Yesterday my best friend and I just realized that we were total binge drinkers.
I have sustained 2 not so nice injuries in the last year.
We are only 24 and already have these issues. I guess it all started since we were 15ish...we hung around the wrong crowd in a small town and never grew out of our habits.
This last year I got a 2nd & 3rd degree burn on my left arm from falling on a grill at a campground because I was so blasted. I don't think these scars will ever go away. The other one I got is on my face, it was just a scrape below my left eye but it was totally not necessary from falling.
I think the thing we hurt the most is ourselves inside though....it's always happens humiliation from not remembering what we did or what we said,.M
y husband thinks I am crazyfor thinking I have a drinking problem. I am confused at this point where I don't know if I ever want to drink socially. For my sake and safey I shouldn't. I am also sad because a lot of our friends are total partiers and I am sad that I won't be able to hang around them so much anymore. We grew up with a lot of them but at the same time it's time to grow up. I don't want to bring children into this world and have them watch us party.
I have just started what seems like it will be a successful career, happily married, awesome family, rich in friendships so why the binge drinking?
Anyways thanks for listening to me babble....I guess I always liked the idea of work hard=play hard. But it's starting to get out of hand now. We are becoming more and more dependent on alcohol for us to have fun. I know you can have fun without it but it seems like such a foreign concept to me.
Lord give me the strength to overcome this familiarity that has been going on for so long now.
Thanks everyone.
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