Hello all,
I disappeared for a few months after doing pretty well this summer, but now I'm back. As my husband put it, I'm on a slow drip to destruction, and I can't do it alone. I spend most of my days alone, in a cold cluttered house. Although I have a part time job, children, and some friends, it's not really enough to keep me going. I want to be stronger, but it's too easy to be detached and think I can get away with certain things. I feel pretty down today. I have made the personal commitment to start with one week AF, and then build from there. 30 days sounds like too much, but I'd like to do it, I just can't start there.
Are there any of you in Europe who might possibly be interested in being a buddy? I feel like, when I get wobbly in the day, if I had someone to call, or email, who shared some aspects of my life, it would help. Please don't suggest AA - I do not believe in putting myself in the hands of a higher power, and I will never hold hands and chant the serenity prayer, although for those of you who benefit from this I am happy for you. It's just a personal feeling that's all, not saying bad things about AA. Anyway, I'd be dealing with another language and that would probably be unproductive.
SO, I ask you, if you might be interested in buddying with a quasi-housewife who dabbles in business and politics, please contact me. I don't trust my friends. There was an English movie made in the 90's where the villainess said to the young girl, "Never ever tell a secret, least of all to your best friend."
My husband tries to be supportive, but all this makes him mad and depressed so think it would be best to turn elsewhere for help.
With a big ache,
Tulipe
I disappeared for a few months after doing pretty well this summer, but now I'm back. As my husband put it, I'm on a slow drip to destruction, and I can't do it alone. I spend most of my days alone, in a cold cluttered house. Although I have a part time job, children, and some friends, it's not really enough to keep me going. I want to be stronger, but it's too easy to be detached and think I can get away with certain things. I feel pretty down today. I have made the personal commitment to start with one week AF, and then build from there. 30 days sounds like too much, but I'd like to do it, I just can't start there.
Are there any of you in Europe who might possibly be interested in being a buddy? I feel like, when I get wobbly in the day, if I had someone to call, or email, who shared some aspects of my life, it would help. Please don't suggest AA - I do not believe in putting myself in the hands of a higher power, and I will never hold hands and chant the serenity prayer, although for those of you who benefit from this I am happy for you. It's just a personal feeling that's all, not saying bad things about AA. Anyway, I'd be dealing with another language and that would probably be unproductive.
SO, I ask you, if you might be interested in buddying with a quasi-housewife who dabbles in business and politics, please contact me. I don't trust my friends. There was an English movie made in the 90's where the villainess said to the young girl, "Never ever tell a secret, least of all to your best friend."
My husband tries to be supportive, but all this makes him mad and depressed so think it would be best to turn elsewhere for help.
With a big ache,
Tulipe
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