Operation October - week three

[dill]

Operation October - week three

Thank you for the poem, Ladybirdheart. I logged on here to get some inspiration and comfort and found it.

Thank you all for your thoughtful, kind support. I am having a struggle today and having you here has helped.

[mica]

Operation October - week three

OH, Ladybird, that is such a beautiful poem. Thank you. I will print it off and treasure it. Lovely. Beautiful.

[FindingMyself]

Operation October - week three

Morning all – or afternoon, or evening as the case may be!

Cyn, glad you could hook up with us via phone. Keep the kudzu handy and keep that sweet thought of day 14 in the forefront of your mind.

Red, welcome back. I was so happy to read that you and your daughter had a nice time reconnecting with emotional clarity, and recognizing the simple things bring so much joy.

Dill, thank you for sharing what you are going through. You know, the thoughts of “when can I have one” go through my head all of the time. I’m determined to get through 30 days, but have no idea what is beyond that. I’m hoping to change my habits, but I know it is going to take a lot longer than 30 days to change 25 years of bad habits if they can be changed at all. I can’t look that far ahead right now, but I’m sure I’ll have another drink at some point in my life. Saying that here on this thread makes me feel like I’m posting something negative, but those are the thoughts that I have, that is my truth. And, if I can be honest here I think it helps me be honest with myself and to keep things in perspective. Like Red wrote, this is a journey. Just as alcohol use can be progressive, so too is our healing. Give yourself lots of loving today!

Lil, I’m doing the same – savoring the last days of autumn before the winter weather sets in. Had a nice long walk yesterday. Today I think cleaning house is probably going to be on the list.

Sooty, have a nice time – see you on humpday.

LadyBird, I love the poem you posted. It really inspires one to focus on inner strength or is it inner peace. It’s a keeper, thanks for sharing.

Lav - thanks, I'm glad to be here.

[sooty]

Operation October - week three

Hi gang, good to see you. Managed to find an internet connection in our hotel. Having a lovely time, back in the old home town. spent a lovely afternoon talking to and reminiscing with my relatives - my 85 year old aunt in fine form and doing really well. More visiting tomorrow - will be exhausted by humpday, but it is lovely to be back and I realise it has been too long.
Keep strong all. Dill be kind to yourself put it behind you and move forward.
LBH I love the poem. Lav-attitude going strong here.
Will try and see you all again tomorrow take care folks
love Sooty

[dill]

Operation October - week three

Hi friends!

It's been a lovely sunny day and I enjoyed some outside time which has helped restore me somewhat. I took a walk in the pastures and woods, dodging cow pies and chatting on the cell phone with a very dear friend. I watched the dogs running thither and yon in search of big game. The look like old dogs when they are on the porch, but you get out in the woods with them and they forget their aches and pains and run like pups. It lifts the heart to watch them.

Again, thank you all for your support. I enjoyed reading your various perspectives. I wish you all a good and peaceful evening.

Strength to all!

[Lavande]

Operation October - week three

Evening friends,

Dill, I'm hapy to hear your mood has lifted Let's just keep doing the best we can.......

Sooty, you're having a good visit - that's great!

Mica, good to see you as always.

Finding, hope you didn't spend the entire day inside, cleaning! We actually had a break in the rain - first time in 4 days......

LBH, the poem was very thoughtful, thanks for sharing it with us. I really hope the herbals give you relief, they helped me out tremendously! Give them a bit of time....

Time to sit for a while & just veg!
Have a great night everyone.
Lav

[ladybirdheart]

Operation October - week three

Hi all. I am feeling more mellow after a day with Lord Bird Heart at the botanic garden and a very late lunch in a little Greek restaurant where I like the tea and enjoyed a meal that I don?t associate with wine. I loved hearing how your old dogs gain their years back in the woods, Dill, I feel that way at the ocean. I really appreciate your honesty, Finding, I felt the same way when I did my August thirty days, certain that I would drink again one day and not knowing exactly how that would be. Trust me, it?s complicated. :H Take care all the rest of you dear ones, Mica, Pam, Lav, Lil, Sooty, Cyn, Red, J.C., and Peanut. Love, Ladybird.

