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[HOOT]

:new:Here it is- I am 43 year old ,married mother of 3 married for the second time with two step children a job I enjoy and a life most of my friends would trade in a heartbeat. I have always enjoyed drinking socially and have been the life of the most of the parties we attend. But in the past 10 years with all of the changes in my life, divorce, dating, blending families, moving ,changing jobs ,stress etc.....I have started drinking more daily and hiding it from the family to aviod the shame and embarrassment. My tolerence has built up to such a level it's been difficult to hide in the last few months. My mood swings were awful, I gained weight, I became obesessed with drinking and my marriage was suffering.
Treatment was not an option with my job commitment, my sister was in AA and I went to several of her meeting, but it wan't working for me. I came across the MWO Book on amazon and read through it. I seemd like a program that would work fo me. I started the supps and topa and I am on week 6 now up to 75/mg 2X day with the topa. My alcohol intake is down about 1/2 . I have noticed a decreace in cravings with the topa ,but not so much with the HABIT. That is what I need the most help with right now. The CD's are benificial. But I have a very busy life and don't always have time to unwind enough to get to a deep level of hypnosis.
Other sysmptoms are the metalic taste- numbness in feet and hands -(especially when working out) craving for sweets and carbs -
My goal is moderation:thanks:

[rubywillow]

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Hey, sweetie. You have painted a vivid picture of the too busy woman, too busy to worry about yourself. As hard as it is, if you don't MAKE time for you, no one else will. You've come to a great place, but it takes time and dedication to ourselves. The first, and for only now, thing I will tell you, is that you HAVE to put yourself in front of everything else. Don't argue, I know all the reasons you can't. But to be the woman YOU need to be, it's vital. Stop the madness NOW. You can take the time, even if it's 10 minutes when you go pee, to look to yourself. And the CD's work wonders when you go to sleep. Everyone has to go to sleep. Why do you deserve less than everything else you dedicate your life to? Come on, lets DEMAND some ME time, OK? It will serve everyone and everything so much better. There are so many people here to give you guidance better than me; working single moms, working dads, people who want the woman back who is the center of their life. You're not fooling anyone, they know there is a great woman there to be the one they count on.
Rubes

[HOOT]

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Thank you Ruby! You're absolutely right! I can always seem to make time for everyone and everything else in life. This has to be a priority right now or I can see my life getting out of control. I'll try the sleep cd tonight and make time tomorrow for the hypnotic. No alcohol today! No excuses tomorrow!
Thanks again for your advice and your insight Ruby!

[Moondancer]

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Hoot -

I am 44, and keenly identify with your motives for drinking. I also identify with the shame and embarrassment.

I'm in very much the same situation, although not married again yet. I believe the process and unspoken stresses of my separation and divorce really helped contribute to pushing me toward that precipice where I find myself now.

I haven't tried the book yet, but plan to order it. For now, I'm reveling in being sober for my fourth day now... Not that I've been absolutely smashed and non-functional over the past few years. I've managed to keep myself more or less functional - working, paying bills, existing... maintaining a semblance of normalcy. But I've been in a haze...

Like you, I see the very real potential - the eventuality - of losing control, and it scares me.

I'm not sure yet if moderation will work for me. For now, I'm trying to take care of myself and am resolute that for NOW it?s abstinence for me.

It is amazing to me how many others on this site I identify with.

It is also remarkable the number of people in my life who don't see a problem (at least on the surface) with their own drinking. I am realizing that the truth is inward...

Take Care Hoot...

[HOOT]

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Moondancer-

Thank you for your reply-I strongly suggest the book, it has been a very helpful tool up to this point. I have read it 3 times and I've followed the program, with the topa, supps, exercise and cd's have all been very benificial. I am motivated like yourself to change and that's whaere it all begins!!

Best of luck to you~~ HOOT

[Lavande]

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Hello HOOT and Moondancer,

Welcome to MWO, it is a god place!
No matter what your goal is there will be plenty of support available to you.

The MWO book can be purchased & downloaded right here from the Health store.
The CDs can be ordered but you'll have to wait for them to be mailed to you.
Making a plan for yourself is essential. Try looking in the Tool Box (located in the Monthly Abstinence section) for good ideas.

Congrats to both of you for your decision to take care of yourselves & for your success so far.
Please read & post often, we'd all love to get to know you better.

Wishing you the best!
Lav

Please feel free to join us on the 'Newbies Nest' thread too

[mario]

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:welcome: hoot and moondance i hope you stick around.this is a great community. :goodjob: