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[Suzanna]

Hello everybody, I've been reading and lurking and going on and off with the different supplements and all the holistic approach, bought the book a while ago, and the cd's. Now I'm stepping up the cd use, because I hadn't been listening to them except once and the subliminal I loaded on itunes at work so it would play. But I gotta step up and do it right. Except the topa, it scares me to use it. For me, I drink too much wine, and lately also started getting vodka and this weekend tequila, which I told myself was for a party but in fact I made jello shots and left the rest at home. Sometimes I tell myself that if it's in the house I won't be stressed about where and when to get it, and I won't feel that need to drink it, but that NEVER happens. If its there it will be drunk. Then I get drunk. This is a sad cycle and I'm getting fatter and bloatier and never really alert or "there" in the moment, not the person I want to be. Reading all these posts, knowing you are all out there, understanding and having been there and offering support, it means so much to me. P.S. I dumped the rest of the tequila

[buffy]

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Hi Suzanna, I can't have it in the house either. I told my husband to take the wine out of the house. If it is here, I will drink it no matter what time of the day. I start out saying that I will have just a glass to relax, but I will keep going until I pass out. I ordered the cd's and hope it helps. I have also gained weight, and want to feel and look good, but keep messing up any diet I go on with wine.....I don't want to do it anymore. Good Luck to you and hope to see you on here again....Buffy

[Bambino]

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me too suzanna and buffy - think one glass ? !!!! - oh no - 3 bottles later !!!!

It is banned from our house now XX Welll done and keep it up... not easy - but WORTH IT. XXXX

hugs
Liz
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[Guest]

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Hi Buffy and Suzanna!
Nice to see you both here and posting!
I've been around for quite a while now... with my fair share of ups and downs! On an upswing right now, so I feel OK giving you tips for what has worked! Yup, definitely stick with the supps that are working, and don't deviate from them, don't even miss one dose. I'm on the topa (2nd time around) and I find I do need it. See, while I CAN have the booze in my house, my problem is once I start drinking it, I can't stop if I'm not on the topa. More often than not it's not 2 glasses but 2 bottles later.... yuk.
Anyhow, doing MUCH better lately with moderating and several alcohol free days thrown in for good measure! Those days help (we call 'em AF days for short!). They get much easier the more of them you have, and I just decide in the morning "I'm having an AF day today", then I don't drink. Before the program, used to be white knuckling from like 3pm on, then half the time I'd end up drinking anyway...but now it's mandatory 2 AF days per wk at least.And I like my AF nights! Not torture at all. Working on more!

So we're all in this together, always tweaking our programs, always looking to achieve better levels of moderation or sobriety, whichever you choose, whichever is best and healthiest and the smartest option for you. You have both found this place, so you must be ready for change. Good for you!
:welcome: and continue to post. Looking forward to getting to know you better.

[lushy]

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Hi, I second what Becca said. You could have never told me I could have AF days ever but I have been able to have five in the last three weeks which is a huge deal for me. And they are not as hard as I thought they would be. I am not doing the full program; just the supplements and for me that is working. I do struggle with moderating though, depending on my mood, because once I get started I can go overboard. I hope you find what you are looking for here. Good Luck!

[Suzanna]

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hi Buffy, another newbie, thank you and Becca and Lush, Liz you are funny, but alot of truth, cuz if it is there, it's gonna get drunk. I understand what you mean when you say don't miss a dose, I have had All One around for 3 months now and if I'm consistent then it does partially handle the cravings, however if I miss a morning, that night I definitely go binge crazy, won't even put the glass down. Believe me I'm not taking any of this lightly but I do tend to try to deflect the problem with humor. Will try not to do that (too much). Posting is part of the process too so I will post and thank you all for your welcome.

[fsophiah]

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I have been around since June. When I came, I had been drinking at least three glasses of wine, but usually four or five, every day for about five or six years. Since the day I found this site, I immediately started drinking as much wine in a week as I used to consume in a day. Not only that, I just recently went through AF 30 days. I have done all the aspects of the program, and I struggled with topa. I thought I was having severe digestive problems, and I quit taking it, but I think I was allergic to kudzu. I now am back on a minimal dosage. Like Becca, I can't drink alcohol without being on topa. I haven't tried campral. However, I have discovered all kinds of wonderful things I didn't know were possible. Also, I have found caring souls and discovered all kinds of cutting edge information about the physical aspects of what makes us what we are and how we can re-invent ourselves. And you're right. If people here weren't funny, articulate, witty, and warm, it wouldn't be worth dropping by, would it?

[Suzanna]

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fsophia, you are doing a fantastic thing, working it and making such great progress. I hope to be where you are, consuming less and less. I see a difference but not as much as you have accomplished, that is great. I like the idea of AF days. Maybe I can work that into my hypno sessions. Suzanna

[buffy]

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Hi Suzanna, I hope you are doing well. I wanted to tell you what happened on Thursday night. By the grace of god I got the cd's and the book in the mail Thursday afternoon. I was so excited to listen to them and look over the book. I was home alone so I skimmed over the book and then got comfortable in bed and listened to the clearing cd and then the hypnosis one. I was a little afraid while I was doing it and almost had a panic attack I felt so weird. I think it was because I didn't know what to expect. I got the absinence ones, but while reading the book I decided I wanted to just try cutting back. I said things about sipping, not getting drunk....etc....during the programing part. I went to the party, had a few glasses of wine, actually sipped them....which is very unusual for me....I get nervous around new people. I was the one that told my husband it was time to go, he wanted to have another glass of wine first, the friend who's house we were at wanted us to stay, but I said we needed to get home. We left, my hubby had another bottle of wine in the refrig at home. We had another glass of wine, I fell asleep and didn't even fininsh it. Ok.....I thought that I was just having a good night of will power, so I thought I would listen to the cds again and see how it went again. I felt more comfortable about getting into it this time, last night we went out, came home, hubby opened a bottle of wine, I drank one glass, and couldn't drink anymore. It didn't even taste good. That was the only glass on a Friday night.....amazing! The cds say you will be proud of yourself when you wake up the next morning...I am. I am afraid to get too excited because I don't want to be dissapointed. But it is pretty cool. take care.....Buffy

[Suzanna]

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Buffy, that's great! I know you were worried and look at you, great success! Did you get the social drinking cd too? I'm glad that it went so well and you could say, ok, that's enough, time to go, it's very inspiring.