[Pamina]

Operation October - week three

Evening folks,
A nice couple I've gotten to know here locally are leaving London, and we had their farewells today after church. I'm glad I was there but sad they're going. (BTW, he's lost a relative to AL). Sort of a bittersweet day. I had that same mixed feeling reading your posts, Dill and LBH, it could easily have been me a few weeks ago. That other headspace where the threshold is suddenly so low. If I'm calm I can have a glass and leave it at that. If there's some underlying turbulence I start the slip slipetty slipping into bigger doses. For me, the drinking always worsens whatever the original anxiety. Or maybe rather erodes my ability to deal with it. I can just picture that dark cloud gathering force, LBH, and enveloping you. Yuck!! I hope the herbs help. I've also ordered a UK version, Relora, in case I get caught unawares. The main thing is you're both back posting and kicking AL back out into the long grass where he belongs. Have some tea and TLC this evening, tomorrow is a whole new week. :l

[being present]

Operation October - week three

Hey guys, Can I join you all? I quit AL on Oct. 4, so I am 2 full weeks today!! It seems like you guys have a good supportive group going here!

[redhibiscus]

Operation October - week three

Being present,
Please join us, you are welcome. :welcome: I too feel that we on this thread are supporting each other on our continuing journey of being AF. Can you give us a little background so we can get to know you a bit? It is awesome that you have been AF for two weeks. I noticed feeling better and better physically as the time goes on. I am sleeping well, in fact, I could sleep 10 hours on most days. A huge change from my 5 or six restless hours of tossing and turning.

It is Monday and I am struggling....I want to stay home and do nothing today. But, I have to go in and take care of business, so I will. I am usually fine once I get to work, it is the anticipatory stuff that is hard. I am very grateful to have a job in this economy, so I need to think of that.

Everyone, have a great day, and I plan to check in later. Take care....:h

[dill]

Operation October - week three

Good morning, October friends!

Welcome to you, Being Present! Congrats on an awesome 2 weeks! :welcome:

Belated welcome (from me anyway) to Trucker123. :welcome: Sorry I forgot my manners yesterday. I was a bit self-absorbed yesterday. I'm getting back to 'normal' now!

Red, I know how you are feeling about work. I am OK once I get there, too, and grateful to have a job.

Pam, You are SO right about the alc increasing the anxiety. My emotions were very dark yesterday and because of it, I felt the pull of just saying "to @#$@ with it!" and giving up altogether. It was mostly the help of the members on this thread that helped me through my dark day. It was such a beautiful day on the outside with all the golden sunlight. But so dark on the inside. Ah well, "Mama said there'd be days like this."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8SD9baVPKw[/video]]YouTube - The Shirelles Mama Said There'd Be Days Like This

Finding, I appreciated the honesty in your post yesterday and have to agree with LBH: It's complicated! :H But doable.

Lav, Lil, Soots, Pnut, Cyn, everybody, have a good one!

[lilmea]

Operation October - week three

Good Monday morning to everyone.

LBH-Good to hear that Sunday was a better day for you. Are you originally from the South? I hope you don't mind my asking. I lived in Virginia for awhile and just loved the soft southern accents. For some reason, when I read your post, they always have that soft, calm accent.

Being-Welcome :welcome: and congratulations on 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.

Red-I had to chuckle a little when I read about you new sleep patterns. When I was drinking, I had so much trouble sleeping. Now I'm sleeping close to 9 hrs and wonder if that's to much? I think I'm just finally back to a normal sleep pattern. How you have a good day at work.

Dill-Yesterday must have been the day for walks. There is a small park with a petting zoo about a mile from my house. I've been walking there in the afternoons and feeding the animals. There are several baby goats and baby chicks right now. I hope you have a good day at work. Hang in there.

Lav-I know your there. Any big plans for today?

waving :waving: to Pam, Mica, Chops, Pnut, JC, Finding, Sooty and Cyn.

Time to get off here. Housework this morning and a walk this afternoon. Just a normal day.

[lilmea]

Operation October - week three

Dill-cross posting just like the old days. right?

[Lavande]

Operation October - week three

Good morning October friends,

I see sunshine today so nice after 4 dark, damp days here!

Hi being present, Welcome! Congrats on your 2 AF weeks - you must be feeling great!

Hi to Pam, LBH & red - hope Monday is good for you!

Dill, it's a new day - let's hold our heads high, face whatever comes with strength & determination (and as much Lavan-ittude as you need)!

I have a dental appointment this morning, some work to do in my shop then babysitting with my grandson this afternoon - busy, busy!

Have a great AF Monday everyone!
Lav

[Lavande]

Operation October - week three

Cross post as usual Lil