan]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

OLLIE

Hiya,
Went to see my Ollie yesterday had a real nice time with him, what a difference without a drink.. playing with him and my concentation with him was so different and so happy..

I think can notice the difference although he doesn't say anything about it, but our time together is so much happier.

On the AL front still AF, it's not easy but the BAC is helping, I notice the change when it starts to wear off, gonna start to take some out with me in my bag, coz I was out longer than I counted on and could feel a change, I had a 00.00 beer in a bar it helped so it must be the psycological side craving..dunno..??

but made it home and had 1/2 a BAC tab(12.5mgs) made myself busy in the house, took doggies out for a walk along the marina stayed away from bars..they were calling.. always used to have a few pit stops when I took them out..

managed to resist, just hope I can keep it up, weekends are always hard, plus I knew I could cheat this weekend coz there is no risk of the breath test over the weekend..

well it's sunday now and have been good, just had my cold AL free beer, it's not bad actually starting to like it, but mustn't fall into the trap of having one in the morn coz I reckon that will soon lead to a real one in the morn......! don't wanna do that..

okies, take it easy you guys, my thoughts are with all of you, we are all in the same damm boat but at least we have eachother to reach out to.. the "normal people" really don't understand the painful depths and demons we struggle against daily,

they can be so condecending.."surely if you know it's dangerous for you, why can't you just stop"...F'ing B'stds.....Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

ladyjan:h:wave:

[tiptronic_ct]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Hey, LJ

Good on you! Your thinking is in the right place for you to make it through this.

Enough said

[ladyjan]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

one year on

I've Bumped my first thread of when my journey began, the story of my stuggle to get my little Ollie back from the very near brink of being lost into the system of care, for newbies and oldies alike to have a read and to know there can be a happy ending if you stick with it..
It does come true if you want it to.....

As most of you know Ollie was fully given back to me the 28th of July 2010 since being taken the 10th November 2008....20 months of a mother and child seperation....
He had only just turned 6 years and was close to 8 year when he came home...very magical sweet times of a little boys childhood with his mum, the cuddles and silly things that they say & do was taken from me..but it could've been forever.

I bring that up as a warning to those who may be dicing with danger of losing their own child as the social services are not blind or stupid, believe me....

I started to get on a roll once I started writing this and am at last writting my journey, will be finished in a bit, but it will be too long to continue on here...!!! so I'll post it on the right section in about an hour..


But it has a very happy ending as most of you know..:h:h

[OverIt2007]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

WHEW!!!

Lady Jan, I thought this was a very recent post, so I was worried and confused!!!

Thank you for bumping this up and reminding all of us how serious this is.


Im so glad you changed your life around, and even more glad that you gained your relationship with your son back.

Good Job!

[Gaia]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

Jan,

What a difference a year makes. Well done dearie! It really comes through how much you love Ollie.

With love,
T.

[lil.michelle]

urgently got to go dry but its dangerous

hi hunni, So glad to here you'll be getting your son back. I personally (if i was in your shoes) stop drinking and like now, when your heart is racing and sweating, go to the A&E and get checked in for help. You don't want do be doing this alone and that was hospitals are there for!!!!
Keep us informed!